What's Bothering You?

Well the huge pier all along the edge of my city is on fire. The pier spans the whole waterfront. There's apartments & shops all along so I hope it doesn't spread upwards. Also the air quality is even worse now and I can't even see the trees in the distances when I stand on the front steps of my house.
 
today a ticket inspector shouted at my sister infront of everyone on our train for not having her ticket with her (it hasn't been delivered yet, she bought it but the inspector wouldn't listen) and accused her of trying to dodge paying the fare (as if we dont have to spend 70 dollars annually just to drive on this rusty old train).

i really hate how young people are treated in this country and are allowed to be yelled at unprovoked. as if i didn't already hate living on the countryside with bugs and cow stench (yup THAT stench) wafting in every night so i can't open my windows, the people are generally so unfriendly too.
not the urban unfriendliness where everybody ignores you, but just the polar opposite, where u ~are allowed~ to be treated like dirt.
 
Why did I have to say something so rude to someone I’m fond of? Ugh, my impatience always get the best of me...
 
Regretting a dumb thing I said. It's already been a few hours but I just can't get it out of my head.

I'm just hoping it's not as big of a deal as I'm thinking it is.
if its what I'm thinking of its not a big deal lol

anyways why do I feel as if I'd been crying when I'm perfectly fine
now I'm in a shgsdjdduhggghggghhw kind of mood
 
Why did I have to say something so rude to someone I’m fond of? Ugh, my impatience always get the best of me...
it’ll be okay! i would recommend apologizing, from what it sounds like they’d forgive you or just be confused why you’re sorry in the first place ^^
 
I'm so sick and tired of everything. These past few weeks have been the worst and I'm so sick of it. Every day has been worse than the last. I'm so anxious, my mouth is killing me, I've been getting nauseous, I'm scared of everything every night, intrusive thoughts, possible depression, hurricane possibly coming tomorrow, school, trying to hold up bland conversations with someone and dealing with their stress on top of mine today, EVERYTHING IS ****ING PILING ON TOP OF ME AND I'M SO SICK AND TIRED AND I WISH I COULD END IT ALL. I HATE MY LIFE SO GOSH DANG MUCH AND THERE'S NOTHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO AT ALL BECAUSE I LITERALLY HAVE NO LIFE OUTSIDE OF ONLINE. Not to mention the anxiety of the majority of my friends possibly being taken away from me one day. I'm. So. ****ing. Tired. Of. Everything.
 
I keep having bad panic attacks every day, and goodness it’s tiring. I don’t know what’s normal anymore, at this point feeling like I’m going to faint at the end of every day is normal. I don’t eat enough and I know it. I’m just so so so tired
Edit: The remote learning students at my school seem to be less worthy of anything than the in-person students and I hate it so much
Second edit: my friend wants to die and i don’t blame her.. or do i? i’m confused w myself right now
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I'm so sick and tired of everything. These past few weeks have been the worst and I'm so sick of it. Every day has been worse than the last. I'm so anxious, my mouth is killing me, I've been getting nauseous, I'm scared of everything every night, intrusive thoughts, possible depression, hurricane possibly coming tomorrow, school, trying to hold up bland conversations with someone and dealing with their stress on top of mine today, EVERYTHING IS ****ING PILING ON TOP OF ME AND I'M SO SICK AND TIRED AND I WISH I COULD END IT ALL. I HATE MY LIFE SO GOSH DANG MUCH AND THERE'S NOTHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO AT ALL BECAUSE I LITERALLY HAVE NO LIFE OUTSIDE OF ONLINE. Not to mention the anxiety of the majority of my friends possibly being taken away from me one day. I'm. So. ****ing. Tired. Of. Everything.
i’m so sorry you feel like this, i hope it gets better soon. sending prayers your way 💕💕
 
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I keep having bad panic attacks every day, and goodness it’s tiring. I don’t know what’s normal anymore, at this point feeling like I’m going to faint at the end of every day is normal. I don’t eat enough and I know it. I’m just so so so tired
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i’m so sorry you feel like this, i hope it gets better soon. sending prayers your way 💕💕
Thank you so much, and I hope your panic attacks go away ;;
 
Man gotta love this and that "activists" who basically use all their time to post passive-aggressive **** on social media lol
 
my brain has just been so foggy for the last,, few weeks? so even tho i'm back at school I just cannot concentrate on anything for more than .2 seconds. don't even know why it's like this so I have no idea how to go about 'clearing' my brain if you will. school was supposed to bring some normality back :c
 
I feel like I need to eat more healthier, but it’s so hard. They said that it’s not my fault for craving junk food as I was given that a lot when I was little but yet it still feels like it is. It’s frustrating. I don’t know any kind of balance. I feel like I have no time to make food, but I know I’m just lazy. I study and try to get good grades and ear poorly while my sister spends most of her time going to sports practice, meal prepping and cooking while she currently is not doing too well in her classes. I wish she could listen to me and actually take school a bit more seriously and for me, to make something healthy. If we could just find a balance then that would be perfect.
 
I'm thinking too hard about the future again... the future where my life literally crumbles apart because I cannot take care of myself and I'm way too emotional. I've been trying to not think about this but since it's going to happen anyway, it keeps coming up.
 
after a long day I‘m tired, but I just sit in bed and try not to faint because i’m so lightheaded and nauseous. it doesn’t help that i’m struggling to understand who i am as a whole and i hate it so much, i hate being confused like this because it adds to the normal stress.
i also have panic attacks a lot, which i know that i vented about earlier but i hate it so much and i- aaa i don’t know. it’s the worst part of my life and everyone else is like “oh yeah i get panic attacks every month or so” and then there’s me struggling to breathe every night just because of stupid anxiety.
not sure why i’m venting here, but i just need to get this off my chest
 
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