i have my doctor’s appointment today and i’m so irritated by how anxious i am LOL. there’s literally no reason for me to feel like this. it’s just an appointment to get my meds (which clearly aren’t working if i still feel like this
) refilled. i know what to say to the receptionist when i get there. i know to wait in the waiting room until they tell me what room to go to. i know how to pronounce the name of my meds. i know the pharmacists there are really nice. i know what to do and have a general idea of how this appointment will go, and yet i’m shaking and irritable and my stomach’s in knots.
i don’t know if it’s because i have to leave my apartment or because i have to see a male doctor or what. probably both. the fact that the fire alarm in my building has already gone off twice today did not help either. i miss my regular doctor, i was really hoping i wouldn’t have to get my meds refilled again until she was back from maternity leave. i’m tired and anxious and cold. i hate that i feel like this over every little thing. if i have to live my life, i would really prefer if i could do so without feeling like this all of the time.