What's Bothering You?

Im making a spotify playlist about how my mum hates me it
Its a lot of sad songs that sound almost.. defeated. I figure if she wont listen to my crying for help and if I feel like I cant truly express how she makes me feel then I would make this playlist.
Its cathartic but I keep crying over the songs.
 
Hospice says my mom has days left. We had to transfer her to a facility. We only expected to have her there for a few days while they stabilize her pain and anxiety. Now it turned into keeping her sedated so she doesn't stress herself out or have too much pain. They think the cancer moved to her brain. She can hear us but is sleeping otherwise. I can't stand this pain. I'm thankful she's pain free, but I want my mom. She can't leave me now.....

At least the last thing she told me was that she loved me always and forever.
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I’m so so sorry that you’re going through this. I just lost my mom to cancer recently and everything you described, I experienced. It is so incredibly painful to see someone you love hurting and slowly fading. Just know that she is not suffering anymore. That’s all that is getting me through. Cancer is the absolute worst evil. I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy.

Feel free to reach out if you need to talk. Sending you love and strength! ā¤ļø
 
This week's an absolute drag and I can't wait for it to be over, and going on dealing with ****ty relatives who doesn't get that it's still covid-19 going on doesn't make it better.
 
Hospice says my mom has days left. We had to transfer her to a facility. We only expected to have her there for a few days while they stabilize her pain and anxiety. Now it turned into keeping her sedated so she doesn't stress herself out or have too much pain. They think the cancer moved to her brain. She can hear us but is sleeping otherwise. I can't stand this pain. I'm thankful she's pain free, but I want my mom. She can't leave me now.....

At least the last thing she told me was that she loved me always and forever.
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awh im so sorry, I can't even imagine your pain šŸ˜ž I don't have any advice but I'll be keeping you in my thoughts.




I can't believe how long the tutorial mode in ACNH lasts, I'm just trying to get to a point where I have an open plot for a villager to move in and it's taking foreeeveerrrrrr
 
I've managed to catch my first cold in over two years despite sticking to all the rules that seem to longer exist to the majority of the people around me and I have to say I feel pretty annoyed about it. So thanks to everyone who thinks the pandemic is over and especially to those who won't wear a mask anymore, sanitise their hands regularly or just thinks social distancing is more of a hinderance than help to everyone else. I hope you all have a lovely germ free winter... not. šŸ™„
 
I've managed to catch my first cold in over two years despite sticking to all the rules that seem to longer exist to the majority of the people around me and I have to say I feel pretty annoyed about it. So thanks to everyone who thinks the pandemic is over and especially to those who won't wear a mask anymore, sanitise their hands regularly or just thinks social distancing is more of a hinderance than help to everyone else. I hope you all have a lovely germ free winter... not. šŸ™„
Same here, I've been sick for the past 2 days and I haven't been sick in years. Even without Covid being around, I generally just don't get sick. I know we all want it to be over, but that doesn't mean it is. I wish people would realize that. I hope you feel better soon. šŸ’ž soup and tea really helped me.
 
My left wrist/hand has been bothering me to varying degrees for a week and a bit, and now my right wrist/hand has begun to do the same, so, uh, welp. Wouldn't be so bad if I could see a doctor right away, but I have to wait almost a week to see one so I just have to grin and bear it for now. At least having an upcoming 4 day weekend means I can rest both of them.
 
I thought the lady who moved out across the street abandoned her old cat, but turns out she's living in her van 2 streets over. Her cat is outdoors 24/7 but I put found out for it so at least it has daily meals. I feel really bad for them cause winter is coming and it's already freezing out. Both her and her cat have no where to escape the cold. Hopefully they can find somewhere to live soon.
 
Went to gamestop for a shiny Zacian event code but their already out. And I don't own Sword for the next event :[
 
My mom lost her fight with cancer this morning. She died and a part of me did too. I just want to wake up and it all be a nightmare.
 
I just paid $9.25 for a very small pizza and a can of Dr. Pepper. It’s amazing how much people are willing to pay when they’re hungry. Hell, the can was $2.50. You can get a whole pack for less than double that. I mean, it was good so I’m not complaining, but damn train food is a lot.
 
I feel and remember almost nothing. Im very drained, and just feel lost. I want to find my way again but feel angry at my past that led me here. I don't want any more regrets and bad luck and controlling *******s. I want it to be ok to just be me.
 
omg i just spent forever wishing on stars and i tted forward one week and i didnt get any. my li9fe is over
 
It’s only Tuesday and I’m already over this week. I’m sick of people asking me how I’m doing and lying to them that I’m doing well. Next time someone asks I’m just not going to respond.
 
God I hate dealing with one of the banks, their mobile app isn’t letting me sign in and I need to withdraw some cash. I’ve been trying to sign in for a week now and it keeps telling me to ā€œtry again laterā€. I’ve been trying to reach my local branch but for some reason I can’t connect at all to their landline. Called customer service instead and they have this 1-minute recorded introduction about the bank that I can’t skip. I had to listen to the whole spiel twice since I disconnected during the first call. Ugh.
 
People on the train are snoring. You’d think the masks would muffle the sound. Damn the guy behind me is super loud. I feel bad because he’s really nice.
 
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