I’ve been a bit down lately and still am bothered by a few things that have been troubling me for a few months at least. Can’t really talk about it though. I’m feeling conflicted about how I feel on one of the things.
So far I haven’t been triggered by the mention of valentine’s day much, but tomorrow I have to go grocery shopping (today there was a change in plans) and I’m dreading it partly because of all the valentine stuff. I never liked the “holiday” but the last few years around this time has been really difficult because of something that has been hurting me.
I feel bad I haven’t finished a drawing yet and been able to give something in return to everyone that has given me a drawing. I think I might be in a sort of art block while also my focus being away from art hasn’t helped either. I really feel bad since I’m still incredibly grateful and touched by the thought and kindness behind each of them. If there is an art portion to the upcoming events, I’m worried about participating as silly as that sounds since I should be prioritizing the first drawing I started after Christmas. I do think though if there is an art portion, it might help push me back into the art mode, if I participate
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Overall, I’ve been okay and not bad; doing better enough to post again a bit and a bit better in some ways being back here.
