What's Bothering You?

[ali.di.magix]

Spoiler: kinda personal but hey

bruh mistakes were made....why tf did i think it was a good idea to give someone my number to find out they're obsessed with me!! pls leave me alone lmao

 

[jiny]

Spoiler

im still so shook by the whole situation w the guy i was talking to i feel like im overreacting, but at the same time we were basically official, and he was telling me how much he loved me and he wanted a future with me, but he goes behind my back and calls another girl cute and constantly inviting her to go out with him to the clubs .. it’s such a horrible feeling to find that out, when i found out my heart was pounding so fast, i was shaking and i just wanted to scream i was risking my parents and i’s relationship to be with him, they were giving me the silent treatment and threatening to kick me out.. and he knew all of these yet still did all this behind my back :/

 

[Zane]

I wish I could just have a sit-down with my brain, a little 1 on 1, and just ask it why tf it’s so in love with obsessively stewing in the sludge of all the worst memories and feelings possible

 

[Dunquixote]

^ If you ever want to chat with someone here my doors are open for you.

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thank you! I appreciate it .

Spoiler

I just woke up and this time i had a dream about some of the people I used to hang with. I really wish I had friends over here but I don’t have a job and can’t get myself to leave the house. Not to mention, social anxiety and being bad at just starting conversations. At this point, I don’t think I’ll have any more personal friends. I like my alone time and staying at home but i still can’t help but feel lonely. I want a boyfriend too but same problem and I honestly find it hard to believe there is anyone out there for me.

 

[moonbyu]

twitter was already a cesspool but ever since elon took it over, it's just been downright deplorable. what an awful app. so glad i deleted my account and the app lol.

 

[-Raven-]

You know what just gets me with trying to socialise… people who you only get to hang out with if you’re doing THEIR thing. You bring up your thing and you’re lucky to get an hour, they never will on their own. This isn’t my universal experience, but hell man, it’s been too common.

Kinda sucks when everything I like is niche. Never seem good at proselytising (tongue-in-cheek) and hanging out in spaces for those niches… they don’t seem that social. I might suck at socialising, but I’ve accommodated for people often enough that can’t be all of it.

Not about anyone I met through here… just venting. Looking back and dreading the next time I need to deal with this. rarg.

 

[skarmoury]

Spoiler: ;lmdsf;

my workmates are so ****ty i absolutely hate it here, theyre so bad at communicating (e.g. they switched my sched to accommodate someone else WITHOUT TELLING ME so all my plans had to be cancelled today), theyre not present during zoom meetings when they have the bigger role than me (note that one guy is at the BEACH and literally did not tell anyone in the room, not even our seniors/boss, so I had to swoop in and do his work for him bc otherwise they would get mad at us interns), and they dont even know parts of their own job?? my workmate tried gaslighting & guilt tripping me today for calling them out on the sched change without my knowledge/permission (note I was very civil with them) so i just muted and hid their chat away bc i couldnt bother talking to them anymore. they are so bad at receiving criticism for their own faults and deflect the blame to literally anything else and try guilt tripping me to make me feel bad about calling them out. for the guy who was away and at the beach, he's responsible for making our schedule for the next two weeks and we have literally received no news from him. work starts tomorrow and we have absolutely no idea what we are doing because he cant bother to give us a heads up on anything at all. lmao ive had enough of my workmates i hate it here

 

[xSuperMario64x]

I usually read through here (and the Happy thread) to see what everyone is up to, but I dunno. I've been dealing with so much personal reflection lately, and learning to help myself, and trying to work through past trauma caused by manipulation. I understand now that I can't give from an empty bucket, and right now my bucket only has about a cm of water in it. and as much as I want everyone here to feel heard and validated... I'm just struggling to read some of this stuff right now. my heart is raw and this stuff hits me so hard, on top of what I'm dealing with.

I just want you guys to know that you are always loved and cared for by someone here, even if it doesn't seem like it. I'm happy to be part of such a welcoming community. I'm struggling to do my part right now, but I genuinely do care a lot about you guys. I'm just overwhelmed and trying to sort our my own life at the moment. I have faith that you guys will get through this and find your peace someday. you'll be in my heart.

 

[ZeldaCrossing64]

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[Giddy]

I was made redundant today....
2 years and ten months
My mind and head feel so squishy, out of mymind, i wanted to leave there myself and they took that away from me.
Had to give the keys back today too

Spoiler: More sussy stuff

First she telling me the shop failed for bankrupttly, the time my sister posted about their shop online, she told my mum they havent paid their rent in over three years, and they also told me today someone bought the shop from them? wtf

 

[oak]

I've had the biggest lump in my throat on and off for the past month. I know it's anxiety related but it feels like a dry pill is stuck in my throat. It's the worst. I keep dry heaving out of no where because of it. I've just been doing a lot for others and I'm tired.

 

[Mr_Keroppi]

Edit: I feel alot better after typing, I think I'll take a break and try and be positive instead. I hope all of you are doing better and know you are loved! <3

 

[Clock]

Not me getting anxiety for submitting a paper as i dread of getting a bad grade. My grades in that class are fine, but still.

 

[ribbitribbon]

someone i was really close to on another site self-deleted abruptly, and i don’t have any way to contact them. i’m still processing it :’)

 

[Dunquixote]

Spoiler

I thought I was feeling a little happier when I went back onto twitter, but I think maybe it was too soon. I’m still hurting and seeing tweets about the genocide made me feel overwhelmed and powerless.

I sent a message to my friend on whatsapp asking him again about his opinion on my screenshots; I’m now nervous to hear back from him. idk why i bother. i’m tired of waiting all the time. i’m tired of being sad and lonely. i know it is dumb but i wish the video game characters I like were real and could be my friend.

I used to feel like i belong on this voice actor’s discord, but even when I was still talking to more people, whenever I said anything, I always felt like i got that awkward silence. on twitch other Va discords i’ve tried or on twitter, when I try to interact and be part of the “community. it, no response from other fans since they’re too busy trying to get the VA’s attention if they’re in the chat. makes me wonder what i’m doing wrong.

 

[-Lumi-]

Remember to lift with your  legs and not your  back... ouch

 

[Romaki]

I'm really depressed and lonely.

 

[Chris]

Gonna vent. Most of it will probably sound stupid but it's a big feelings day apparently.

Spoiler: Vent

I'm having one of those days where the world seems big and overwhelming and my gut reaction is to cancel everything and just curl up in bed. Upside having a partner to literally kick you out of bed is a godsend on these days.

My partner started a fight last night over literally nothing. She's since admitted she did this, but it was an exhausting 2 hours where I just wanted her to either talk to me about what was wrong or let me go to sleep. She chose neither! Upside she apologised for taking her sudden mood dip out on me and we made up but I'm exhausted both emotionally and physically as a result.

I managed to strain a muscle in my thigh last night. Every couple of minutes on the walk into work this morning it would spasm - twice I almost buckled. Then idiot me thinks it's smart to walk up six flights of stairs instead of taking the lift, haha. I'm not getting out of this chair for a while.

Also need to go to my parents house tonight due to an early morning appointment conveniently near their house tomorrow. I just want to go to my own home instead, but the trains are a mess due to recent bad weather and it's not worth the risk of missing it. The doctors want to inject me with various vials of stuff, one of which has side effects that are making me hate my appearance - which my partner called out an aspect of when she was upset which is not helping at all with my self-esteem ("You're getting fat"... yes, I'm aware I've gained weight, but I'm not even 60kg. "Fat" seems like a bit of a stretch). Yay chronic health conditions and insecurity. Then I thought it was a great idea to book an eye test for after work tomorrow so I'm prolonging going home even further. I just want to go home now! Just, uh, 33-34hrs more of adulting then I can go home crawl under a blanket and forget the world for a bit.

 

[danmokun]

They've pulled my favorite brand of porridge of the shelves... You know, the one with the cute bears on the label? It's a British brand. (I know, I just said the B word...) Hey, at least I still have the boxes! They have such funny cartoons on 'em and reading them was always my fav. part of the day.

You think if I found the source, they'd give me one last bowl of that golden gooiness? Maybe... maybe not. But I'll write to them every day and one day they just might cave in, just to shut this yank up for good at least!

 

[Alolan_Apples]

Some feral cat from outside disturbed my sleep with its meowing. I’m not sure if I could watch the eclipse because of my sleep deprivation.