I keep waking up way too early this week for some reason. Apparently I only got 4 hours this time. I should probably just go back to sleep...
I've also been kinda depressed the past few days.
hey man i get the frustration of training pups but as someone who has worked with dogs this feels a little ingenuous. "adopt don't shop" isn't telling you to go out and get more dogs you aren't prepared for, it's a warning against irresponsible breeding that leads to shelters (including kill shelters) being overrun.
edit: i'm not going to make a new reply to spare you the notification, but your edit only made the situation sound worse. if i remember right you got your dog from a stranger for free on a facebook post and not an actual adoption agency or shelter. you can say her previous owner has a responsibility to disclose her temperament to you, sure, but considering this isn't a typical adoption it is also your responsibility to ask about it as her new family. you also adopted a pup that's part bernese mountain dog: a huge dog used by farmers, known for their strength and high activity - and part poodle: a smart but very high maintenance breed that requires a lot of activity and socialization. it is you and your family's responsibility to thoroughly research a dog's (and any other animal's) breeds before taking them into your home.
different dog breeds have different needs and require different types of training. even two dogs of the same breed can be completely different because all dogs have their own personalities! golden retrievers are considered one of the easiest dog breeds and are recommended for new dog owners. to compare the breeds you have is unfair to the bernie, she has two highly active types of dogs in her, she is most likely not going to be goldie-tempered.
all of the "issues" you have with adopting - not knowing health issues, personalities, temperaments, etc. is also applicable to bred puppies. pups grow up and develop their own personalities, their own fears, their own unexpected trauma and health issues. your bred dog just happens to be one of the (typically) easiest and most relaxed dog breeds. one way of getting a dog is not necessarily worse or better than another, you guys just did not prepare for something that wasn't a golden retriever.
with all due respect, this particular problem you have with your new dog is due to you & your family's own negligence. the responsible thing to do now is to either step up or rehome her to someone who actually has the ability and the desire to take care of her. she needs someone who actually wants to love her.
hey man i get the frustration of training pups but as someone who has worked with dogs this feels a little ingenuous. "adopt don't shop" isn't telling you to go out and get more dogs you aren't prepared for, it's a warning against irresponsible breeding that leads to shelters (including kill shelters) being overrun.
I understand that but please don't assume that was my intention with my wording. also I'm not talking about this further and I'm not looking for responses, so please do not respond.
Aghh I didn't get the job that I did the interview for.
Then when I was looking for jobs, I opened all the ones I planned to apply for and then realised nearly all of these are barista jobs that I don't even want, why my mind just planned to work for just another coffee shop.
me, doing art at this time (2am) on this day 3 years ago:
me, doing art at 2am Today:
my brain: somebody you love is going to Die. you are going to lose everybody you love and care about.
today is the third-year anniversary of my grandmother's passing. I spent the last few normal hours of my life in the early morning of Sept 20th, 2021 making art for a friend, and today I am making Canvas Crossing art for a friend. at the same time. on the anniversary of my grandmother's death.
experiencing so much loss in such a short span of time traumatized me, and my brain does not do well with comparisons like this. as soon as I realize something is the same as it was on a day I lost someone or something else terrible happened, anxiety hell. my brain is convinced it means that something terrible is going to happen Again, and it convinces me as well. I am now going to be even more anxious than normal all day. : )
I hate September. and October. and November. I am so tired of grief and sad anniversaries and just. everything. lol
I think I am getting eaten by fleas. Eugh.
Edit: I just remembered I may have also found a mosquito and I have stronger reactions to that so maybe that's why I am so uncomfortable right now.
Got a busy day tomorrow and going to need to be super careful. My heart rate is still going berserk. Earlier I had a sustained heart rate of just 5 bpm off the range the nurse said I need to go to the hospital for.
Doctors appointment on Monday can't come fast enough. Medicine please.
my youngest has scratch his area near his neck and its bleeding once again DX
i ordered his flea treatment so im gonna ask them when I pick it up on advice because i cant even pick him up, never mind a bloody cone thing around this neck.
My dad is all upset with me because he misunderstood what I was trying to tell him and he doesn't get the context I tried to give him and so now he's acting all disappointed and sarcastic and won't listen anymore. I never should've opened my mouth.