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What's Bothering You?

I woke up at 4:40am feeling so tired and tense and anxious, and I slept off and on for a while but now it's 8:30 so I'll go ahead and get up. I still feel so tense though, every single muscle in my body is tense. I dont think it'll stop until mum comes home. 😞
 
Woke up to buzzing sounds and there's a big-ass wasp on my window. How the hell did it get there? Anyway, I came back with a fly swatter, watched it crawl around for a few minutes, then it disappeared... Somewhere. I couldn't kill it 'cause I was too scared; I flinched every time it moved and I ****ing whimpered when I saw it up close?? Really wish I wasn't so scared of bugs (especially wasps) so I could've just dealt with it and be done. I don't think I'm going back to my room for a while. :x
 
ZeldaCrossing64 said:
Woke up to buzzing sounds and there's a big-ass wasp on my window. How the hell did it get there? Anyway, I came back with a fly swatter, watched it crawl around for a few minutes, then it disappeared... Somewhere. I couldn't kill it 'cause I was too scared; I flinched every time it moved and I ****ing whimpered when I saw it up close?? Really wish I wasn't so scared of bugs (especially wasps) so I could've just dealt with it and be done. I don't think I'm going back to my room for a while. :x
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OMG I feel you... I remember a few weeks ago I walked to my room and I saw this HUGE crane fly zooming around. (They remind me of spiders with wings... I'm arachnophobic) Guess what, I didn't kill it. I asked my family for help and they were useless; they just told me to be brave because I'm 16 years old. Thanks, guys... And then, I came back to my room and the crane fly disappeared. I was pretty scared that it would fly up to my face while I was sleeping for a few days...
 
My switch just deleted game data that was on my sd card since it said it was used on a different switch and something about formatting 😬. I’m pretty sure most of the games weren’t ones I’ve been playing, but still I’m kinda freaking out 😭. i guess I’ll find out whenever I get to those games that I haven’t finished. I have saved to my switch icloud, so maybe all isn’t lost.

I thought I checked everything I needed to before getting a new switch; I had no idea there’d be issues with the sd card. My screenshots and videos didn’t get deleted thankfully.
 
I did these drawings to vent out my feelings after I got yet another talk from my parents about how I need to be like my neurotypical siblings. I love my family and all, but sometimes I wish they appreciated me for who I am. I've tried to convince them to at least look at helpful resources for autistic people like me so I can adapt, but they later used that term as another word for change so I gave up on that. And no matter how hard I try to convince them, I know their stance isn't gonna change. Note how some of the drawings reference controversies within the autistic community.
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I would also like to vent about something that is related to the top-right drawing. I have a pair of noise-cancelling headphones and they've been a game-changer for me ever since I bought them on my birthday. With them, I could easily breeze through the school environment without getting irritated easily by certain noises. Unfortunately, my parents are going to take that away from me for a while. I get that it's because they don't want me to be deaf, but it bothers me how they also expect me to "get used to it". The noise, I mean. I've heard how loud the campus has been for two stinkin' years and I still have not gotten used to it. How can you ignore sounds when you can hear them too?
 
I keep seeing people close to me accomplish things that I've wanted for so long, I keep working hard but I'm staring to think I might not make it, at least not in time. I know I know I'm young and I have time apparently, but I also want remaining time to enjoy the stuff I want to accomplish, and seeing people younger than me living the life I want makes me so sad and a bit ashamed of myself...
 
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I thought I'd respond to this, but I wouldn't worry about comparing yourself to others. Success isn't a one size fits all thing. For some people it may come later, but that same success may end up being more than the people who were successful first (if that makes sense). It took me an entire two years after graduating from university to find a job that fits me well, and I'm still not really where I want to be yet (don't have a house or apartment of my own yet), but I keep working at it cause I know that in a couple years I will.

Basically, comparing yourself to others just distracts you from opportunities and things you could be working on. I'll tell you right now that I'm never worried about others accomplishing things faster than me, and the lack of worry there allows me to make as much improvement as possible for me over time. It allows me to make as many shots as I can, and for me to put my all into everything. It's not for a lack of skill or anything else, because everyone has at least one thing they excel at. Even one of my best online friends, who doesn't believe he's good at anything, does have some things he is good at.

Anyway, sorry for the lengthy response, but just wanted to chime in because I care. Keep your head up. Life is a long, long journey. 💜
 
Midoriya said:
I thought I'd respond to this, but I wouldn't worry about comparing yourself to others. Success isn't a one size fits all thing. For some people it may come later, but that same success may end up being more than the people who were successful first (if that makes sense). It took me an entire two years after graduating from university to find a job that fits me well, and I'm still not really where I want to be yet (don't have a house or apartment of my own yet), but I keep working at it cause I know that in a couple years I will.

Basically, comparing yourself to others just distracts you from opportunities and things you could be working on. I'll tell you right now that I'm never worried about others accomplishing things faster than me, and the lack of worry there allows me to make as much improvement as possible for me over time. It allows me to make as many shots as I can, and for me to put my all into everything. It's not for a lack of skill or anything else, because everyone has at least one thing they excel at. Even one of my best online friends, who doesn't believe he's good at anything, does have some things he is good at.

Anyway, sorry for the lengthy response, but just wanted to chime in because I care. Keep your head up. Life is a long, long journey. 💜
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This actually helped me a lot, thank you. I guess I just have to learn to tell the part of my brain that thinks everybody is making fun of me for not doing all the things I want yet to shut up. Again thanks
 
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I hate people who lie, unless it's something e.g. a surprise party, etc. I knew someone was lying to me as I had proof. They've never been trustworthy as I and others have had issues before with them. The subject came up today about the current issue. The other person told me a lie straight to my face. I challenged them. They said 'No, I'm not lying.' I gave them another opportunity to tell the truth, still nothing. So, I told them why I know they've lied. I said, 'Just tell the truth.' Eventually, they admitted they were lying. I cannot stand liars. 😠
 
It sucks how drinking and substance use is so normalized in society. It also sucks that people are just now understanding why I vow to never drink/take drugs... After my mom died of an overdose. I've had this set in stone for years, and you're only seeing it when something tragic happens? Ugh.

I'm honestly worried about what the future holds when I'm presented with a scenario involving alcohol or drugs. I don't want to be judged or condemned for my choices. Addiction has hurt and even killed the ones close to me, so you really think I want that for myself?

This is pretty personal, so I apologize if it bothers anyone. I just have some stuff on my mind at the moment.
 
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