I hope it's okay that I reply to you, but I just wanted to say that I am so, so sorry for your loss. I've lost 3 cats in the last 2.5 years myself, so I know just how devastating and life-altering this is. I know we've never really interacted before, but I can tell from your posts about her just how much she means to you and how much you love her. She was so beautiful, and I know you gave her the best life and care possible. I know that doesn't make any of this hurt less, though.
Sending you so much love.