I know this was yesterday, but I just wanted to say that a LOT of your posts have made deep impressions on me, whether you meant to or not. I can relate to you on a lot of things, especially with feeling bland and uninteresting and not having friendships or connections in-real-life. I only have two friends left, one of them is out-of-state and I never get to spend time with him anymore because of it, and the other only ever wants to go to sports games. A lot of other friendships I've had have petered out over time.
I just wanted to say I feel your pain and can understand it, and it makes me more sad than I already was as of writing this. I sat here crying for the past 10-15 minutes, and then started up again after reading your post again.
Believe me when I say you are absolutely not worthless. Just from reading your posts I can sense that you have a great sense of humor, you're good at expressing yourself, and you always have interesting things to talk about. If I was anywhere near where you live I wouldn't mind being your friend at all. You seem like an amazing person and I think it'll just take the right people to notice that in order for you to have new friendships/connections. In the meantime I just hope you're able to have more peace of mind in general. Thank you for being you.
(I know this seems like a really unprompted response, but I felt like I had to say something. Take it or leave it)