This afternoon was a bit...chaotic, for lack of better words.
I first find out that my grandparents are going to be bringing their obnoxious dog over here for three weeks, while they are on vacation.
No offense to any pet lovers reading this, but I have a bit of a fear of dogs. Most oft the time they are just hyper, energetic, and in the way when you are trying to get around...and my dad and grandparents are a bit insensitive to that.
My dad told me the dog will mostly stay in his room or in my brother's room, so I am hoping that is the case.
He then goes to lecture me about how he and my grandma do a lot for me (which I do appreciate), but that is not going to magically make my anxiety around dogs disappear. And when I was trying to reassure him that I do appreciate, he just ignored me until I said "Did you hear me?", then he said "You don't though." -- I should not have to deal with something that gives me anxiety just to prove myself to him.
He also somehow linked this to me learning how to become more mature. Now look, I do get that becoming more mature is a part of life and if you eventually want to live on your own, but how is this relevant, if I am not planning on having pets, or pet-sitting when I am on my own?
Then he said that I was apart of the reason my mom bailed out on us back in April 2019. She apparently did not have the patience to deal with a special needs child. Yet, she expects me to wait on her hand and foot when she texts, and cries to come back to live with us.
I love my family, but I struggle to see eye-to-eye with them. We clash severely and I struggle to get the points they are trying to make and vice-versa. I cannot help, but believe being on the spectrum does contribute to this to some extent. My brain is wired differently, so I struggle to see the points my dad makes, and he struggles to see mine.
This is more mild, but we also have two different natural schedules. He is more of an early bird, whereas I am more of a night owl. I actually like going to the store with him, so I can get out of the house for a bit and pick out stuff for snacks, meals, etc. He has to wake up early for work, so it is only natural that he is an early bird, but even when he retires, he will still be one I bet. I obviously do not have a problem with him being an early bird, but it is mildly frustrating at times, since I do like going to the store. He mostly does so in the morning, whereas I would do it late afternoon--evening.
I still have a long way to go, but I really hope I can get my own place later on down the road. That way, I no longer have to be an inconvenience to my dad, and vice-versa. He can do his own thing, he can look after a dog. He can get his own dog, and I will not have to get involved in the chaos. I can do my own thing without inconveniencing him. I can do things by my own schedule.
Also, vacations. I want to avoid these, at least family ones. We will be going on one not to long after my grandparents get back from their cruise.
and trying to be lazy and sleep for longer than like, 6 hours is basically just a guaranteed headache. I look on in envy at people who “sleep in” on their days off >:c 
