What's Bothering You?

saw something i really, really wish i hadn’t. i suppose it’s better for me to know than to not, but it has ruined my evening and perhaps a long term friendship.
 
just trying to pass time at work as I really don’t want to start something new this late on a Friday afternoon and Anxiety™️ Prohibits me from asking ppl what to do lmao
 
this is nothing bad. I am a bit overwhelmed by Toyhouse now i have an account. I thought when I deleted a folder I deleted a picture by accident but I found out it wasn’t. Then I saw i had two of one image so i am still confused by that. Also I read the rules about using screenshots I freaked out a bit since i uploaded screenshots i took from video games of my favorite character so I quickly took them down; was going to upload a gacha character to be in gallery of references with link going back to game’s site but not sure if that is okay. If I was an anime character last night and now, my eyes would be kinda like @.@. lol. I do like this a lot but am so confused. I keep changing my mind how I want to organize them. I just remade some folders and moved the characters to the appropriate one but now I’m wondering if unsorted would be better.

My apologies if this is sort of old to comment on, but I stumbled on it and just wanted to say that gosh I feel this so much. orz I just got a Toyhouse account too and I am just, so very confused and overwhelmed on how to figure out how to do pretty much anything. ;o; I completely missed there was even a rule about screenshots?? so now I have to go back and check I didn't miss anything else important and I'm just, ahhhhh ><;; I don't know if you get this too but I honestly find the site a bit difficult to grasp? Like navigating it I mean, usually I'm not this bad at getting the hang of a new website but it's just, I feel so silly and dumb for struggling so much with it.
It's also reminded me how much I miss charahub honestly ;o;

Now onto what I originally came here to vent about.
Both my own birthday and my best friend's birthday are coming up in about a week and a half, and I'm really really excited about mine because she is drawing me a really special gift for it and I can't wait to see it. The only problem though, is she's really specific about what she likes as gifts, so when I asked her what she wanted for her birthday she said she wanted me to draw her something (this was before I knew she was drawing me something too). The problem is, she's an amazing artist, really skilled and just, great. And I'm not at all. I can barely draw honestly. I used to be okay with still life drawings and things I did in my art class, but almost nothing from then stuck in my skills or memory and I just, can't do anything decent now. And it's really upsetting me because I want to give her something nice that she'll like for her birthday because I already messed up my gift for her last year and I just, I don't know what to do because I don't know how to make her something that's good enough. I really don't want her to be disappointed with my gift, and that's assuming I can even make anything for her at all. I just wish I was better at, doing things and learning and that I could actually draw like I see in my head but my hands won't do it.
 

That’s exactly what I’m struggling with.

As for what you’re worried about, if you don’t mind me commenting (if you do, I apologize, and ignore this): I want to say if she is asking you to draw something that she will appreciate it no matter what as long as you put time and effort in it. I feel like a hypocrite saying this since recently I drew some artwork for some friends and they all liked my art but I felt really embarrassed with my quality of art since I don’t know drawing techniques and colored pencils are my tools for coloring 😅 while they’ve made me really adorable digital art. I think considering the fact that she’s picky, that she insisted on this gift because she wants to see what you can make for her and I am sure - being your friend, she is aware of how you feel and perhaps is maybe the reason she insists on that as a gift.

I could be completely wrong, but you and her both sound like amazing friends if she’s doing that for your birthday and seeing how much you’re worrying about it. Sorry for butting in. I just wanted to try to encourage you.
 
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Please don't apologize for commenting! This was actually, really lovely of you honestly, and I really appreciate it. I've just been sitting here rereading what you said, just being really touched by it and not knowing what to say. I was feeling really down because I had been trying to practice drawing some and it wasn't working like I wanted it to, and, I don't know but I think I just really needed to hear something like this so, thank you very much actually. You did actually encourage me a whole lot, and I really do appreciate it so, so much.
 
Please don't apologize for commenting! This was actually, really lovely of you honestly, and I really appreciate it. I've just been sitting here rereading what you said, just being really touched by it and not knowing what to say. I was feeling really down because I had been trying to practice drawing some and it wasn't working like I wanted it to, and, I don't know but I think I just really needed to hear something like this so, thank you very much actually. You did actually encourage me a whole lot, and I really do appreciate it so, so much.

I’m happy to hear that :). If you ever need to vent again, my dms are always open. 🙂
 
I’m happy to hear that :). If you ever need to vent again, my dms are always open. 🙂
Thank you so much. :) I might just take you up on that! And I'm also happy to listen if you ever want to talk about something too.
Or if you want someone to share in toyhouse troubles with. cx
 
This might be the weirdest and most intense medication withdrawal I’ve had. Instead of feeling more depressed I’m having a killer headache with some nausea. Not even painkillers are helping. Ugh.
 
Nope I wasn't ready for that episode. Sure it had some good stuff tucked in(especially that pudding and ham stuff loool) but yeah they also showed when my fave character died earlier on.. haaa :^^^) it was like a 300th celebration episode so it was basically a lot of stuff from earlier on

oh well i could pay customs last night ... would be nice if they drove it out tomorrow but no hopes tbf LOL.
 
Feels bad, knowing my whole family is at my brothers wedding right now and only I'm missing. And no, it's not my fault. My brother jsut organised extremelly bad, giving zero information, making the trip impossible for me. But it hurts, even my Mom came, she always dodged to come visit me and here she is, at my brothers wedding.
 
My neighbors ard at it agian with the fireworks!😡🙉 so loud. Someone outside even said "Shut up with the fireworks!" And I don't blame them. I've tried to call the cops but after they leave like a couple days later they go RIGHT back to it. Yeah, I get fireworks are pretty, but notice most people use them on the 4th of July and new years, not every day. Sometimes they do it in the morning too! Like bruh no one can see the fireworks why are you doing this 😒 😐 😑 I hate my neighborhood but I don't have new house money so i'm stuck here
 
I need to use my phone less. I've developed a callous on my little finger from where the case rests when I hold it. Alternatively I could continue my terrible habits and just buy a softer case.
 
i'm incredibly arachnophobic, and there's a fairly large spider in my bathroom that hides in a hole in the skirting board where a pipe goes in, meaning that nobody can catch it

the problem is that it only tends to come out when it's dark, so now i'm paranoid of going to the toilet during the night
 
second vaccine dose hasn't been as nice to me as the first was. I'm super tired, physically exhausted for no reason, and I even have a slight headache. I could barely pick up one of our big cats cause i just feel so weak. I also have no appetite though I should prob be drinking water (whoops!).

at least my funny doggo has made this day pretty enjoyable so far.
 
Feels bad, knowing my whole family is at my brothers wedding right now and only I'm missing. And no, it's not my fault. My brother jsut organised extremelly bad, giving zero information, making the trip impossible for me. But it hurts, even my Mom came, she always dodged to come visit me and here she is, at my brothers wedding.
Sorry you are going through that Mipha. Weirdly the same sort of thing happened to me, my sister decided to skip out on a big wedding and just had a small ceremony with immediate family only - except me. The wedding picture's showing the bride and groom with their families makes it look like I don't even exist. I will say though as more time passes it bothers me less, hopefully in time you'll feel less bad about it too. Sending you good vibes today ❤


I have had a horrible sleep for the last two nights due to the current heatwave. The temp is supposed to drop tomorrow and I can't wait for it, I really can not handle a third night of sleep like this so I'm really hoping I'll be able to get some real rest this time.
 
Sorry you are going through that Mipha. Weirdly the same sort of thing happened to me, my sister decided to skip out on a big wedding and just had a small ceremony with immediate family only - except me. The wedding picture's showing the bride and groom with their families makes it look like I don't even exist. I will say though as more time passes it bothers me less, hopefully in time you'll feel less bad about it too. Sending you good vibes today ❤

Oh wow, that's so mean. I'm sorry that you had to go through this.. I'm glad that you're able to be less bothered by it by now!
Sadly hormons of pregnancy are currently not helping the situation a lot - I hope tomorrow it will be better, but I fear that there
will be the flood of pictures coming, once the wedding itself is over. q-q
And thank you. ❤

Good luck with your sleep also, you can send some heat my way. I would prefer that over the rainy wheater!
 
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