I know I haven't posted much in here at all lately, I was doing really well during my trip to Ontario but I've felt pretty miserable and depressed since I've been back home. there are a lot of complicated reasons for that which I obviously won't go into here, but long story short, my home life is very toxic in multiple ways and I need to get out of here.
well, I have some good news. it's not 100% official yet since we just started discussing this yesterday, but my brother and I are currently on the market for a 2-bedroom apartment. we're planning on moving somewhere that's closer to where we both work (as it is now we have to drive 40-50 min to get to work). of course we will have to find a place that will let us have both of his cats and my dog, but I think we can get something figured out.
I'm pretty nervous, not only because I've never lived at a permanent address that's different from my parents', but also because I want to make sure that I keep my finances in order so I can continue to save money even after I move out. but to say that I'm excited about the idea of finally getting my own place would be a big understatement. my brother and I both desperately want to get out of here; he actually lived on his own for a while and had to come back a few months ago due to landlord issues, but I'm sure he's very relieved to start the apartment hunting process again. if we get through this process relatively quickly, then we could be at our new place in as little as a month (could take longer, but I think as long as we're actively looking I'll still have some hope). I'm really looking forward to that, I'll finally be able to breathe a huge sigh of relief and start being able to focus on myself and working towards building a life of my own
my dear friends @/Foreverfox and @/Shellzilla_515 have offered me a tremendous amount of support over the last week, they've certainly made it a lot easier for me to cope with all these troubles and overwhelming emotions. if you two are reading this, I'm very grateful for you and I want to offer my sincere thanks for being so caring and patient with me