What's Bothering You?

[Chris]

I'm still on edge from yesterday. Not sure why. I know my kittens are fine - they're recovering extremely well with no side effects from the anaesthesia. I brought them home 25hrs ago.

Yet I'm still so tense and have no appetite. Can't settle or concentrate on anything. So drained but can't relax or nap.

 

[Croconaw]

Spoiler: …

These thoughts that I’m a bad person keep coming back. I talked about a store I used to work at being robbed on my shift. Someone in a YouTube comment told me that bad things don’t happen to good people. I’ve also done something in the past I’m not happy about and that’s still in the back of my mind. I know that some others think I’m not a good person.

Being thought of as a bad person by other people isn’t a good thing.

 

[boring]

Spoiler

I know this is a silly little one that will never happen but I wish so badly I could delete my old posts on here. Like yeah sure I can snip them and remove the og message or whatever but its not the effect Im looking for. I want that stuff gone forever I dont ever want to remember that time in my life I want it to be like I was never here at all. Times were very difficult and sometimes I avoid logging on because theres no way for me to completely ignore that I used this website frequently while I was sick/in bad circumstances. I deleted all my old accounts from back in the day on other platforms and the platforms that didn't let me make new accounts I just quit, but TBT is the one site I held out for lol.
I've been through all of my old posts a million times and removed a number of them that make me uncomfortable but so long as I cant just delete everything from like.... pre 2020 time I frustratingly cannot get over the anxiety of it all. What a silly problem to be so deeply upset over. I guess I just cant get past the fact that Im not who I was 4 years ago and I dont ever ever ever ever want to go back or think about it or remember it in the slightest. I will do everything I can to forget what happened before I turned 18 and I think Im gonna continue that right this second and look through my posts again to remove even more stuff. Perhaps one day I wont care? Though I actually think I'd quit TBT before I stop caring.

Edit: It's a MUCH worse feeling when I see something I'd rather delete and I can't because the threads old and locked or whatever. Yeah sorry let me just go scream rq

 

[Dim]

Slept like crap. Still going on with my 15 hour car ride down to New Orleans and lemme tell you... it's killing my back.

 

[daringred_]

really paranoid there's going to be a house fire... our socket breaker tripped and flashed amber when turned back on, which apparently means an arc was detected. my mom pressed the button, and it went red again, but i don't know if that means we're safe and/or if the problem is fixed? i'm also not sure if the breaker will trip again and stop a fire if there's another arc. we can't get an electrician out until monday, apparently, so now i'm stressed. a house fire is literally one of my worst fears ><

 

[rrenaa]

Just woke up with a pounding headache
I hate them, ruins my whole day. Hopefully a matcha latte will make me feel better

 

[Giddy]

As much as I am doing a page of art each day, I should really bring that kinda mindset to creative writing, that's where I've been lacking, and I feel terrible not writing things I got planned already.
It being so easier to see in my mind than write on physical paper is a curse.

Post automatically merged: Jan 11, 2025

Also just noticed are Christmas lights are gone ;_;
Funnily enough, my mum says you need to take Christmas stuff down by the 12th otherwise it'd be bad luck.

 

[ILoveAnimalCrossing123]

take Christmas stuff down by the 12th otherwise it'd be bad luck.

What do you mean?

 

[rrenaa]

I wish I knew what to say or how to comfort someone especially my family. My dad was telling me about some struggles we might have to face soon and I don’t even know what to say!! My sister is better at these things than me so hopefully we can have a better conversation later.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

always sucks when I feel unwell after I eat I guess I'll go lie down for a bit, hopefully this feeling goes away soon.

Also just noticed are Christmas lights are gone ;_;
Funnily enough, my mum says you need to take Christmas stuff down by the 12th otherwise it'd be bad luck.

I like when people keep their lights up all winter. taking down Christmas decorations is one thing, but lights don't inherently mean "holidays" to me. I see it as a nice way to brighten up an otherwise cold and somewhat dreary time of year.

edit: I just realized that I didn't copy the messages on the lights that I got this holiday that's why I don't really like sending lights on here, they're temporary and those messages will disappear. I prefer to leave messages on profiles or elsewhere, where they won't disappear.

 

[kokone kizuki]

Wish I could go like five minutes in a conversation with my parents without starting to cry for no reason like this isn’t even that bad of a day I hate it here

 

[Giddy]

What do you mean?

I believe it's an old superstition. Actully, researching it, it's not entierly old. More modern. Probably the belief that people think bad luck will fall in the new year if you keep up Christmas decorations.

I thought it was old, but from my research, in medival England times it was normal to keep deocrations up until Candlemas which is on Feb 2. Cendlemad is just a lil celebration to end of Christmas, celebrated with candlit processions and the blessings of candles for the coming year.
They also believed that if you kept the decorations up after Candlemas eve, they will be possessed by goblins.

Post automatically merged: Jan 12, 2025

always sucks when I feel unwell after I eat I guess I'll go lie down for a bit, hopefully this feeling goes away soon.



I like when people keep their lights up all winter. taking down Christmas decorations is one thing, but lights don't inherently mean "holidays" to me. I see it as a nice way to brighten up an otherwise cold and somewhat dreary time of year.

edit: I just realized that I didn't copy the messages on the lights that I got this holiday that's why I don't really like sending lights on here, they're temporary and those messages will disappear. I prefer to leave messages on profiles or elsewhere, where they won't disappear.

Hope you feel better soon!

And I know what you mean for real Christmas decorations and our tbt christmas lights!
I do feel sad they disappear, but I do like that it's a sweet sentiment, I think the only thing people could do is make a screenshot of the messages to save for later?

 

[Chris]

edit: I just realized that I didn't copy the messages on the lights that I got this holiday that's why I don't really like sending lights on here, they're temporary and those messages will disappear. I prefer to leave messages on profiles or elsewhere, where they won't disappear.

These collectibles are just hidden for now. The 2024 Christmas Lights will return next December, with the messages in-tact.

 

[themysterybidder]

I feel so fed up and unmotivated. For example, I set up my Wii a few weeks ago with the intention to play. However, I go and get a game and then think 'No, I'm not going to bother.' Then, I'll literally just waste my time. I hate feeling like this, I wish I could snap out of it.

 

[michealsmells]

The inability of people to talk through issues without mudslinging or bringing up things that are not relevant.

And people being unable to take criticism. You did something wrong, own up to it. Someone else's actions does not stop you from facing consequences of your own actions.

Those are just pet peeves in general that I'm thinking about, luckily not anything I'm dealing with currently. Whats currently bothering me? I do not like myself. I really gotta get back on my medications cause I always stop them when I'm sick and by golly I was sick. I know full well it's the mental illness, but that doesn't mean the feelings aren't there.

 

[azurill]

That was a terrifying start to the day . My tire had a problem on the way to work thankfully made it back home but now feeling stupid that it scared me as much as it did and now just want to cry. the tire looks so bad. Thankful my mom let me borrow her car to get to work so I’m not late.

 

[-Raven-]

No responses please, might be brushing on politics but I don’t want a political discussion.

Spoiler

I think the “under 16s social media ban” here is a complete racket and garbage and one server I’m in actually *likes* it. Internally facepalming. It’s broad enough to cover YouTube and potentially gaming platforms. Imagine being banned from Minecraft as a kid because you aren’t allowed a Microsoft account. If I didn’t have the internet growing up then I would be a complete nonce. I saw many things I should not have and barely avpided creeps (been on places that had multiple outed creeps) but a ban would have just ruined me. I needed help from my parents and not prohibition, this is just an excuse for parents to be irresponsible and say things are solved at a micro level and just a front for the government here to further de-anonymise internet on a macro level.

I want out of this place. For all the issues with the US if it treats me better maybe I’ll just end up green carding there lol. I can see it eventually ending up similar in most places but honestly I think my country is an embarassment and we’re a mini America in some ways. We’re losing the middle class like everyone else, we’re continuing to lose availability, we’re getting more bigotry and we have the same brand of apathy and just discuss other countries with no real point instead of looking at our own issues. Only hangup for me is on safety and medicare (but they’re doing their best to break that anyway, and many places here will get you shanked). It’s not like I’m free to present as trans here. And it’s expensive to move countries but it’s already expensive for me to marry and where is it not expensive to live anymore tbh.

Trying to think about my future when I don’t even feel like I belong in this country. Wow.

I’m sorry because I usually don’t let this kind of post out anywhere but that ban is a topic I’m way too angry about. The issue was never I had bad moments but my parents weren’t there for me when I did, they instead put their issues on me, it’s textbook trauma. Look how I was affected by how I grew up and then all this bogeymanning, how my parents basically got off scott-free for how badly they neglected me and wow oh wow I really don’t want to say more so I’ll shut now…

In general actually… that server has had a weird amount of political posts in the last couple months despite it being against their rules and I’m real sick of it by now. No I don’t want to be looking at funny bandicoot game hangout I liked being part of to get flashbanged by that

 

[Seastar]

I've been so stressed because of the weather. I wish I lived somewhere else...

 

[Halloqueen]

Had one of those nights where you barely get any quality sleep last night so just kinda dragging today.

Bleh.

At least it's Sunday.

 

[VernalLapin]

There is an absolutely horrible commercial on lately. my most despised commercial ever. Everything about it. I’ve only encountered a few seconds of it, but it takes off a decade of my life every time.