What's Bothering You?
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Shellzilla_515
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I just ****ing barely missed a gaming session. 
My moods been going downhill the last couple of days . So tired.
Work has been crazy busy and we were already short staffed. Then unfortunately due to unforeseen circumstances we are down two more people. Not their fault of course it’s just a lot of work. Hopefully they will be able to be back soon. Going in to many directions at once and feeling like I’m not getting much done. Every time I try to start something something else pops up that needs to be done first. It doesn’t help that communication between departments is at an all time low and people are snapping at each other.
It also doesn’t help that the bruise I got the other day is starting to bother me.
I feel bad not contributing much to the event . I wish I had more time. I was trying to find some shiny Pokemon on legends Arceus but having no luck. I’m starting to wonder if I should just get Violet since I was thinking about getting it anyway. Maybe it will lift my mood . Maybe I could have better luck since I can’t have much worse then I’m having with Arceus.
It also doesn’t help that the bruise I got the other day is starting to bother me.
I feel bad not contributing much to the event . I wish I had more time. I was trying to find some shiny Pokemon on legends Arceus but having no luck. I’m starting to wonder if I should just get Violet since I was thinking about getting it anyway. Maybe it will lift my mood . Maybe I could have better luck since I can’t have much worse then I’m having with Arceus.
Dunquixote
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This is minor. I messed up on my written cheer by bumping the lost reply button accidentally while I was still typing. I tagged a mod asking if I could post/edit it, will message them if they don’t see it tonight. I’m so embarrassed because it wasn’t good at all what I had so far. I can’t stop worrying about it even though it is just a mistake and very minor (I was hoping no one would read it but too late >.<). I was going to try working on a visual but I’m too anxious and not in the right mood.
My mood has been pretty down all day since earlier when I found my late kitties’ urns.
I missed most of the streams too today; I wanted to make as many as I could. I should’ve set my clock.
Feeling pessimistic too about tomorrow. I don’t think my best friend is going to message me happy birthday. :/ I can’t help think that since he hasn’t messaged me to chat at all. I always am the one that messages him first most of the time. I’m so lonely.
I hope my mood picks up before my Splatoon match. Hopefully dinner will also help since I haven’t eaten since this morning.
I decided to wait to look through totes for my missing game cartridges. It is still making me anxious and upset but I need to focus on what I can for this tbtwc
My mood has been pretty down all day since earlier when I found my late kitties’ urns.
I missed most of the streams too today; I wanted to make as many as I could. I should’ve set my clock.
Feeling pessimistic too about tomorrow. I don’t think my best friend is going to message me happy birthday. :/ I can’t help think that since he hasn’t messaged me to chat at all. I always am the one that messages him first most of the time. I’m so lonely.
I hope my mood picks up before my Splatoon match. Hopefully dinner will also help since I haven’t eaten since this morning.
I decided to wait to look through totes for my missing game cartridges. It is still making me anxious and upset but I need to focus on what I can for this tbtwc
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It’s my birthday today and I’m looking back at the last few months with part of me wondering what there is to celebrate. I’m spending the day depressed instead of motivated to do anything and it’s largely because of what that one guy did to me. Like isn’t easy but I know I would be fine if all that hadn’t happened. Literally had trauma breakdown and got told it was a tantrum.
No wonder I always preferred my birthdays to be low-key.
No wonder I always preferred my birthdays to be low-key.
I really want to participate more in this event, but I can’t. The way it is, I can basically only use my Switch on weekends. So it severely limits the time I can play. That sucks so hard because I really wanted to play, especially the Smash tournament, but… nope. I can’t. I can still watch them, or do the other activities, but it would be so much more fun to actually be able to participate myself.
I love my cousin's children, I truly do. Playing with them helps me relax and I genuinely enjoy it. I feel like the cool aunt even though I'm a completely different relative! They're 6, 8, 10, and 14. The younger three always want to hang out while the oldest understands I need some time to myself some days. The 10 year old tries to call me every hour on my off days. Even when I say I'm busy and I'll reach out later, she'll ask if I'm done yet and want to call as soon as I'm free. I need time to myself sometimes...to study, relax, etc. I'm not sure how to politely ask her and her younger brothers to stop pestering me every hour if I'm busy. They know I'll contact them when I'm free, still they ask. I get they're young and excited and I don't want to hurt their feelings. I don't want to ask my cousin to tell them either because then they'll think they're in trouble. It's just frustrating....
Looking back on some my posts on this thread from 2022 through early 2023
I should probably explain what actually happened.
Back in high school I was stalked by my high school classmates and they shared my accounts with each other to mass block. They’d take the posts I made about them and shared them with each other to laugh at. They’d message my online friends and message them with bad gossip about me. Knowing I was stalked for a year and a half along with a lot of nasty comments about my appearance and character and unsolicited photos really damaged me.
I developed really bad psychosis that lasted well after I graduated high school where I thought they were still stalking me on here and other forums and that they’d delete all my accounts. That and I thought I was running into them in public a lot and they’d make comments or laugh at me.
There was medication intervention and I was diagnosed with complex PTSD and put on the medication to ease the psychosis. I still get flashbacks and certain things like people who look like my bullies, certain forms of gossip, young adults carrying backpacks, and phones being pointed in my direction are all triggers. I had to drop a certain Netflix teen drama because it was a little too realistic with its cyber bullying.
Sometimes when I do online meetups with people I met on a local Discord server I have to comfort myself into accepting the fact that those people can’t hurt me anymore and that they aren’t in my life. I transferred from that high school almost five years ago and only really ran into one of them once since then. Most of them left the area we went to school at anyway since there isn’t much in the way of jobs, education, or affordable housing here so my chances of running into them are slim.
I should probably explain what actually happened.
Back in high school I was stalked by my high school classmates and they shared my accounts with each other to mass block. They’d take the posts I made about them and shared them with each other to laugh at. They’d message my online friends and message them with bad gossip about me. Knowing I was stalked for a year and a half along with a lot of nasty comments about my appearance and character and unsolicited photos really damaged me.
I developed really bad psychosis that lasted well after I graduated high school where I thought they were still stalking me on here and other forums and that they’d delete all my accounts. That and I thought I was running into them in public a lot and they’d make comments or laugh at me.
There was medication intervention and I was diagnosed with complex PTSD and put on the medication to ease the psychosis. I still get flashbacks and certain things like people who look like my bullies, certain forms of gossip, young adults carrying backpacks, and phones being pointed in my direction are all triggers. I had to drop a certain Netflix teen drama because it was a little too realistic with its cyber bullying.
Sometimes when I do online meetups with people I met on a local Discord server I have to comfort myself into accepting the fact that those people can’t hurt me anymore and that they aren’t in my life. I transferred from that high school almost five years ago and only really ran into one of them once since then. Most of them left the area we went to school at anyway since there isn’t much in the way of jobs, education, or affordable housing here so my chances of running into them are slim.
spawnpoint
IT'S TV TIME!
edit nvm i was being overly dramatic
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xSuperMario64x
love of my life 💙💜
I've been awake since like 4:30 and I was wondering if I should go back to sleep or not, but at this rate I might as well get up and then maybe take a nap before I have to go to work later. it just sucks to wake up so early for no reason 
Hi everyone! I’m going through something this morning and I’m a little stressed/worried at the moment. I know this is very vague but I’ll post again (likely within two or three hours) after the fact with more details. It’s just better for my stress if I don’t write/think about it before it happens which is why this is vague, lol.
If I could have hugs/support that would be awesome.
If I could have hugs/support that would be awesome.
xSuperMario64x
love of my life 💙💜
big huggies!Hi everyone! I’m going through something this morning and I’m a little stressed/worried at the moment. I know this is very vague but I’ll post again (likely within two or three hours) after the fact with more details. It’s just better for my stress if I don’t write/think about it before it happens which is why this is vague, lol.
If I could have hugs/support that would be awesome.
I hope your issue is resolved soon 
QueenCobra
yassified for anonymity
According to my doctor, I likely have PCOS. I’m relieved, but it’s still uncomfortable— this past month, I had sharp pains in one side of my lower abdomen and hadn’t had that time of the month since December. (Ovarian cyst) When I do have it, it’s heavy and painful. At least I have some sort of explanation. (Still need to do bloodwork though)
I have some itchy stubble on my chin that I have to shave every other day or so.
My acne has gotten worse over the past few months and it itches. (Sorry if that’s gross.) Even when I wash my face and use benzoyl peroxide, it’s still there. I’ve gotten used to seeing it, but the feeling is uncomfortable.
It’s frustrating, but I think once I get the right medication, I’ll be fine.
I have some itchy stubble on my chin that I have to shave every other day or so.
My acne has gotten worse over the past few months and it itches. (Sorry if that’s gross.) Even when I wash my face and use benzoyl peroxide, it’s still there. I’ve gotten used to seeing it, but the feeling is uncomfortable.
It’s frustrating, but I think once I get the right medication, I’ll be fine.
ZeldaCrossing64
Sugary Cynic
Today isn't my day, eh? I'm feeling a bit better now, but my morning was just terrible.
For starters, I didn't get much sleep. I was gonna pull an all-nighter, but fell asleep at 3 and woke up at 7:15 AM. I had to rush to get ready for school 'cause I forgot to get some stuff ready the previous night. I was tired and cranky and my brother was pissing me off; His alarm rang for a good 10 minutes before I got too annoyed and woke him up... Three times. (If it were up to me, I'd let that ****er sleep in. So, so done with having to wake his ass up EVERY MORNING multiple times 'cause he can't be bothered to do it himself. Anyway...)
Also frustrated about other things. I look like a mess, I'm still tired, I can't focus, and I don't even wanna be here. I feel sick and nauseous, most likely as a result of me barely eating. I looked at my schedule and my English thesis was due yesterday, and I haven't gotten past the introduction. I did zero homework over the weekend and I'm so gonna fall back behind.
However, these are the consequences of my reckless actions, so I have no one to blame but myself. I guess this is more of a ramble/observation than a rant. I dunno, I just wanna talk about my crap day, I guess.
For starters, I didn't get much sleep. I was gonna pull an all-nighter, but fell asleep at 3 and woke up at 7:15 AM. I had to rush to get ready for school 'cause I forgot to get some stuff ready the previous night. I was tired and cranky and my brother was pissing me off; His alarm rang for a good 10 minutes before I got too annoyed and woke him up... Three times. (If it were up to me, I'd let that ****er sleep in. So, so done with having to wake his ass up EVERY MORNING multiple times 'cause he can't be bothered to do it himself. Anyway...)
Also frustrated about other things. I look like a mess, I'm still tired, I can't focus, and I don't even wanna be here. I feel sick and nauseous, most likely as a result of me barely eating. I looked at my schedule and my English thesis was due yesterday, and I haven't gotten past the introduction. I did zero homework over the weekend and I'm so gonna fall back behind.
However, these are the consequences of my reckless actions, so I have no one to blame but myself. I guess this is more of a ramble/observation than a rant. I dunno, I just wanna talk about my crap day, I guess.
Getting stressed out about my future since I have no clue how things are going to turn out and there is not really much reason to think it will be good at the rate things are going. I'm not even supposed to be thinking about this since it makes my mood worse...
I feel ya. I'm dying for Thursday to get here >_<
Reginald Fairfield
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Red Lobster filed for bankruptcy.
Dunquixote
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I had a good day and I’m doing okay overall, but my mood hasn’t been the greatest since I was hoping to hear from my best friend. I can’t help being sad even though I have plenty to be happy about. I miss how things used to be with us. Sorry for sounding like a broken record. I’m seriously grateful for the friends I have here and for this site, otherwise I’d still be stuck to how I was feeling in December like I never wanted to be happy again. I still get those feelings but I’ve been managing a bit better in some ways.
