What's Bothering You?

Went to bed at 10pm after being unwell but haven't been able to sleep. Now almost 3:30am and I'm still awake and feeling rotten. 😥
 
tonight I left behind a friend group/server i had been in for almost 3 years and it makes wonder if I'm always going to be a drifter. I can find all kinds of people and make friends fine but I always end up eventually leaving them behind. not much reason behind why I left besides just feeling down and choosing to cut ties. maybe I have a problem, honestly don't know at this point
 
sister is so loud every single day with her friends online...Why can't l ever have peace in my room
 
i hate how jealous i get ;__; my bsf said she can’t wait for us to hang out and stuff but idk she just gives off the vibe that she doesn’t even really want to and she’s just saying that .. like rn she told me she’s at her other friend’s house and i’m just like :/ bc shes rly the only other person i’ve been itching to hang out with besides my bf but i just feel like she doesn’t rly care if we hang out or not and idk . and i said jokingly “when r u gonna come to my house smh” and she’s just like “whenever i can” but UGH there is something off:( if she really wanted to hang out with me she would have made the time for it instead of hanging out with other friends before me :/ (that kinda sounds weird but that’s how i genuinely feel ik its :///) i feel like she likes her other friends more than me even if i’m her “best friend” .. to be honest i feel like i have rly bad attachment issues and i get upset whenever she mentions another friend n i know it’s bad and it’s kinda toxic for me to be that way but i also get attached since she is rly the only friend i have atm besides my boyfriend and i’d really like to keep her as a friend but it just feels like she doesn’t rly like me or like the idea of hanging out with me,,, she’s always talking abt other friends anyway :/ it might just be me overthinking everything bc of one thing she told me but either way i really hate being this way with friends
 
Today wasn’t too bad, but I still need to get a few things off my chest.
As it turns out I have a foot wart, not a blister. Due to having it for two months I have to visit the doctor’s office a few more times. The pain is still there, but at least I can go back to work.
This is without a doubt the worst depressive episode I’ve had in two years. The breakup just makes my mood and opinions fluctuate. I’ll go from accepting the situation one minute to being full of anger for how I was treated. There’s no consistency. On top of that I’ve lost my appetite and have developed trust issues. I’m struggling to even trust some of my friends at this point.

I feel terrible too since that rebound will have to deal with the same things I did. The neglect, the empty apologies, and the mood swings were so exhausting. This feels like watching a car crash from a distance. I know they’re not my problem anymore, but I can’t help feeling this way.
 
Found a picture of this actor I really like when he was younger and I can't get over how handsome he is/was :^^) Doesn't help he's probably like 80 years in this day and age so lol.
 
Random anxiety decided to keep me awake.
I wanted to play a specific game to get over it but I'm not the only one awake, so the Switch isn't available.
 
Dunquixote said:
oh no! I hope you feel better soon and are able to fall asleep soon.
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I eventually passed out around 5am, only to be woken-up by the alarm at 8am. When my mother showed up at 9 o'clock she thought I was hungover, told her what was actually wrong, then she made me some tea and told me to go back to bed. Seems like a perfect day to just lie in bed and island hop. :coffee:

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Oh my tummy hurts :( woke me up like an hour or so ago but I managed to fall back asleep but now I’m awake again cause it hurts :( what a bummer 😔💕
 
I've been in a funk with my art for like 4 months now, I have no energy or focus to draw anything at all and I hate it. I've got two people wanting to do an art trade w me and every day I just keep letting them down more and more.

I feel especially bad now seeing people do art trades in that one thread, I would love to participate but i... just can't 😞
 
-Lumi- said:
I’m really sorry that you’re not able to visit your S/O, Holla. I know that’s rough and here’s to hoping it doesn’t take us too long to get things back under control 💕
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Shellzilla said:
I can already see this being a disaster. How is it going to be enforced if there are literally thousands of people out and about, whether or not if they have legitimate reasons to be outside? Seriously, I feel like we're doing worse compared to last year and I hate it. I know for a fact that my dad would be absolutely fuming about this, and rightfully so. A lot of people are turning a blind eye to hard facts and data showing warning signs. Yet the government doesn't seem to be acting accordingly in the proper areas. Cases are rising in factories? Yeah sure, let's close down small businesses further. That'll work! Logic and common sense don't seem to be the motto for them... 🤦‍♂️

People working in hospitals are really having a hard time mentally and it's just a slap in the face when there are others being careless. I'll still do my part to keep others safe, but this is just getting on my nerves because some people are being selfish. Do you have any idea how long I've been waiting to take my road test?
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The whole situation still sucks, but I will say that several police forces in many areas have said that they won’t be randomly pulling people over in order to ask where they are going and why. They still have the power to yes, but seems like several forces find this unfair. They will still be cracking down on large gatherings and whatnot of course, but going in your car for just a drive *should* be ok. Though it does seem to be up to the individual police forces.
 
I am very annoyed about something and would like to post but I am afraid of getting in trouble and making people mad. Also, I retweeted my thoughts on someone’s art on twitter and I am worried that even though it was a compliment that it bothered her. i really am fighting the desire to delete it like i had with some of my other comments but it is so hard.
 
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Woke up 4 am the first time, went to pee and had some water. Back in bed, ****ing birds started singing like hell and kept me awake for ages so I dunno if I ever got back to sleep or not and then I got up like 7.30-8 am again and I'm super tired.. ughh 😔
 
Back to work tomorrow after having two weeks off and I'm dreading it knowing I'll have to put up with everyone moaning about the pandemic and thinking they know better than all the medical experts who are actually doing their best to help us get back to normal life again. 🙄
 
mmm just loving people commenting on stuff believes everything that is on the internet lolol
 
Ankle hurts so much after ice skating. Haven’t done it in quite a few years and a few hours after skating I’m in quite a bit of pain. I can’t fully twist my foot (metacarpals area feels sore) as well as the right side and upper ankle.
 
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