What's Bothering You?

Mostly anxiety.
I feel extremely stupid. I am afraid I messed up. I am worried about a lot of things so I wanted to try to say I’m worried, but I couldn’t articulate myself and stumbled regardless because…this is pretty lame, but I’m afraid I overstepped the line. I want to be a supportive friend but I also want to be a good friend that looks out for my friends. I also may have been hurting another friend :(. Maybe I’m trying to hard. I treasure all my friends deeply but I suck at expressing myself and deciding what would be the best decision how to support my friends. I think a lot of the choices I make are wrong or are just normal—like the time i told a friend that others in our group was trashing them. i didn’t know i wasn’t supposed to do that; then again, another friend who was present tattled so pretty much doing ty r same thing and yeah…idk even now wtf i was supposed to do if they would do the same thing. my friends who i told said they’d tell me if anyone would trash me so…

Not to make this an excuse. Last thing I want to do is act as the victim. I think I messed up :(. sorry probably won’t cut it either :/.

I wish I was normal, had no anxiety, no symptoms of autism or asperger’s even though my doctor pretty much to embrace being different (or rather look at how it gives me a different perspective and possibly different skills from someone without it). I just want to fit in and not have as much difficulty reading moods and whatnot. :/
 
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Have to clean my guinea pigs cage today, hasn't been cleaned since last Saturday and man we can smell it.. >->
Also have to iron some clothes, it's something I absolutely hate to do.
 
The best way to be a good friend is simply to listen. Offer advice when it's needed and help when it's asked for. It's very easy to overstep the boundaries when you feel you have good intentions, but you should remember that supporting a friend should always be about meeting their needs rather than how kind or helpful you might look in the situation.
 
I need to go to bed earlier. My brain seems to ruminate on negative memories more after 10 P.M. No matter how many times I remind myself I can’t stop focusing on the past. It’s like my mind is attached to all of the horrible people that have been in my life.
 
The best way to be a good friend is simply to listen. Offer advice when it's needed and help when it's asked for. It's very easy to overstep the boundaries when you feel you have good intentions, but you should remember that supporting a friend should always be about meeting their needs rather than how kind or helpful you might look in the situation.

Thank you so much, Vris for the input. That is what I originally thought, but as time went on, I guess maybe I let my own personal feelings make me forget that entirely ><.
 
I'm trying to job hunt and narrow things down. Right now there's two that things are progressing with. One I want more than the other. Problem is I messed up the aptitude test on accident and now I'm worried that'll ruin my chances even though the interview went very well. But I don't want to tell them what happened because it might look like I'm making excuses.

The other one I'm not as interested in (in part because I'm a bit worried about the work atmosphere) but I have so many assignments to do as part of the hiring process. I'm going to the company tomorrow for an in-person interview as well so I'll see how I feel.

My contract is ending in August for my current job (leaving it) and although I do have some more time on my visa I'd like to get things set right away so that I can start getting things wrapped up and also know where I have to move to since I need to be out of my apartment in a month.
 
I'm really tired because yesterday I was up since 3am, had 4 hours of internship, an hour of class, and then went to the gym/worked on HW until about 11pm. Today I have around 6 hours of class + gym/HW and I am just feeling so out of it. Definitely have learned that summer classes are no joke!
 
Sooo, those idiot mail people "tried" delivering, I even saw the car going by and I didn't have a chance catching the drive either. So tomorrow it hopefully is but I'll make sure to tell the store they should NOT use that method again 😠
 
I'm so overwhelmed with everything. Even when I collect myself and get everything together something else goes wrong and it's another thing to pile onto the list of things I have to deal with. I just really need a vacation. maybe someday
 
Go to play Xbox...

*Power on
"System needs an update"
*Start Update
*Change input channel so I can watch tv while it updates.
*Change input back about ten minutes later to see a black screen
*Me thinking "huh...it must have finished the update and then got hung up on restarting."
*Wait a few minutes on black screen just to be sure.
*Use controller (which still brings up the controller menu) to turn off the system
*Turn back on...Xbox logo shows...then back to a black screen

Now I'm thinking...okay, I've seen the system get hung up before. I'll uplug it for a while, then plug it back in. It will be fine.

*Plug it back in and restart.
Xbox logo. Black screen

Now I've exhausted my options. I guess today is the day that my Xbox has died.

Thanks update.

It wouldn't be a big deal at all, if Series X wasn't still impossible to find.
 
I just woke up and feel like crap. Also there is a bug in the bathroom. sick of the bugs :(

super crabby and so my dad’s anxiety to want to get iv treatments for cats done before my mom gets home is more annoying than usual. stop lying to the doctor and get medicine and take it and stop lying about taking it too. if you didn’t lie so much we would trust you more.

also worried something happened to a friend’s cat and about my friend :(. it kills me hearing bad things happening to cats (there have been a few things that have been bothering me for years) but I need to be there for her. I am really afraid :(.

a little depressed about something silly. probably should take a break from the app.
 
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After that appointment I had with my doctor that went so bad because he fat shamed of my weight instead of congratulating me on blood results improving I feel like I need to switch doctors. I don't want to have a doctor who constantly lectures me about my weight and then start to compare weight scales as if to say mine is "inaccurate"
 
Go to play Xbox...

*Power on
"System needs an update"
*Start Update
*Change input channel so I can watch tv while it updates.
*Change input back about ten minutes later to see a black screen
*Me thinking "huh...it must have finished the update and then got hung up on restarting."
*Wait a few minutes on black screen just to be sure.
*Use controller (which still brings up the controller menu) to turn off the system
*Turn back on...Xbox logo shows...then back to a black screen

Now I'm thinking...okay, I've seen the system get hung up before. I'll uplug it for a while, then plug it back in. It will be fine.

*Plug it back in and restart.
Xbox logo. Black screen

Now I've exhausted my options. I guess today is the day that my Xbox has died.

Thanks update.

It wouldn't be a big deal at all, if Series X wasn't still impossible to find.

wouldnt be a microsoft product without updates ruining everything, i cant even update my pc anymore because of settings i had to change to get around black screens of death caused by another update

really sorry to hear about that though, hope you can find a fix for it
 
pants were super uncomfortable all day d: they were loose when i bought them six months ago 🙃 the struggle to find exercise motivation is real, but being uncomfortable in all of my clothing sure is awful. also really looking forward to leaving this state; life feels like such a dead end here
 
pants were super uncomfortable all day d: they were loose when i bought them six months ago 🙃 the struggle to find exercise motivation is real, but being uncomfortable in all of my clothing sure is awful. also really looking forward to leaving this state; life feels like such a dead end here
I totally feel you on this! I lost so much weight after being on bedrest during my pregnancy that my pre-pregnancy pants were too loose. NOW however, I had to go shopping for new shorts because all of my shorts wouldn't fit. I have put on a decent amount of extra weight (for me) during covid. I'm tall, so you can't see it as easily, but I can, and its killing me. I've also noticed my favorite shirts being a little tighter. Nooo fun.

But on the plus side, your lineup is killer!! 🤩🤩
 
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super anxious after taking my dog out a while ago, it was dark and he walked right up to a rat (!), and it took a few moments before I realised what was going on before I got him away from it. Some sort of interaction went down between them though,,

I didn't see what went on, and really hope he didn't get bitten (it doesn't seem like he has). I bathed him straight after the walk but I'm still worried about him catching some sort of disease or fleas from the rat. I know a lot of dogs kill or hunt rats all the time so logically I shouldn't be so worried but I still am 😖 I can't take him to the vet until thursday either
 
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