What's Bothering You?

Sometimes I can’t help but feel like I’ll be alone for the rest of my life. Every person I’ve been interested in either didn’t reciprocate my feelings or ended up being toxic (and later change their mind on me). Whenever I see the marriage rate for people on the autism spectrum I feel disheartened. It’s especially hard irl since I tend to exhibit closed body language. I definitely don’t want to force anything, but that existential fear still seeps in from time to time.
 
oh love, i am so so sorry. i know there’s nothing i can say or do that will make this better for you, but my pms are always open if you ever need to talk or vent. i may not be able to help or take the grief away, but i’d be happy to listen. ❤️
 
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Kinda bothersome migraine and a cold, at least its better than having sore throat and covid
 
funny how I have a lot of empathy yet I've no clue how to make anyone feel even remotely better, I always end up feeling awkward and like I'm intruding on their personal space 🤷


also been doing a lot of relaxing this week since by Saturday night i was completely burned out, but there's still a voice looming in my head constantly telling me that I'm lazy and I'm a slacker and that if I'm not working hard at my internship then they're gonna believe that too. makes me feel pretty worthless tbh. doesn't help that my dad constantly complains about me not cleaning (fyi he never cleans so wtf), like I'm not literally beating myself up every single day for not cleaning when I'm totally burned out 😭😭
 
This cold has really knocked me sideways, I haven't felt this ill in years although I'm grateful that I tested negative for COVID which of course I don't want nor would I wish on anyone else. Either way though being ill from a nasty common cold just sucks. 🤧
 
I’ve been trying to take better care of myself, I’ve been going to bed earlier, drinking more water, taking my vitamins etc, but I still feel tired. I’m wearing the sweater I slept in last night and I just don’t care. I think the tiredness is just coming from a place that can’t be reached with R&R.
 
So many people are leaving my job and it's making me really nervous about what's going to happen. I just found out today my other team lead is leaving as well. So now both team leads are leaving and they don't have anyone picked yet. I just wanted to enjoy the holidays without stress and here we are again...
 
Literally just got called "oversensitive" by a coworker for asking "what?" like wtf????
 
Go ahead. Keep yelling and gettin mad and snippy at me for things that are out of my control or not my fault. Keep throwing and slamming things and havin a tone in your voice. See if I'll make it to Christmas before I quit.

I'm tired, I'm gettin mad and I'm not letting myself get that low in my life again like what happened with my old job.
 
my MH is battering me at the minute. I have no motivation to do anything and I want to sleep all the time. The worst part is I want to cry but my anti depressants won’t let me lol
 
have a doctors appointment tomorrow, and i'm bricking it. aside from not having been in a year, this is a new practice and a new GP. so nervous about it that i feel sick rip ><
 
I had my booster shot yesterday and now i feel really sick; didn’t start feeling sick until late last night. also had trouble sleeping this morning since i had to turn my white noise machine since it frightened the calico who was sleeping on my room last night (it was worth it for her though). Going back to sleep now; I hope I’ll feel better soon.
 
I don't usually post on here for myself, but I've had a cold for the past 4 days for the first time in years and it is ROUGH. I'm achy and congested and I've been taking naps, which I don't normally do. It's put me behind on a lot of thing I want to get done this week. I felt markedly better on the 2nd or 3rd day of it and overdid myself and now I'm back to feeling awful.
 
I really want to use NMTs to hunt for Sasha but I already mistakenly allowed 10 villagers on my island and none of them will ask to move out, and since I dont have his amiibo i just have to keep time traveling til someone asks to move 😒
 
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