What's Bothering You?

I'm in the worst part of my winter so far. It's going to ruin my sleep schedule. I am too exhausted to explain it.
My mom also just came in and was being very frustrating about everything. I wish she didn't even talk to me... I got so annoyed I didn't even try to argue when she said something false about the weather. I just wanted her to go away.

I'm also feeling disconnected from something... Eh.
 
I really wanna restart my island but i wanna save my kaiju money and robot and i guess no one can help
 
My boys are booked in for their neuter tomorrow and I'm nervous. 😬

I think it's because this was unplanned! I was hoping to do this the last Friday in February, but when I contacted them to ask how early I should call to get them booked in they said, "we've space tomorrow, can you come in today?"

Mad panic trying to find a store we could get a second cat carrier local today. My partner ended up going to get it because I just couldn't fit it into my schedule around work and their appointment. Thankfully my boss kindly let me have tomorrow off to get their surgeries done - he was very understanding.

They had their pre-op check-up an hour ago and they are all good to go. The only concern the vet had was that Sebastian's testes are underdeveloped - but we were already planning to remove them tomorrow so that'll soon be a non-issue.

They're going to hate me tomorrow because they aren't allowed breakfast and I've had to turn off their automatic feeder so no 2am snack like they're used to. Last meal is 11:30pm, leaving for the vet at 7:30am.

I know they'll be fine but I'm just on edge. They're my babies! 🐈‍⬛🐈
 
Following AI developments from articles, books, and using them a bit myself over the last several months has made me so terrified for the future.

I don’t think we’re getting “AGI” or “sentience” by 2028 like all the tech CEOs claim, but I do think this technology will continue to rapidly improve and little good will come out of it.

The internet will continue to get worse from bots and AI generated content infesting everything, a lot of jobs are going to be replaced, misinformation and scams are about to become a lot worse, and reading comprehension is about to become less common since a lot of people will just have AI turn everything into bullet points for them.

In just four months Nvidia will release a $3000 PC for the general public with LLMs built into it. We are officially entering the 1970s in terms of AI adoption. Who knows what will happen once these computers become cheaper? Token limits will be a thing of the past. This horrifying technology will be everywhere and it feels like most people don’t see what’s coming.
 
I just sent a lengthy email to my therapist explaining how worthless I feel. I never try to attract attention, but I've become such a bland and uninteresting being that it's resulted in my friends leaving me and my talents mostly going unnoticed. Like, I want to try and make cool things, but the few times I share always results in disappointment feedback-wise. I don't view external positivity the same anymore. It doesn't really make me feel better. Nowadays, it takes a lot of effort and motivation to get a genuine positive emotion out of me. I don't know who or what to blame. It's caused me to end up in an endless anxiety circle where I'm told to take the first step and do something about it, but a random negative thought will always cause me to chicken out. Every. Single. Time.

Why do I always feel like no one is giving me actual, helpful advice on how I can meet new friends? I'm literally by myself at this point. It's essentially me against the world, and everyone wants me to suffer. It doesn't help that I keep hearing about society slowly descending into madness, so who knows if there's anyone left that shows genuine sympathy for my problems. Everyone only cares about themselves, and it really does show with my lack of friends and relationships. It sucks.
 
Super annoyed right now and not going to be able to get sleep anytime soon because of my sensitivity to smoke. My parents had a fire in the backyard (because they love doing that for some reason) and the half of the house where my bedroom is strongly smells like fire. My throat has been sore for hours. It could possibly take all day for the house to air out. I was already struggling with sleep and this is the last thing I should have to deal with. I am sick of living in this stupid house.
 
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