What's Bothering You?

One of the senators of my state made a really racist tweet about China. It bothers me really greatly that someone like her somehow made it to Senate and represents my state wtf. Makes me wish I could move out of my state sooner knowing that the people of my state voted her into power. Makes me feel like I'm not welcome here anymore.
 
my friend on discord did a call w me so he could tell me a joke, and I'm so stupid I didn't understand the joke til he pasted it in our chat. I think it's hard for me to comprehend something like speech if I just listen to it, I understood the joke right away when I read it.

also that was the first time I did a call w him and I was internally flipping my **** and being overly anxious lol


I get that, don't worry it is okay to be anxious.. calling people (may it be phone, discord, heck even skype !) can be nerve-wracking, specially if you have anxiety. I hope that with time you will get better with it ! (for me especially I either mumble or the way I say something is hard for others to comprehend) you're not stupid though ! (maybe the joke just isn't funny out loud haha!)
 
ever since i turned 16, my dad kept insinuating that the moment i turned 18, i'd be kicked out. he hasn't done that yet, but he keeps using me for his renovations and manual labor. i can't say anything against it or he threatens with kicking me out.

today i had to scrape some layers of wallpaper off with my fingers and some of my nails (which took me months to grow) are broken. i've been doing a lot more these past weeks, there were so many times where i had to disassemble furniture and carry them to the basement, carry them back up, carry them into the garage, cut wood, clean up his mess- i'm also sick of getting rid of baseboards. it also suuuuucks because i still have more work to do later today

but i guess i get paid for my labor by being allowed to live here, so i dont really feel justified in complaining much, other people have it alot worse honestly
 
People using face masks as an excuse to bump into others when it's plenty of space in grocery store and the workers do their best to avoid the store being too crowded also.

Also, again people stop wearing your mask around your neck/on your head whatever, just don't wear them then, especially here when it's not mandatory so be happy.
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but i guess i get paid for my labor by being allowed to live here, so i dont really feel justified in complaining much, other people have it alot worse honestly [/SPOILER]
you do realize that's like.. both physical and mental abuse and stuff like wicked sect people do... pretty sure you can file charges against it.
 
It is sad that i can’t change without my dad walking in on me and without needing to lock the door yet. even when he knocks and i say wait he walks in anyways. thankfully i hadn’t changed yet. then he asks me what i want from subway and since i am just waking up i couldn’t think and he gets pissy like he does when i can’t answer anything right away even though he claims he knows i have aspergers. you know what **** you dad. i am tired being treated like a verbal punching bag and being treated like i’m stupid.
 
i can’t believe him. acts like nothing is wrong. and why do you need to move my pop now? if they want to put the table cloth back on they will do it. if you admitted you have anxiety i would try to understand more, but *** **** my pop isn’t hurting anyone where it was. if they want you to do something, they’ll ask. god you’re so ****ing annoying. i was going to move it when i was done. and don’t touch my stuff when you don’t wash your hands. and the last streams tarts at 12 pst and we still haven’t left. i told my mom about it last night. i can put data on in the car but would love to watch it without my dad talking so loud in the car.
 
you do realize that's like.. both physical and mental abuse and stuff like wicked sect people do... pretty sure you can file charges against it.
im not sure if he's in a sect but i did threaten him with calling child protection services when i was like 12 lOl, but i just try to avoid him now, it's alot less stressful than arguing with him and potentially setting him off haha (plus i think he would somehow take his revenge on me if i ever did take legal action against him)
It is sad that i can’t change without my dad walking in on me and without needing to lock the door yet. even when he knocks and i say wait he walks in anyways. thankfully i hadn’t changed yet. then he asks me what i want from subway and since i am just waking up i couldn’t think and he gets pissy like he does when i can’t answer anything right away even though he claims he knows i have aspergers. you know what **** you dad. i am tired being treated like a verbal punching bag and being treated like i’m stupid.
i know how you feel... :( it's hard to try to convince somebody that they should respect your privacy and mental wellbeing, but it's even sadder when your own family is the one who seem to want to understand the least. i'm really sorry that your dad is doing that to you, just know that it's definitely not your fault and that you're doing nothing wrong. <3
 
I can't find my house key so I'm stuck outside on the front porch until my boyfriend gets home an hour from now.

Me & my cat are looking at each other through the window and I really wish he could open the door lmao
 
im not sure if he's in a sect but i did threaten him with calling child protection services when i was like 12 lOl, but i just try to avoid him now, it's alot less stressful than arguing with him and potentially setting him off haha (plus i think he would somehow take his revenge on me if i ever did take legal action against him)

i know how you feel... :( it's hard to try to convince somebody that they should respect your privacy and mental wellbeing, but it's even sadder when your own family is the one who seem to want to understand the least. i'm really sorry that your dad is doing that to you, just know that it's definitely not your fault and that you're doing nothing wrong. <3

Thank you so much for the response. :) I really appreciate it.

I’m so sorry @xara; sorry is not enough to express how sorry and concerned I am. I haven’t been online much because I’ve been busy, but if you need me, I’m home now and will try to respond when I can. :) Please hang in there; sending well wishes to you and your mom.
 
i hate people who think being an annoying **** is funny especially when you have to live with them (probably will redact this later...)
 
god im so sleepy i cant process anything. the professor called on me during the first 5 mins and like a dumb person i gave a dumb answer and i feel bad. everyone was watching too so ughkjfdfk.
we also have another class in an hour and we're barely 10% of the discussion
 
It's my birthday which just means awkward messages from family members and feeling obligated to reply to people that make me uncomfortable.
Also living with my ex-bf and I convinced him to take the day off for my bday (back before he broke up with me) but I don't really have anything to do and it's really awkward.

I seriously just hate myself and my life and I wish I could just die.

Edit: oh and I got distracted by twitter during KK slider singing my birthday song so I HEARD it but I missed all the nice messages (besides the stupid ones I sent to myself from my alt characters) and I tried turning the game off to redo it but of course it saved and I'm like. Extremely disproportionately upset by it.
 
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