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I HATE having to hear my deadname, and I hate asking my grandma not to refer to me as such because ‘I don’t like my name.’ I hate the fact that I’m basically calling my deadname ‘my name’ when I ask her not to call me that. If I tell her it’s NOT name, she’ll get upset, but I guess that’s me just making assumptions. I should give her a chance. Give the woman that refers to Trump as “Mr. President Trump” and tells me his great he is a chance. I hate the fact that I’m also not a fan of Kamala and that I refuse to talk politics because my opinions upset 100% of the population. Seriously, the voting system is ****ed. There are 8 billion people in the world and I’m expected to believe that the same two ****ing political parties win every single time? Absolute crap. I try to stay silent about my opinions because I’m very aware this forum is very liberal and that’s fine, but my views almost always set people off because they aren’t completely left or right. I’m not about to state specific things that I agree or disagree with since I’m not looking for arguments, but it hurts that people who have voted for Trump are such *******s. It sucks that I have to listen to how LGBT people are a disgrace. It sucks that my grandma has no clue that I’m one of the disgraces to America. It sucks that I hate America and the direction in which this country is headed, and it sucks that some people would blame me because I have not voted in favor of the Republican or Democrat party. I have voted in the past, but it was for a third party candidate because I agree and disagree with both sides. I also hope I don’t get flack for this post because, yes, I do have some conservative view points, and I will not discuss this further. I just think everyone’s opinion needs to be heard and nobody should be silenced because they are a minority. I refuse to be seen as a bad person because of this. My candidate will never win, but at least I’m voting my conscience.

I may be willing to discuss maturely in PM my conservative view points which are very few, mainly related to labor unions. I’m open to discuss and maybe that could help me understand, but for now, I do not support. Do not reply publicly about this point please.

I hate that I have to stay silent as long as my grandma is around. I hate that I have to bottle up stress each time she calls me the name it says on my ID. I feel like I should tell her, but I also don’t feel like getting slapped. I hate her, the ****ed up voting system, and I hate America.
It's all good! I don't support Rump or Copmala, either. I don't hate America, though. Women and LGBT+ people still get stoned to death in other countries. Things aren't perfect in America but it really could be so much worse.

That doesn't mean we should settle. We should always strive to change things that aren't right. Real change doesn't come from elections. It comes from the actions we take in our everyday lives because no politician cares about anyone but themselves.

Stand up for the person being picked on, volunteer in a food pantry, etc. Just be kind and always call out injustice. Politics won't help you: your fellow human will.
 
My dog has a cough. Working in the vet field, I know a cough can be due to a lot of things. However, considering his age and the fact I can easily rule out heartworms or viruses he can get from other dogs.... signs are starting to look like early-stage heart failure. I'm really hoping that's not the case. I plan to bring him to work soon. Diagnostics without meds alone is $400 with my employee discount 🙃 Whatever it takes to make my baby better....
 
I am so sleepy and tired today, every time I go to sleep I have some crazy dream and I wake up feeling so sleepy I can barely stay awake. I'm supposed to have a virtual college finance meeting in an hour and I keep dreaming that I'll miss it or fall asleep during it 😭

I guess I need to just get up out of bed for now 🥲
 
Been super sick for a week and a half. This morning it got to a point where I couldn’t keep even liquids from going straight through me and I was extremely dehydrated and am still super congested. I went to the ER cause I was feeling very dizzy and unwell this morning, my blood pressure and heart rate were really high. It’s some kind of viral thing they said. They treated me there and gave me a prescription to take too. Still feel pretty freaking bad but at least I’m able to drink liquids now. Hoping this clears up soon cause it’s been a miserable week and a half. My sister is also in the hospital now with noro virus.
 
Its genuinely terrifying when Trump makes a post about invading Canada to make it a state, and the comment section is agreeing, saying America needs to conquest.

What is happening to the world?

I agree it is terrifying. The fact that he also wants Greenland is also terrifying. I wish I knew what was happening with the world but we really need to leave others alone. They don’t want to be part of us.
 
Getting left on read mid-text conversation is always fun. Especially when they're just after saying that one of your friends is being texted by an adult with untoward intentions 🫥
 
I agree it is terrifying. The fact that he also wants Greenland is also terrifying. I wish I knew what was happening with the world but we really need to leave others alone. They don’t want to be part of us.

Yeah, when the leader of a world superpower and his closest friends are writing stuff like this:

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It's not even a matter of politics. That's uncomfortable to those who just want to get through each day peacefully without the world gong up in flames.

(I'll leave it at this. I don't want to flood the thread with these kinds of posts). I was just upset with how lightly the idea of invasion is being thrown around.
 
I am so sleepy and tired today, every time I go to sleep I have some crazy dream and I wake up feeling so sleepy I can barely stay awake. I'm supposed to have a virtual college finance meeting in an hour and I keep dreaming that I'll miss it or fall asleep during it 😭

I guess I need to just get up out of bed for now 🥲
saw the doctor about this issue, and I'm learning more toward the idea that I might have narcolepsy. I'm gonna try to do a few things this week to help my sleep, including going to sleep and waking up at the same time every day, and also starting to decompress and remove negative/intrusive thoughts from my mind about half an hour before I go to bed. I'm also probably gonna invest in a light therapy lamp (since it's now been recommended by both my PCP and psychiatrist). but yeah, after he told me some symptoms of narcolepsy (including falling into a deep sleep right after falling asleep, which I literally do almost every night and especially last night), I'm thinking that's it. will have to do a sleep study lab to diagnose it so that's kinda fuuuuun 🥲

and yes, I'm still sleepy. still want to plop down and go to sleep right now. I'm fighting to stay awake though. 😔
 
My doctor does not listen to my concerns about POTS. Like… erm. Thank you for trying to rule out other things before we get into anything else, that makes me happy; but… I’ve been complaining about almost every single freaking symptom of POTS for years with this doctor. I know my body better than anyone, because it is MINE.. But.. he just doesn’t get it 🫠

I just want to know what’s wrong with me. Although, I will say— the foot hurting issue, is because I apparently have ‘flexible flat feet’, and need orthotic insoles. However, he wants to do bloodwork for all these specific tests and stuff before we do anything else lmao. Rheumatoid arthritis, anemia, etc. Sigh.

I was originally content with my appointment overall; until I remembered something I had said to him. And his reply made me facepalm in the back of my head. I was complaining about how my blood pressure changes drastically whenever I transition from laying -> sitting. Sitting -> standing. When I sit up after laying down, it skyrockets. If I stand for too long without sitting, it plummets. His response? ‘Oh, I think that’s pretty normal.’ WHAT?

Anyways.. I just hope we’re getting somewhere. Remembering that part of our discussion made me feel very discouraged. He has blown off my sinus issues for several years, telling me it’s just allergies and that I’m fine. So.. idk. I’m just :’)
 
twitter is such a draining app these days. I opened it now only to find really bad takes and people posting their opinions with zero context even when asked by multiple people. I just go on the app to interact with some friends, gush about my favorite franchises, and share pretty fanart. Anyway lol I existed the app immediately after seeing so many bad opinions, people on there need to unclench their jaws 😭
 
I was originally content with my appointment overall; until I remembered something I had said to him. And his reply made me facepalm in the back of my head. I was complaining about how my blood pressure changes drastically whenever I transition from laying -> sitting. Sitting -> standing. When I sit up after laying down, it skyrockets. If I stand for too long without sitting, it plummets. His response? ‘Oh, I think that’s pretty normal.’ WHAT?
that's literally a symptom of POTS lol, my mum lives with it and she can definitely feel a difference when she goes from sitting to standing, or standing to lying down. that's not normal at all. I'm sorry you're dealing with this.
 
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