What's Bothering You?

[Dunquixote]

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Really depressed today. I was fine earlier but my mind wandered while trying to sleep and randomly I thought about my best friend and how much I missed him and it made me so sad. Still depressed after I woke up. I just took my medicine so I should be okay eventually moodwise. Still can’t get rid of this emptiness and ache :/

Not feeling any motivation to log in Genshin today. I’m so turned off and stressed still about the customer support and the issue with my accounts. Couldn’t really enjoy the cat event because of this either

 

[savanniebananie]

I’m in a car full of people right now and I don’t really like making conversation, so I put in my earbuds. Turns out my phone has been connected to the car through the usb charging port the entire time and it connected me to the radio The whole time I’ve been listening to music they’ve also been able to hear it. I’m glad I didn’t choose to listen to the more explicit music and I chose Katy Perry and One Direction.

 

[-Raven-]

This is just a vent. I’m doing okay. But I’m still feeling the throes of cutting out that one friend.

It’s a really weird spot when I want to be anrgy and set the record straight and actually have them see their problems but that’s just vengeance and ruminating and… well. No matter what I felt there, it seems life is just better without them. And that’s not the way to be, you know? I’m the kind of person who needs a great degree of self-restraint… that gets exhausting… I feel like I’m living from the outside-in.

It’s really… when I think of them I feel stupid, but the way they looked down on me later on… yeah. Not quite recovered from that. Relating myself to other people a lot less, but it’s still there.

There’s always a what could have been. It never would have been though. I never wanted to see the part of them that I did, but I’m glad I have so that I know to keep them away. I feel weird even posting this here. I’m stable but I’m just missing some things.

 

[Croconaw]

Spoiler: bpd rambles

I feel a lot better than I did yesterday. That's the thing with BPD... My periods of sadness do not last long at all.

I don't have my favorite person anymore. It's actually I that broke contact with her, or at least limited the contact greatly. I haven't contacted her for over two months. She used to be the sole source of my happiness and now she isn't any of it. The fact that I moved on is great and I couldn't have seen this coming just a few months ago. It's just weird not having her. It's different? I sometimes would crave hugs and I received them from her, but I'm not on that level of friendship with many people. I actually have a few friends and I know where I stand with all of them. It feels nice to have an understanding of our friendship and to be okay with the boundaries we have set. It's not about me anymore, but about both of us, and I feel happier now that I realize that.

It's a good kind of different. I'm not even sure this has a place in the "what's bothering you" thread, but I'm getting there. I just sometimes need a hug and it sucks that I can't always get one, but on a brighter note? I somehow gained the maturity in the past few months to respect the boundaries of others and not force them into physical contact they may not be comfortable with.

 

[SkyKnight03]

I went to a mall today and got harassed by three teenagers.

I was with my younger cousin and I was buying a gift for my mom. Three older kids stop us. They start yelling nasty sexual comments. Asking if we wanted to fight. Asking if we were intimate.

I'm not much older than them, but I was still the adult in this situation. (Albeit confused and nervous by the sudden conflict). I didn't say a word to them or give acknowledgment. I led my younger cousin into a store. (They started following us, yelling awful things). But soon gave up.

I hope I did the right thing. I keep thinking: Should I have said something to them? Either way I didn't bring it up much more. I didn't want to let them ruin what had been a peaceful day for us.

Why do people behave like this?

 

[Reginald Fairfield]

I need to resist an impulse buy, but it's a good deal, and I'm not likely to see it again.

 

[Midoriya]

- snip -

I'm really, really sorry this happened to you. I can assure you you made the correct choice in ignoring them and continuing about your business. If you were to engage them with words or physical contact, it would only give them the attention they wanted from you. Especially since this happened in real life, a fight could have been dangerous. People will act like such jerks for no reason sometimes, it's truly appalling. Sending love and hugs your way.

 

[Kitsuragi]

i am literally having the worst night of my life

 

[SkyKnight03]

I'm really, really sorry this happened to you. I can assure you you made the correct choice in ignoring them and continuing about your business. If you were to engage them with words or physical contact, it would only give them the attention they wanted from you. Especially since this happened in real life, a fight could have been dangerous. People will act like such jerks for no reason sometimes, it's truly appalling. Sending love and hugs your way.

It unsettles me most that we were doing absolutely nothing but going through our day before this happened. It very much reminded me of bullying in highschool. There was no reason for provocation. It's possible they were recording for TikTok though. (my cousin noted earlier there was a social media influencer in the mall).

People are scary. I'm cautious about others in public places and this justified me even more.

 

[savanniebananie]

My debit card got hacked. I’ve been so scared of that happening and of course it had to happen to me. I had just enough money to save and to use for a phone card this month, and they took all of it. I called my bank and blocked my card for now and im going to talk to them later today before I go to work. I guess my phone is going to be disabled or something because I can’t pay for it

Update: We figured out what happened with my card. Someone stole my information and used it on Metapay, and apparently it’s a scam that’s been going around. My card got blocked and I’m getting a new one next week. Glad they didn’t take too much, just 40$. My mom offered to pay for my phone card this month because I don’t get paid until the day after it’s due. I’m glad everything got figured out.

 

[Croconaw]

My debit card got hacked. I’ve been so scared of that happening and of course it had to happen to me. I had just enough money to save and to use for a phone card this month, and they took all of it. I called my bank and blocked my card for now and im going to talk to them later today before I go to work. I guess my phone is going to be disabled or something because I can’t pay for it

If you have an income (ie: the same job paying you for a specific amount of time) there are cash advance apps that don’t require any sort of credit check. You can connect your bank account and qualify for cash immediately. I’ve used one before and gotten $200 at one point. Some of the services are free or cost very little (like a transfer fee of $8, or something, but that is usually billed with the payback and isn’t due upfront.).

I thought I’d offer a solution/an alternative because phones are necessary for some people. I was out of a job for two months because of the job market a few years ago, and my mom lent me money for my phone bill because I needed it to apply for jobs. I’m sorry that happened! That’s happened to me before and it sucked, but I did get the money back from the hacker.

 

[boring]

Spoiler

So RE: me freaking out about my upcoming deadlines and waiting for my university to approve or deny my extension requests - they approved all three and just didn’t tell me until I asked Technically that’s a violation of their own guidelines but I got THREE extensions approved by the board at my uni at once so I’m certainly not gonna go whining or anything. i’m honestly so grateful for this breathing room, I just need to get my head on straight to pull these assignments off well.

The police have still yet to contact me, I might end up contacting them. I must admit though that I find it difficult to muster up the strength to address this investigation head on so I would’ve appreciated if the police just stuck to their word. Hopefully they progress my case soon. One of the victims charities I reached out to is gonna give me therapy too but I can’t talk about the crime in any detail because they’d be required to divulge anything I say to the cops. They said I can talk about the EFFECT of the crime though … Man …. if people could just keep their hands to themselves maybe I wouldn’t have to juggle my academic career, which is my life long goal, and a damn police investigation. I was built for animal crossing and random factoids about pacific island nations, not this bs!
Plus I’m coming down with a cold and my disability means viruses hit me particularly hard so yeah. might die tonight haha, we’ll see! Is it an excuse to play more animal crossing in bed?

Spoiler: edit

Perhaps my complaints on TBT manifest the actions I need because its only been 14 minutes since I posted this but the police just contacted me. Nothing worth sharing and still not exactly what I'd hoped for but progress is progress!

 

[Chris]

Is it an excuse to play more animal crossing in bed?

Yes, it absolutely is. A good excuse too.

 

[Chris]

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Removed

 

[Dunquixote]

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Pmsing really bad and starting to feel my depression “getting bad” again :/. one thought of my friend and i just feel sad and hopeless again. also passive aggressive thoughts (like thinking what i want to say right now to him, in spite hating passive aggressiveness). not happy about my mom making me get my hair cut. i only need my bangs trimmed so it shouldn’t take long but it takes so long. i don’t like the atmosphere there or feel comfortable with them yet.

 

[VernalLapin]

I NEVER GET ANYBETTER AND I NEVER WILL. I AM USELESS TO MYSELF!!!!!!

 

[Xara]

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[ali.di.magix]

Spoiler: cw: work things, mention of death

idek where to begin with the absolute ****show of issues at work holy moly

Like seriously how hard is it to do things the right way. I work in construction, it quite literally can be life or death situations that we work in. I'm tired of the pressure, I'm tired of the complacency, I'm tired of the unnecessary shortcuts, I'm tired of feeling like a beaten dog by our client because we can't get things right. I'm so so tired, man.

I can't control other people's actions...if someone chooses to make a wrong decision on site what the hell can I or management do about that when it is drilled in their heads about doing the right thing.

And boy am I sick of my manager playing the victim all the time. It is, and always will be, the joint actions of the crew and management that will cause incidents. The woe is me mentality from my manager is getting really painful for everyone at the moment. Get your head out of your ass and start seeing solutions rather than problems, move the **** on.

**** am I tired lol

 

[savanniebananie]

My boyfriend bought me a really cute my melody bracelet for our anniversary and I bought him a matching kuromi one. Anyways, it came in the mail and when he got it there was no my melody charm and when I barely stretched it to put it on, it completely broke. It was around 15$ so he was really mad and I was pretty disappointed at how poor quality it was.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

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not to just show up out of nowhere to vent after being so silent, but if I could like run away and never come back that would be nice times like this it honestly hurts to live at all. I don't want to live like this, but this is the life I was given and I'm stuck with it. it's a hard reality and I just... living hurts.

edit: I'm a bit better now, but ugh life hella sucks sometimes.