What's Bothering You?

trying to schedule an in-person visit w my doctor bc he specifically said he wants to see me in-person so he can evaluate my headache issue, but bc both my parents have had covid within the last month the website is telling me "we can't schedule you, you need to do a telehealth appt" but the doctor wants to see me in person so????? like wtf am I supposed to do lol??
 
trying to schedule an in-person visit w my doctor bc he specifically said he wants to see me in-person so he can evaluate my headache issue, but bc both my parents have had covid within the last month the website is telling me "we can't schedule you, you need to do a telehealth appt" but the doctor wants to see me in person so????? like wtf am I supposed to do lol??
Since the Pandemic has really made things so bad the Healthcare system in America is so broken that Doctors/Nurses don't really have time or or patience to treat patients. The worst thing is I was going to see a Liver Doctor and a few days later I get a charge of $415.00 because they told me that my health insurance doesn't cover. UGH!!!! Going to the Doctor has become so impossible these days.
 
for something that's supposed to help, the pill has genuinely done nothing but the opposite for me 😭 it hasn't stopped my periods, because my flow goes back to being heavy around the date i would normally be 'on', and i'm bleeding non-stop between those dates anyway which a) probably isn't healthy considering i'm anemic and b) has caused me serious agitation downstairs because of having to constantly wear sanitary towels. it hasn't even stopped the cramps, because i'm experiencing them right now, and they hurt like hell. literally all this stupid little tablet has done is make me bleed constantly. i'm pretty sure i need to go on the one that has estrogen in it, since it's allegedly more effective, i just wish the doctor would've bothered to tell me the difference between the two instead of giving me a random one so i wouldn't have had to have gone through all this hassle, but he's a man, so 😒 only problem is the other one makes you more at risk for cancer, i think, and that terrifies me. i really just wish there was a better way to stop menstruation than the extreme of getting your tubes tied or a pill that has no guarantee of working. it sucks.
 
I hate how I develop crushes on the majority of my friends. Whenever I do I obsessively text them to keep their attention. Every time I’ve confessed I was either rejected, blocked, or entered into a toxic relationship. It’s a terrible habit that’s led to a lot of unnecessary pain and awkwardness. The only workaround I have is bottling it up. Once enough time passes the feelings fade and I only become interested platonically. Having some control is nice, but it’s disturbing that this happens so often. I’ve had it for a long time too. If only I could prevent myself from developing feelings in the first place…
 
my car won't start again 🙃
i think the battery may be dead cause it did this a week or so ago, and when my dad charged it up it was fine, but now it's not starting again. really hope I don't need to get a new battery cause they're not cheap lol.
 
I wouldn't wish being shy on my worst enemy ; ;

I'm usually chill around people who I'm close to, but super super shy around strangers, especially when caught off guard. Sometimes, I'll feel so shy that the nervousness can be heard in my voice, which makes the person I'm talking to feel awkward.

& now I feel like dirt just because somebody greeted me & I failed to adequately greet them back like a functioning human
 
I wouldn't wish being shy on my worst enemy ; ;

I'm usually chill around people who I'm close to, but super super shy around strangers, especially when caught off guard. Sometimes, I'll feel so shy that the nervousness can be heard in my voice, which makes the person I'm talking to feel awkward.

& now I feel like dirt just because somebody greeted me & I failed to adequately greet them back like a functioning human
I feel that. I used to be really bad at talking to just about anyone lol. What really helped me was this one game Sega made called Phantasy Star Online, back when it was on the Gamecube. Even when I first started playing that I barely interacted with anyone and over time just figured what the heck they don't know me. Even though it's outdated, that game holds a special place with me due to how it helped me.

I'm not replying to you to say that this is what you need to do. Just saying I know how it is and can relate. Baby steps Plume! We all started somewhere.
 
I feel that. I used to be really bad at talking to just about anyone lol. What really helped me was this one game Sega made called Phantasy Star Online, back when it was on the Gamecube. Even when I first started playing that I barely interacted with anyone and over time just figured what the heck they don't know me. Even though it's outdated, that game holds a special place with me due to how it helped me.

I'm not replying to you to say that this is what you need to do. Just saying I know how it is and can relate. Baby steps Plume! We all started somewhere.
Thanks for the encouragement, Duke. I've met 90% of my friends on the internet, so I know what you mean. I've met some of those people in real life, and just knowing that they already knew what to expect from me (awkwardness and all) made it so much easier!
 
my car won't start again 🙃
i think the battery may be dead cause it did this a week or so ago, and when my dad charged it up it was fine, but now it's not starting again. really hope I don't need to get a new battery cause they're not cheap lol.

I don't remember how expensive mine was, and I also don't know if you have a WalMart in your state, but that's where I got mine. It seemed to be the cheapest option around, rather than going to autopart stores.



Not my pet⬇️

A dog I used to blow dry at work had to be put down and apparently he was really old. Like, I would have never guessed it by looking at him nor did he ever act old. But he was atleast 11+ yrs old, which is old for a big dog. He started having real bad health issues after his last visit. I liked him too, he would always 'sing'. Getting blow dried, sing, sitting there doing nothing, start singing. He was a nice dog.

Edit: OMG MOSQUITO DIE. This damn thing has been living in my room for weeks, prob off my blood, but I can never find it to kill it. Every night it flies around my EARS for about 10 mins until it finally goes away. I wish it would land in a spot where I can smash it. I'm not even really finding mosquito bites on me either.
 
I am having a really bad week work wise. Coworker is out for like 5 or 6 days in a row now. I had to process an order going to another country. I had absolutely zero training on how to do that, but I think I figured it out. It feels like everything that can go wrong has gone wrong. I'm burnt out to the core. Can't catching a ****ing break.

Update: Day has only gotten worse since I made this post. Completely overwhelmed and having a lot of anxiety. Running on poor sleep. I hate this job right now.
 
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have my health assessment tomorrow to decide whether or not i'm fit to work (even though my doctor doesn't think i am), and i'm paranoid that they're going to decide i am even though i literally can't do basic tasks without getting exhausted. definitely not helping my anxiety since i hate the idea of airing all my mental health issues to random strangers lmao.

also, i had my booster this morning, and my left arm is killing me. i can't lay on it currently 😭 hopefully that's as bad as my side effects get though.
 
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