What's Bothering You?

don’t know how to feel about this but my boyfriend forgot when my birthday is. he said October 14, when it’s actually October 12. he apologized over and over and I know he’s very forgetful. It just makes me a little sad because we’ve been together for so long and I just can’t believe he forgot. He was just 2 days off but still, I make a point to remember his birthday. As an act of trying to make up for it he made his phone password my birthday so he wouldn’t forget. I love him and I know he didn’t mean to make me sad, but I can’t help but be a little on the down side.
 
3DS and Wii U wifi is closing down, and I’m on holiday (I’m definitely not complaining about being on holiday) so I can’t enjoy the last few days as much because the internet here is really bad and when I try and play it’s really annoying. But come on, WII U AND 3DS WIFI IS SHUTTING DOWN😭😭.
Plus it’s hot and I can’t deal with heat it’s so hot my brain is melting I wanna go swimming but it’s too hot to swim ahhh.
 
I keep dwelling on stuff I said or posted online and my anxiety is making me feel like nothing I say comes out sounding normal and not annoying 😔.

Trying my best now not to think of my best friend and how much I want to talk. he still hasn’t told me if he liked how I decorated my house and part of the exterior in genshin.

Haven’t been to sleep yet either. Been trying to distract myself from the intrusive thoughts. When I was trying to sleep, my dad was talking too loud and some noise (some sort of drilling) from one of our neighbors was bothering me.

Starting to feel a little depressed again. I’m hoping some sleep will help.
 
I accidentally bought the wrong brand of jasmine rice at the store today and it has a really funny taste 🥲 guess I'll have to go back soon and buy the correct one. it's funny bc the one I usually buy is actually cheaper, and yet it tastes better. like, huh?
 
work as per usual.
Got less days working this week, and I have no idea if it's because of what happened with my sister.
Sketchy shop with sketchy lies. I dunno if my sister removed the posts or nah. I never saw them. My boss seems more worried over the google review that wasnt in my sisters name to begin with?? Yet was never worried about the other negetive views on there lol.
Just need to find another job honestly.
 
I can’t believe I did this but I actually cried in front of a customer today at work. The subtotal and cash button are right next to each other, and my finger slipped and hit cash. It cashed out about 100$ worth of groceries so I had to rering everything. Not to mention, there were about 5 people in my line getting very annoyed at having to wait. She was so sweet about it, but I just felt really stupid. I have a bad mindset of when I mess up that I’m just stupid and a failure. I tried my best not to cry but I just had to. She was telling me everything was okay and offered to buy me a snack to calm me down. I really hate the embarrassment I got from that.
 
I'm shaking so ****ing much right now, having a hard time typing properly. I'm so sick of my family. Sick of dealing with their bull****. Sick of not feeling understood or accepted. Sick of always being told every little mistake I make or what I've done wrong. Sick of hearing the same condescending remarks and insults. Sick of living here. I don't know what to do or if anyone even cares, I just feel so defeated and alone in this household.
 
This is small compared to other things but Monster Hunter is so Joever for me. Reminds me too much of the guy I cut out, without a hunting buddy it’s not the same, the people I met there never talk to me unless I come up to talk about the game.

My experience with that guy left me more misanthropic than I have been in years. If it weren’t for this forum then socialising online would also be so Joever for me.
(Edit: for what it’s worth, I definitely think my life is better with some online socialisation. I just can only wade through so much. I’ve been there. My god man.)
 
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Drawdler said:
This is small compared to other things but Monster Hunter is so Joever for me. Reminds me too much of the guy I cut out, without a hunting buddy it’s not the same, the people I met there never talk to me unless I come up to talk about the game.

My experience with that guy left me more misanthropic than I have been in years. If it weren’t for this forum then socialising online would also be so Joever for me.
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I was trying to find someone to hunt with on Rise. I kept finding people that would rather complain about that game, comparing it to the older ones.
 
I went to click on an app to check on something and I clicked on whatsapp instead. feeling a little sad now since i saw my friend read my last message to him but didn’t reply. :/ I’m not feeling as bad as I’ve been lately when i post here, but I can still feel the emotional pain there and loneliness to hear from my friend.

Haven’t gone to sleep yet either. Too excited about upcoming banner in a game 😅 and still staying up to distract myself from intrusive thoughts. Also had got myself stressed about something last night. I’ll probably try to sleep again soon.
 
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