What's Bothering You?

How am I this cold right now. I literally woke up due to being too warm and now I'm freezing.
I'm guessing it's my bad sleeping habits not agreeing with me once again.​
 
i can tell im gonna fail my fails, especially in math. im gonna be stuck in 9th grade forever my dudes.
 
I thought I was doing better, but I can feel depression creeping in again. I should find another therapist because I really didn’t like my last one, but I’m having problems trusting anyone. The old one seemed so biased and didn’t seem to like me at all. Why continue to be my therapist when you seem to feel that way, It seems unethical to me. Maybe I just need more sleep, but when I get to sleep in I can’t sleep that night so I’m back where I started. My eyes also burn from allergies I’m ready for spring to be over.
 
honestly **** this medication, man. Coming off it slowly has given me every single side effect possible - nausea, dizziness, indigestion, digestion problems, chills and sweats. Just started my new one this morning and feel like I’m going to vomit and fall over from dizziness. Perhaps I shouldn’t be working right now lmao. I hope all this crap goes away soon because I just want to feel better. A pinch of happiness would be fantastic rn.
 
damn sunburns lol

also yeah people who say they have a broad music taste yet they only listen to billy eyelash and mumble soundcloud rap okey dokey bruthurrrr
 
this is nothing bad. I am a bit overwhelmed by Toyhouse now i have an account. I thought when I deleted a folder I deleted a picture by accident but I found out it wasn’t. Then I saw i had two of one image so i am still confused by that. Also I read the rules about using screenshots I freaked out a bit since i uploaded screenshots i took from video games of my favorite character so I quickly took them down; was going to upload a gacha character to be in gallery of references with link going back to game’s site but not sure if that is okay. If I was an anime character last night and now, my eyes would be kinda like @.@. lol. I do like this a lot but am so confused. I keep changing my mind how I want to organize them. I just remade some folders and moved the characters to the appropriate one but now I’m wondering if unsorted would be better.
 
They're bringing back iCarly without Sam?
i grew up on icarly i cried when it was over
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This is going to get personal:
I got into a huge argument with my mom, because she wanted to prevent me from rescheduling my appointment to see my doctor. She taught that I should see him soon, but because she had other appointments on that same day it would not make sense for our appointments to conflict with each other. I told her that it was my decision to reschedule but then she got very mad and went on the phone to stop me from doing it. I told her to stop but she just told me to "Shut up" and then telling the person on the phone saying "I don't care if he yells, I'm his mother" The thing is I am a 25 year old adult who is autistic and I have to learn to make my own decision, but when my mom tries to make them for me it gets in the way of doing stuff I want to do. Since then we haven't spoken to each other all day and she is still mad. I just wish she would support my decisions instead of just doing things her way that stops me from doing what I want to do.
 
I need to print a shipping label but I can't install the driver for it on my laptop, I was really hoping to get this package sent out today -__-
 
Tomorrow i have to talk to my psychiatrist. I am not looking forward to the “Anything new going on with you? Are you going back to school?” I know he has to ask those questions but seriously how the f am i going to go back to school without money and while I still owe money for what years I had spent in college? And two, when he ask me if I found a job, no one wants to hire someone with anxiety or asperger’s but you know everything and anxiety is not considered a disability to you even though it is very debilitating! If he had took the time to help me find some help maybe then i can have a different answer for him. but since he lost my trust I’m keeping my answers short and not telling him more than necessary. i just need my medicine.
 
I wanted to start my next playthrough or FE3H but I’ve been feeling mentally drained the last few days and even though I am not really tired, I can’t get myself to move and get the game or if I start playing, I end up putting it aside and forgetting about it as I browse tbt. 😅 Oops sorry for the double post. I forgot it wouldn’t merge after so much time passed ><
 
My therapist hasn’t helped me process that “breakup” much. She just keeps saying I’ll be fine after a while. Time helps sure, but distraction is the only other thing helping. The second I quit doing something my mind ruminates on the lies, apathy, and mistreatment I went through. It was the same back in High School. If someone treats me terribly I just ruminate for ages. The less the other person cares about my suffering the worse it gets. Why does my therapist think time and distraction is all I need? I’m supposed to be receiving cognitive behavioral therapy for this.
 
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