What's Bothering You?

[oak]

Work stuff

Spoiler

I hate my job but I feel guilty hating my job cause I've been there 10 years and it supplies me with everything I need, and yet I can't shake the feeling of wanting to leave. While driving there I get this sensation of doom. My dad was a longshoreman for decades and as soon as I graduated high school I became a longshoreman. I've never had a different job. It's a high paying union job with great benefits and complete medical coverage and all I wanna do is run away. I've tried telling my parents this and they don't want me to quit cause they're worried if I try to change career paths, all I have on my resume is 10 years of longshoring and I barely graduated high school so going to college seems out of the question. I'm just sick of driving big trucks and doing dirty labour jobs on the docks all day. But then if I leave I'll have to take a minimum wage job somewhere else and then I'll be struggling with my bills so I'm basically stuck. My dad said if I leave I'll end up getting stuck working at Walmart the rest of my life, which is rude as hell to grocery store workers considering they worked their asses off all pandemic. Making decisions is impossible for me.

 

[TurnipBell20]

Still having issues with my heart beating like crazy, and feeling tingly and nervous inside. Tomorrow is going to be an interesting day I guess. I am going to find out if my friend wants to stay my friend besides my stupid behavior. Ahhh, I hate myself for not being the way I want to be.

 

[Stella-Io]

Spoiler: TW: Emetophobia

You ever cough so violently that it makes you this ****in close to throwing up, for the past 3 nights in a row, while you are TRYIN to go to sleep but can't cause you're coughing so damn hard and you are losing sleep over it? Also it makes your stomach hurt cause you threw up in your throat but didn't *fully* puke?

I guess it could be worse. It only gets that bad when I'm laying in bed tryin to got to sleep. Atleast it doesn't happen out in public, like at work.

Although I have had times were it feels like it could come to that while not at home. It almost did once.

 

[ali.di.magix]

Yesterday I rung my medical centre to get an appointment so I can update my medical certificate and they said that the next available appointment isn't until 2 weeks away. I said I needed it asap as my medical certificate expires tomorrow, so they said to ring back today for an appointment. Now they tell me that it's not urgent enough and that I have to try for a cancelation spot I'm so sick of everything medical related right now, it's too overwhelming

Right now I've exhausted all my options, including having a phone consultation where they couldn't do anything for me, and will have to wait until Tuesday to start ringing around again since everything is closed until then oh well, there's no point worrying about it as it's so far beyond my control that it's not even funny

 

[Midoriya]

Today has been absolute garbage. I hate where I live and I hate myself and my life.

 

[Midoriya]

Nevermind.

 

[Alienfish]

I should probably RSVP to my cousin but... I really don't feel like going there but I guess I could attend one of their things later maybe when I can have proper vacation and don't have to go back and forth there in a couple of days just and I don't have work to think of.

I really don't mind them but other people can be just.. no.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

I could be sleeping soundly right now but instead the cat had to wake me up right at 6am to be let out of my room bc she's a turd. I guess it's not all that bad, cause now I get to watch the sun rise through my window, but I'm still kinda tired

 

[Xara]

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[xSuperMario64x]

I could be sleeping soundly right now but instead the cat had to wake me up right at 6am to be let out of my room bc she's a turd. I guess it's not all that bad, cause now I get to watch the sun rise through my window, but I'm still kinda tired

update: over 3 hours later, I took a nap and im still tired.. I really don't feel like eating anything so that won't help. I guess maybe I could go outside for a bit before it starts to really heat up. idk I just need to get up and shake off this tiredness.

also p positive my youth organization is having a meeting today but I just made plans last night to hang out with my friend today and I don't want to tell them no bc they've been really busy with school and that's why we haven't seen each other in a while. plus i really dont want to waste gas driving there, it's about a 45 mile round trip. guess it's another meeting I'll have to miss.

 

[moo_nieu]

tired of feeling sad and having no energy despite knowing that im taking the right steps. everyone tells me not to rush to be better, but im just tired of feeling like this. i want to be the happy independent person i know i am. i just want to feel right again. at least i can meet with a counselor tomorrow.

 

[tessa grace]

why can't i get over people i lose i get so easily attached and im gullible and im sick of people i used to be friends with still talking about me behind my back and convincing everyone to hate me

every time i finally feel okay and normal and like i can do something socially and make friends and be a normal person i somehow screw it up and now she hates me. i tried so hard this time to keep my mouth shut and i did
how did i hurt her i dont understand

 

[ZeldaCrossing64]

Still feeling sick and I might have to go to school soon, not looking forward to it.

I'm frustrated because I always have trouble explaining things so I have a bit of trouble speaking (and my stutter doesn't help it). It's a wonder I can write "decently good" fanfiction when I can hardly string two sentences together sometimes. Language is my own worst enemy.

 

[ZeldaCrossing64]

I don't get my parents. They grounded me and my brother because we were arguing and being annoying?? We argue every single day, are we gonna get in trouble for it? Most likely yes, because that's how my parents "fix" it, by punishing us every time we do something wrong until we learn to not do it. :/

 

[VanitasFan26]

My therapist told me that he was feeling sick. I was really worried about him because I wanted to talk to him about more stuff. I really hope he feels better by this week coming up.

 

[ZeldaCrossing64]

I told my brother to start his dishes because he was staring at the TV like usual. My step-mom got mad at me and said told me to mind my own business and do my job. Which is ludicrous because my brother does the same thing, except in a more annoying and demanding way.

Also, my online friend sent me a message, which read: "ZELDA I SEARCHED [my name] UP AND ITS A BOYS NAME HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAH-" And I dunno, it made me mad. Well, it's a girl's name where I'm from, and why was my friend laughing about it?? I feel like I'm being petty about this, though.

 

[DarkDesertFox]

On Friday my coworker left the company without warning. That makes the second person in a row to leave that I was training to finally get this one account off my hands. Monday I have to train someone else for this other account I've been covering for too damn long. I swear to God, if they leave I don't know if I could take it. I am so, so tired of people wasting my time with training and then just leaving out of nowhere. I fall behind whenever I train someone, have less breathing room, and can't listen to my favorite streams or music. I also have a mole check appointment on Wednesday and have to call back about my results for my other appointment.

 

[_Rainy_]

Spoiler: Personal

I‘m starting to realize something about myself that I’ve been denying for a long time. If it’s true then it makes so much sense. I used to think it was just due to my mental issues and I coul possibly fix it in therapy. I never even entertained the idea until recently, but I think it’s a part of me that I can’t change and as someone whose been bending over backwards to change myself to fit my entire life. I now realize that I don’t want to change this and I’m happy and fine the way that I am. I’m just worried that other people may not accept it. It really doesn’t change anything for me personally because I’m already this way and I don’t know any other way to live, but if I accept all the things about myself that I’ve been denying, I think I could be a much happier person.

 

[Dunquixote]

Spoiler

Anytime I ask a question, even if it isn’t to my dad, he raises his voice and gets aggravated with me. I really am tired of this. i don’t understand why my mon is always like let’s not start an argument when it really hurts me. why should i be punished because my dad doesn’t take anything for anxiety?

 

[Chris]

I woke-up at half three in the morning with a stomachache. Wide awake now.