Basically I just really hate that bullying has had such a negative impact on my life. Yet I'm only just starting to understand how much it messed me up.. I've only started to realize this in the last year or so that I'm struggling to just be my authentic self. I wasted so much of my life just trying to be as much as an unidentifiable blob as possible, as a defence mechanism for bullying and criticism. Now I've started to identify this problem in myself but I can't seem to stop it. I'm a grown ass adult and I still feel like people are going to bully me if I try to be myself and I hate it

