What's Bothering You?

[ZeldaCrossing64]

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I'm such an idiot. I know I say that a lot, but it's true. I just checked in the mirror and the part of my mouth that I kept biting (and ripping the skin off) is very noticable. What if it forms a scar and I cannot eat anything too hot/cold because of it? Why did I bite the inside of my mouth in the first place, and why the hell did I go as far as ripping the skin off?! I am now paying the price for my incompetence, I wish I didn't even have this stupid habit.

 

[VanitasFan26]

people are like "always remember why you started" and it never helped me bc the reason why I started is bc I thought the course was cool to learn, but the motivation wasn't enough for me to excel beyond the bare minimum

but it was comforting to read that sometimes you don't have to have a goal in mind, you can just wander somewhere, whatever makes you feel the most comfortable in life. i dont want to excel anywhere really, i just want to experience life as is without overly exerting effort in things i can do average-ly (if that makes sense)

I relate to that feeling because that was the same advice I heard time and time again. It just never worked out for me. I sometimes wonder if I was around the right people maybe I would not have to second guess myself but I was around spoiled people that gave me unsolicited advice that just barely helped.

 

[Bluelady]

There were four 3.5-3.9 earthquakes in my area today. This isn’t strong enough to knock anything down, but it is unusual to feel more than two during a day. Two of which happened while I watched the Violet Evergarden movie. So now my head hurts from all of these feelings that I felt during those 2 hrs.

 

[ZeldaCrossing64]

My head hurts so much and I'm so tired.

 

[_Rainy_]

I’m so tired, but my body won’t let me rest. like did I really need to get woken up because I have the hiccups? I ate some peanut butter and the hiccups are gone, but now I have globus sensation in my throat. also my phone has been auto correcting the most random things ever. like the “t” at the end of a sentence I don’t want it to be capitalized, but it keeps insisting it needs to be. Also I don’t understand the beJavier yes phone I meant to say beJavier

 

[TurnipBell20]

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I'm such an idiot. I know I say that a lot, but it's true. I just checked in the mirror and the part of my mouth that I kept biting (and ripping the skin off) is very noticable. What if it forms a scar and I cannot eat anything too hot/cold because of it? Why did I bite the inside of my mouth in the first place, and why the hell did I go as far as ripping the skin off?! I am now paying the price for my incompetence, I wish I didn't even have this stupid habit.

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Aw, don’t worry, just try to stop doing it. I had a similar habit, but I stopped after it got a little too scary. It never formed a scar luckily.

 

[Alienfish]

Keep getting this e-mail to rate the naprapathy clinic and I would probs do it if it were more anonymous but yeah not gonna log in with my real name or anything jeez.

Also my domestic tracking app never scanning **** properly so I dunno where my stuff is.. guess I'll find out when I need to pay customs lol.

 

[Xara]

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[Beanz]

im off bc of spring break but of course my history teacher gave me a 6 page packet and i have to do that now at least im halfway done tho

 

[petaltail]

i have a french test tomorrow that i haven't been able to study for for like a week bc i've had to work on 2 presentations (one today and one yesterday). the anxiety from the presentations has kinda tired me out and now i'm in a 3 hour online class where i know i won't be able to focus on french if i try lol. i'll just try to take it slowly and do bits of studying sporadically throughout the rest of the day but i'm scared that won't be enough ):

 

[ZeldaCrossing64]

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French tests can be daunting, especially if you're not very fluent at it. I had one last week and I probably failed it. I think doing bits of studying here and there like you said is a good idea, I just skim through the whole thing last-minute before any test lol.

I'm still feeling sick, even if my headache has been reduced a bit with a nap. I might have to take a covid test, which I am not looking forward to. I'm missing a field trip today, not that I wanted to go but it's mandatory. It's also that time of the month, spare me. (And to add insult to injury, today seems to be that "Heavy Flow" day as well.

 

[petaltail]

French tests can be daunting, especially if you're not very fluent at it. I had one last week and I probably failed it. I think doing bits of studying here and there like you said is a good idea, I just skim through the whole thing last-minute before any test lol.

yeah when my procrastination hits its peak i do that too lmao
we're in this french test tragedy together i hope you didn't fail yours tho!!!

 

[-Blue-]

i’m getting my wisdom teeth out in less than 4 hours, and i am... not vibing xnkxnxk. i know i’ll probably be just fine, but i still hate having to have this done. i’m anxious about the procedure itself, and the recovery time that’s about to follow. not being able to chew, smoke or sleep on my sides for a while is gonna suck.

plus, my paranoia was just... not the vibe last night lol. it wouldn’t let me fall asleep, so i kept winding up in that weird state between consciousness and unconsciousness and kept seeing/imagining weird ****. i had to turn music on to try and calm myself down and actually fall asleep.

overall, nerves very high today.

Had to get all of mine out at the same time a few years ago. You won't be able to eat a lot of solid foods in the beginning. My first meal was just some tomato soup. But if that's not your thing, I'm sure there are plenty of other tasty soups out there.

I didn't enjoy having to go through it either. But it was over before I knew it. They'll either numb or put you to sleep. I'm not saying that to patronize. Just that you will be fine, like you said. Still wishing you good vibes and a speedy recovery!

 

[xSuperMario64x]

my meds keep causing me to have acid reflux every morning and I'm getting really tired of it, I think I know how to solve the issue but for now I have to deal with that stupid burning feeling in my esophagus

 

[Alienfish]

I had that egg earlier and of course I got an omelette recipe on Instagram right afterwards lmfao.

 

[Dunquixote]

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My mom comes in my room while i’m still waking up to tell me something she thought was funny. When she asked if i thought it was funny, i said no and she said you never find anything funny. Uh hello?! i have autism and i have trouble with humor. you think i like being like this?. She does this all the tome when she tells me something funny the kids did. Also, I’m depressed so that doesn’t help at all. I asked her to apologize but she refused. It really hurt my feelings. Also so fed up with passive aggressiveness. i need to eat and take my medicine but i don’t want to.

Edit: I talked to my mom a couple times about this and how much this hurts me and makes me hate the way i am even more. finally got a none aggravated response. she did apologize earlier but it didn’t sound like she meant it. still am hurting even though she is right that she can make mistakes, “forget,” or react incorrectly at times too.

 

[ZeldaCrossing64]

My brother is nagging me to do the garbage and recyling, even though he's literally watching TV instead of doing his dishes. He should do his job first before telling me to do mine.

 

[Dunquixote]

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I’m feeling a little better than earlier. Now, I want to draw but my mood is still not really there. Also, feeling a bit overwhelmed each time I look at where I left off. Not to mention, I’m stumped on what to put under this part I’m doing. If only I could draw people/anatomy better . Just a little bit more until i finish this part of the drawing on the right side too, yet apprehension of what comes after and how challenging this is, is holding me back (along with my depression too).

 

[-Blue-]

Can't seem to shake this flu. Not as serious as anyone's situation here, but I just don't feel good and it sucks having to work feeling so unwell.

@Dunquixote When I used to draw (I need to get back into it) I would look at people/anatomy as in not the whole body, but break it down in shapes. It was easier trying to tackle it that way instead of trying to do the whole thing. I'm not sure if that makes sense or helps, which it probably doesn't. But it still took a bit of practice. Just do your best!

 

[ZeldaCrossing64]

I saw my dad's cat Wookie outside when I opened the back door. He was about to walk into the houe, but then my dog ran in and scared him off. I mean I get they're just animals, but still. We haven't had Wookie (or his sister/my cat Caramel) in our house for a long time.