Princess Mipha
𝘈𝘣𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘵, 𝘺𝘦𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦.. 𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘢
Went out to buy a vacuum today. Well, they have them stored in their storage, so I had to talk to one of the people working there.
I was walking awkwardly around, acting like I'm checking out other things until one of the sellers approached me and asked if he
can help me. I was already extremelly anxious at that point (social anxiety is fun!) and well, I said yes and what I wanted and when
he asked something back, I understood but my brain just wouldn't work 'cause of the anxiety. Since I live in a foreign country they
are speaking another language, which is french. My french is good enough to communicate, but with anxiety it totally shut off the
french section in my brain and I was like "Uhhhh... je ne comprends pas..." (= I don't understand) and he luckily instantly asked if
I prefered to speak in english, which I was accepting. But still, I hate when this happens, as it crushes the little confidence I have.
I don't want to bother french people by not speaking french to them. I can understand when you're a tourist, but I'm living here
since years and I can speak french, just in a moment like that my anxiety can crush all my french knowledge so that I completely
shut down. I know that my fiancé wouldn't be happy about it either, I mean he understands that my anxiety can do it, but he's
always so happy and proud when I handle something alone and in french. I wish this stupid anxiety could just go away already..
I was walking awkwardly around, acting like I'm checking out other things until one of the sellers approached me and asked if he
can help me. I was already extremelly anxious at that point (social anxiety is fun!) and well, I said yes and what I wanted and when
he asked something back, I understood but my brain just wouldn't work 'cause of the anxiety. Since I live in a foreign country they
are speaking another language, which is french. My french is good enough to communicate, but with anxiety it totally shut off the
french section in my brain and I was like "Uhhhh... je ne comprends pas..." (= I don't understand) and he luckily instantly asked if
I prefered to speak in english, which I was accepting. But still, I hate when this happens, as it crushes the little confidence I have.
I don't want to bother french people by not speaking french to them. I can understand when you're a tourist, but I'm living here
since years and I can speak french, just in a moment like that my anxiety can crush all my french knowledge so that I completely
shut down. I know that my fiancé wouldn't be happy about it either, I mean he understands that my anxiety can do it, but he's
always so happy and proud when I handle something alone and in french. I wish this stupid anxiety could just go away already..