What's Bothering You?

[axaniao]

I keep letting myself get hurt over and over again for someone I care about romantically. And this time, I hurt my family for keeping the relationship a secret. I've been given advise to move on from this person multiple times. Though I just can't get myself to do it... I feel so weak. They're one of my best friends and someone I love and trust with my entire being. I feel awful for hurting my family. I never wanted to keep any of this a secret. I was just really afraid. I really wish I was just more independent at my age which is why I blame myself for a lot of these problems too. I don't know what to do... I really don't know what to do. I just wanted to enjoy the holidays and get past all this constant stress.

tbh i know how u feel . i was the same exact way as u for abt 2 years, and it especially got worse near the end of the relationship, the relationship was doing me so much worse than good and he was my"best friend" too, until he ended up breaking up with me then i realized how ****ty he actually is and i got over it completely, tho it took a few months bc i was rlly emotionally attached to him. im not gonna say "u should break up with them / leave them rn" bc i know its rlly not that easy, it took 2 years of avoiding red flags and him breaking up with me himself to realize how ****ed up it was. but what i do know is that things will heal themselves in time . thats all i wanted 2 say

 

[Stella-Io]

Do you ever work long hours at your job then when you finally get home and have a little bit of time to eat, you try to do so but phyically can't?

This has happened to me twice now, that I can remember atleast. My memory sucks. But anyway today I worked like 10 hours at work today, and I finally got home late and started eating dinner. And. Omg. It was like I had to force myself to eat. Which I did a terrible effort of cause I only ate like 4 bites, 2 of which were bread, not even actual food. I felt like if I tried to eat more I would eventually throw up later, but I also know I should eat something cause I haven't had food in hours and I will wake up tomorrow morning
s t a r v I n g.
But I didn't. I think this time my problem was I chugged too much MTN Dew at once and made my stomach hurt. Along with not eating for hours and working alot. I don't even like soda but sometimes I crave a certain somethin that soda fulfills.

 

[Reginald Fairfield]

Will Wheaton.

 

[VanitasFan26]

Spoiler: The reason why I haven't been posting and why some are wondering where I have been and why I might never come back after this.

It all happened when I made a sensitive topic thread a few weeks ago which has been deleted. I was talking about a sensitive topic but then it backfired because I said some things that triggered people and I tried to defend myself but that also backfired. Long story short. People took what I said out of context and used it against me.

This was worse than the time I made that "Nookazon Moderators Rant" thread a long time ago. To make matters worse I was told "Your experience does not apply to real issues" and I had to defend myself saying that "You didn't need to remind me" and then it just erupted into met getting attacked.

I am done just done with everything. Here's the thing about me and I am pretty I might've said this in the past but this is what this website has done to me. My mental health hasn't been well and I am still not feeling better and just because I am posting this doesn't mean I will return because I've had enough being treated like this. I just feel like I wanted to delete my account but apparently I have too many things posted so I cannot delete it. This just feels being locked in a prison. when I cannot delete my account when there is SO MANY other websites that allow this and they remove everything just fine, but I know this is a fan made website where it doesn't have enough power to do this so maybe thats why it would be so much hard work to delete everything. I've already had a hard week and getting attacked for voicing my opinion on certain things and then I be called "rude" or just feeling like everything I say on this website doesn't matter anymore.

Truth be told I was always had to "FORCE" myself to be positive all the time, then I find myself getting emotions all bottled up and it always damages my mental health and it makes me not want to post anymore threads. Thats the reason why I stopped posting threads because whenever I criticized Animal Crossing or talk anything else I always get "Oh you're just overacting" and "Oh I find what you're saying rude" then I worry I would be reported to the mods and then they would give me warning points as if I was doing something wrong.

Look its been a hard 2 weeks for me, my life is total crap right now since things are not getting better irl and I am already feeling like this is just not the place for me. I know in the past I've talked about this that I would come back whenever I want, but I just feel like it won't change anything. I know I am supposed to forgive myself but right now I am suffered too much. This is just the type of thing that is just going to ruin me if I keep coming back. So if anyone was wondering where I've been for the past 2 weeks now you guys know. Just want to get this out there.

 

[Reginald Fairfield]

Spoiler: The reason why I haven't been posting and why some are wondering where I have been and why I might never come back after this.

It all happened when I made a sensitive topic thread a few weeks ago which has been deleted. I was talking about a sensitive topic but then it backfired because I said some things that triggered people and I tried to defend myself but that also backfired. Long story short. People took what I said out of context and used it against me.

This was worse than the time I made that "Nookazon Moderators Rant" thread a long time ago. To make matters worse I was told "Your experience does not apply to real issues" and I had to defend myself saying that "You didn't need to remind me" and then it just erupted into met getting attacked.

I am done just done with everything. Here's the thing about me and I am pretty I might've said this in the past but this is what this website has done to me. My mental health hasn't been well and I am still not feeling better and just because I am posting this doesn't mean I will return because I've had enough being treated like this. I just feel like I wanted to delete my account but apparently I have too many things posted so I cannot delete it. This just feels being locked in a prison. when I cannot delete my account when there is SO MANY other websites that allow this and they remove everything just fine, but I know this is a fan made website where it doesn't have enough power to do this so maybe thats why it would be so much hard work to delete everything. I've already had a hard week and getting attacked for voicing my opinion on certain things and then I be called "rude" or just feeling like everything I say on this website doesn't matter anymore.

Truth be told I was always had to "FORCE" myself to be positive all the time, then I find myself getting emotions all bottled up and it always damages my mental health and it makes me not want to post anymore threads. Thats the reason why I stopped posting threads because whenever I criticized Animal Crossing or talk anything else I always get "Oh you're just overacting" and "Oh I find what you're saying rude" then I worry I would be reported to the mods and then they would give me warning points as if I was doing something wrong.

Look its been a hard 2 weeks for me, my life is total crap right now since things are not getting better irl and I am already feeling like this is just not the place for me. I know in the past I've talked about this that I would come back whenever I want, but I just feel like it won't change anything. I know I am supposed to forgive myself but right now I am suffered too much. This is just the type of thing that is just going to ruin me if I keep coming back. So if anyone was wondering where I've been for the past 2 weeks now you guys know. Just want to get this out there.

I didn't even see that.

 

[-Lumi-]

Hello yes I take anxiety medication now I would like for my anxiety to go away thank you

 

[CylieDanny]

I went on a date with someone I thought liked me. we met on an app talked for weeks, played online games.. Then met irl since he got tickets to the MHA movie, we got along really well, even talked about meeting again.. But I haven't heard from them since the date... which was three weeks ago.

Maybe love and happiness is out there. somewhere. Hopefully.. Or maybe Im just a bad date... Love has never really worked out for me...

I mean my worst exprence was my EX telling me that hìs deceased father wanted us to get back together.

Still would be nice to be in love, and not be played for a fool...

 

[frogslime]

woops, posted here in the wrong thread sorry

 

[xSuperMario64x]

people who get nad at others for "still" wearing a mask need to actually **** off, how abt let me wear my gd mask and you quit acting like a fool.

 

[Neurotiker]

lol

 

[Hopeless Opus]

i want nothing more than to be able to control everything in my life.

 

[skarmoury]

oral exam in a few minutes and i am about to throw up i am so anxious and scared and oh my god

i can do this. imiquimod and tretinoin for the viruses. permethrin for the parasites. cefalexin and cloxacillin for the bacteria. azoles for the fungi/yeast. rifampicin/dapsone/clofazimine for leprosy. god GOD

 

[_Rainy_]

I don’t feel like I can allow myself to be happy because every time I am either something happens or I panic and sabotage it myself.

 

[Alienfish]

I really dislike people who does unasked for lecturing when people make a comment/opinion that is obviously not asking for lecture, like shove your woke stuff elsewhere. Especially when people actually enjoys something and they get the story of whatever content...like I can read that myself thank you.

 

[Valzed]

My husband is in the ER for the 3rd time in less than 2 weeks. He spent 4 days in the hospital from December 4th until this Wednesday, December 8th. Now tonight he had to go back to the ER. Almost all of this is because he didn't get the treatment he should have received the first time he went to the ER on December 2nd. He's diabetic to the point he wears an insulin pump, has a history of severe cellulitis and went to the ER with an open wound pouring blood. That's all on top of the fact that the ankle in the leg with the wound is broken and he's been out of work for over a month while waiting for a surgery date. He wasn't given any antibiotics in the ER. He wasn't sent home with antibiotics. All they did was put some gel in the wound that was supposed to stop the bleeding and they sent him home. The gel didn't stop the bleeding at all. By December 4th he was showing signs of cellulitis and was rushed back to the ER. The ER staff that day were surprised that he hadn't been admitted the first time he was in there. Thankfully they admitted him then and he was on IV antibiotics for 4 days. Then they released him - still with an open wound although it's not bleeding but it's still leaking "fluids". They didn't set us up with any in home wound care and expected us to change the complicated dressing system for this wound. I'm disabled and can't change the dressing so our grown son tried yesterday but it didn't go smoothly. (Probably because he's had zero medical training.) My hubby had a doctor's appointment today so he asked that doctor to check the dressing and the doctor refused. He said for hubby to call the hospital because "they won't want just anyone digging around in there". Seriously? It's okay for our son to have to change the dressing but you - a doctor - won't even check it? Whatever. My hubby and our son are at the ER again to get this dressing checked and make sure the wound hasn't gotten worse.

I know ER's are overwhelmed with COVID on top of all the normal every day emergencies but the first ER team really didn't do much of anything to treat my husband. If they had we might not have had to go through everything else that happened since then.

Hopefully things will go smoothly from now until December 16th when he sees the foot surgeon and hopefully finally gets a surgery date to repair his broken ankle.

 

[Foreverfox]

My husband is in the ER for the 3rd time in less than 2 weeks. He spent 4 days in the hospital from December 4th until this Wednesday, December 8th. Now tonight he had to go back to the ER. Almost all of this is because he didn't get the treatment he should have received the first time he went to the ER on December 2nd. He's diabetic to the point he wears an insulin pump, has a history of severe cellulitis and went to the ER with an open wound pouring blood. That's all on top of the fact that the ankle in the leg with the wound is broken and he's been out of work for over a month while waiting for a surgery date. He wasn't given any antibiotics in the ER. He wasn't sent home with antibiotics. All they did was put some gel in the wound that was supposed to stop the bleeding and they sent him home. The gel didn't stop the bleeding at all. By December 4th he was showing signs of cellulitis and was rushed back to the ER. The ER staff that day were surprised that he hadn't been admitted the first time he was in there. Thankfully they admitted him then and he was on IV antibiotics for 4 days. Then they released him - still with an open wound although it's not bleeding but it's still leaking "fluids". They didn't set us up with any in home wound care and expected us to change the complicated dressing system for this wound. I'm disabled and can't change the dressing so our grown son tried yesterday but it didn't go smoothly. (Probably because he's had zero medical training.) My hubby had a doctor's appointment today so he asked that doctor to check the dressing and the doctor refused. He said for hubby to call the hospital because "they won't want just anyone digging around in there". Seriously? It's okay for our son to have to change the dressing but you - a doctor - won't even check it? Whatever. My hubby and our son are at the ER again to get this dressing checked and make sure the wound hasn't gotten worse.

I know ER's are overwhelmed with COVID on top of all the normal every day emergencies but the first ER team really didn't do much of anything to treat my husband. If they had we might not have had to go through everything else that happened since then.

Hopefully things will go smoothly from now until December 16th when he sees the foot surgeon and hopefully finally gets a surgery date to repair his broken ankle.

I am so sorry you guys are going through this. I would ask for a Patient Care Advocate and ask for the Administrator-on-call. You should never be forced to leave hospital care unless you are okay with, understand, and are able to carry out the discharge instructions.

 

[_Rainy_]

I just worked a 10 1/2 hour day on no sleep. I don’t feel human anymore, idk how I managed to drive myself home. I hate that I keep having anxiety that prevents me from sleeping.

 

[daringred_]

thinking about how airports will just straight up kill birds as if they weren't in the sky before humanity and also don't have the natural ability to fly, unlike us. yeah, i get it, bird strikes can cause crashes and loss of human life, but if you want to force humanity into the air, that's the risk you take.

 

[limiya]

Been thinking a lot about my old friends from high school tbh! I haven’t seen the majority of them in five or more years, and I definitely grew apart from basically all of them as I’ve gotten older. Don’t get me wrong; I have such an amazing support system now and have so many life long friends in my current city, but sometimes I feel like I get in a bit of a thought loop thinking about what everyone is doing with their lives, how some people have unfollowed me on socials over the years, and just general curiosity I guess haha

 

[Alienfish]

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Oh, damn.... I'm so so sorry. Even if ER's are full they should back up as much as they can and got people for it and this sounds far from okay. I really hope for the best for all of you <3