What's Bothering You?

I’m really tired but it’s so hard to sleep on the bus with someone next to you. It’s also cold.
 
Yeah, I'm a **** friend. I'm a ****ty person to be in any relationship with, especially romantically. Too involved in my own head, so...

And I guess I'll be skipping class again today. Along with work. Might come in at the afternoon shift...

i feel rlly lonely : (

I'll give you a hug. It'll be ok. 🧡 Try and make it through today Meraki.
 
Mom being like toxic and energy-draining... Like stop venting to me every single second we're home at the same time, I'm dead tired of you sounding like a broke record. Go see a shrink, you can well damn afford it.
 
i hate how every time a day comes up where i have to go to my internship I suddenly get really bad anxiety/stress and I just want to curl up in bed and do nothing 😞
 
My dentist took all my money again and even the money I didn't have yet. Plus I paid for meds that I didn't even need (too sleepy to think right). Then back home I noticed that some nasty little bugs were eating all my basil plants.
 
Whelp I reviewed what attachment styles were (I learnt about them in High School). I’m the literal definition of someone with an anxious attachment style. It’s painful to remember this, but it explains a lot about how I connect with others. At least I have a new therapist now…
 
I’m upset that I’ve been in such a bad mood lately. I’ve been spread too thin these past few days with very little time to myself. I feel bombarded by everyone and like I can’t put myself first for more than a few minutes. I’m in great need of a change, but I don’t know how to proceed.
 
Can't vomit no matter how hard I try or how recent I ate
say psych rn I swear bro
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This is what I get for going over my limit
 
i'm honestly about to give up on looking for a flat, it's too depressing, all the ones i like are gone within 24 hours and way above asking price
 
**** this is weather. It’s been absolutely pouring down for 2 days straight. It means work is really quiet since we can’t work in torrential downpours, but it’s also incredibly intense because the sewer system is overflowing and the towns flooding LMAO
 
first red day for the month and it hurts like hell. i just wanna lie down and play acnh to make me feel less ****ty but i have a project due tomorrow ; -; im also craving for mcdonalds hhhh maybe i'll drop by later
 
**** this is weather. It’s been absolutely pouring down for 2 days straight. It means work is really quiet since we can’t work in torrential downpours, but it’s also incredibly intense because the sewer system is overflowing and the towns flooding LMAO
weather update: it's still raining

the whole district is in a state of emergency now 🙃
 
Got counseling today and it is such a waste of my time and money. I don’t understand the point of counseling when it only makes me feel worse. I like my counselor but the questions she asks makes me not want to talk at all since they only make me angrier. like the last time, i was grieving over my cat and while i forgot what she asked, it irritated the **** out of me and made me so angry and more upset than I already was. I’ve also tried so many times to get help overcoming something that happened over three years ago. She doesn’t offer me any advice but asks me questions that infuriate me or that I have already considered.
 
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My mom passed away about a month ago after a 3 year long cancer battle. I’m still honestly numb. Feels like she will appear any day and that this will all be a terrible nightmare. I’m 25 and the thought of her not being involved in the rest of my life is so depressing. Gaming and TBT have been really helping me deal with the loss. But it’s been hard. At least I can try to get some NH update play in today. Thanks for reading 💔
 
i want to get back into nh but i still feel so iffy about it and the update looks great but like why am i so scared to play again lol-
 
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