april. april.
i swear, it's an actual curse. every april i break down. i have a form of amnesia due to tons of trauma therapy, so my memories of times before 2016 are very very cloudy.
april 2014? got banned from a wiki i basically relied on for socialization. april 2015? trauma peaked. april 2016? got broken up with, got lead on, started clinging to my abuser. april 2017? got kicked off of a website i had a large following on for making a dumb mistake (i was 13, about to turn 14 btw), lost a TON of friends, ended up dropping out of my school at the time to to excessive bullying and nobody standing up for me, even the staff. april 2018, oh! just this year, couldn't be that bad! haha nope. attempted suicide, got abandoned best friend of three years, proceeded to be made fun of by his other friends, lost another bunch of people, narrowly avoided hospitalization a few weeks into may.
tbh as much as i want this year to be over i also want it to never end just because i'm terrified of april coming again.
September, or like all of the fall months really. I can't handle that ****ed up weather and nothing fun happens. (Yeah Halloween is not really a thing here unless you're a kid/teenager so yeah lol). At least winter you know sorta what to wear and expect.
Tempted to say October. Although it's not a huge deal here in England Halloween is everywhere online and it just isn't my thing, and also it's getting close to when we sell fireworks and I don't like risking having to sell them... xD
Dang all this February hate... thats my birthday month lmao
Anyway I hate August and September. In Florida it's 100+ F daily and in the afternoon it storms. Like, bad thunderstorms. Makes it hard to do anything in the evening. September also is the start of hurricane season which isn't much fun. AND... September is the last month before October/November/December's holiday lineup so it just seems like September drags on.
June-Early August for me. They are the hottest months and the UV exposure is at its highest. I live in Cali, so regardless it can be 80+ degrees in any month.
Ironically enough, December is my least favorite month because usually bad stuff happens to me around then, and that’s also the month where I’ve been depressed a lot in the past. :/