What's Bothering You?

[.: Meri :.]

Minor gripes again but this morning is not going super well. So we have a water leak and turn off the water—the plumber won't be here until mid-afternoon, but there's still a bit of water left in the pipes, so as long as we conserve it we should be fine. I still need to wash my face, but thankfully, my face cleanser has instructions for washing without water. Basically you just massage it in, remove the excess, and leave a thin film on your face. Sounds great!
All's well and good until a few minutes later, when I noticed my face felt... oddly warm. I checked in the mirror and my skin had turned bright pink all over. So I had to use the remaining water to rinse it off ASAP. My face has still not gone back to its normal color.*

*Worth noting that my skin is dumb and reacts to basically everything. I'll be fine and the cleanser is probably also fine for anyone else's skin.

update: my face has finally calmed down let's goooo

 

[Yoshi155]

I was going to put this in random thoughts but the more I typed the more I thought it belonged here.

Spoiler: Siiiigh

In reading class we were having a conversation that made me start to feel really self conscious. We had to get into groups and communicate with each other about the book we're reading, but of course my group decided to start asking each other what their favorite anime is. I just put my head down, because even though one of them is my friend I still couldn't take it. Then my teacher said we had to talk about things about the book, so when she left they said I should participate more and instead asked me what I do in my free time because I said I don't watch anime. I said I just watch TV and use my phone and I didn't specify exactly what it is I do on it because I didn't feel like getting flamed for saying what I actually do on my phone. Then one of them asked if I talk to friends or anything and I said my parents are really strict about stuff like that and how sometimes I even have to do work when we don't get work at school. Then they asked what video games I play, and I said I don't play M rated games and said it's because my parents wouldn't let me (not entirely true since I've never even asked but I'd just assume so). They just mostly felt bad for me which made me start to think about how my parents are way too strict. A teacher said that it's a good thing and I'd be thankful in 30 years, but I really don't see how I could possibly ever be grateful that this much time of my day was spent on school work even though I'm already smarter than most of my grade and I'm sure other people in my grade who are also smart don't have strict parents and rusndhowsbwiabwoandowsbwobs

I think the worst part about the entire thing is that I feel embarrassed to say that I like Nintendo, specifically Animal Crossing. It's kind of sad that this is even an issue, but in the bright side, at least people almost never ask me about what my favorite video games are.

 

[Midoriya]

Feeling depressed and blue. I hate this world. It's garbage.

 

[themysterybidder]

I think the worst part about the entire thing is that I feel embarrassed to say that I like Nintendo, specifically Animal Crossing. It's kind of sad that this is even an issue, but in the bright side, at least people almost never ask me about what my favorite video games are.

You should never feel embarrassed to tell people what you enjoy. That is what makes you individual and unique to everyone else. I've experienced this when I was at school. Most of my friends liked what was classed as 'popular' and I liked, well a lot of things when I said to them I got 'What?' or 'Who?' and when they told me what they liked, I would be the same! Whereas, the teachers would know what I was talking about! I've found at times people can exaggerate about what their parents let them watch or play, just so they can try and act cool!

-Snip-

If you want to talk at anytime, my DMs are open.

 

[-Apples-]

Feeling depressed and blue. I hate this world. It's garbage.

What happened?

 

[VernalLapin]

@Midoriya i wish you the best and I hope you feel better.

 

[VanitasFan26]

My parents are getting to an age where they becoming so forgetful. I have to always be the one reminding them important stuff but they keep on misunderstanding what I am saying. Even when I am trying to be crystal clear they still have a hard time understanding me. I know everyone in my family keeps saying "Keep taking care of them" but its taking a toll on me. Even though I want to focus on my own thing they find ways to make it difficult for me. Even when I am trying to tell them to do the right thing they don't want to listen.

 

[Stella-Io]

Same seller who hasn't sent out my package now has their shop closed. Hm, suspicious suspicious with the new negative reviews too complaining of packages not being sent or items missing. They have thousands of sales to, this seems to only be a recent thing.

I submitted a request for a refund but I think I'm just gonna open a case with Etsy now, thou idk how. This is gettin more and more ridiculous.

I've never had a problem with sellers before and this one didn't even seem scammy. Lots of sales and positive reviews.

Edit: I can't find an option to open a case and all the help pages keep coming up with an error. Pretty sure I got scammed and that I'm not gettin my money back.

 

[Zane]

There’s no answer to these questions that can ever give me closure or help me move on. I know if I ever want to be happy again I have to find a way to live with that, but I still just WISH there was something that could be said to make it all make sense. Make it go away.

 

[JellyLu]

Spoiler: Tw: hospital doctor stuff

My dad went to the doctor for stomach pain and vomiting bile. She said he was backed up and suggested going to the hospital. He went today and they found a tumor in his small intestine causing bowel obstruction. It's small but it came out of nowhere and now he's suddenly having surgery tomorrow.....

I just lost my mom in 2021 to cancer. If this comes back as cancerous....I don't even want to think about it.

I'm just so scared. I hope it's nothing. I need my dad.

 

[Yoshi155]

I was really excited to go on a field trip, but I can't go because apparently I never turned in the permission slip even though I did, and they can't make any further changes to the list. I was so excited that I was even going to post about it in "What are you happy about today". But now it's not going to happen and now I'm not happy about anything today. The best part is that I didn't pack anything I would normally use today so I don't even know what I'm going to do in class. Fun.

 

[Autumn_Leaves]

I have not been here for a while but feel like venting. I am feeling bad mentally and physically but then I always do. I haven't been to school at all this week because of how unmotivated I am. Also because I am disappointed in a paper I wrote. I could have done so much better. I am also really upset because someone snapped at me at work and I am too sensitive for that. Work is stressful and I am so exhausted. I am just going to keep to myself so I don't make anyone else mad at me. I just feel like giving up sometimes. So tired. I hope things can start looking up for everyone who has posted here.

 

[kisaker39]

i played Taiko no Tatsujin for so long my wrist is in throbbing pain and i had to take painkillers...

 

[oddbear]

i think the friend i was talking about told me to quit school and is now trying to deny it..?
i've gotten a little bit behind in school because i've been having a hard time lately, and he just wants to roleplay all the time. he wants to roleplay from 8:30 a.m. to 8:00 p.m. if i don't respond because i just don't have the energy to try and say that i need to be left alone, he will text me nonstop. he told me recently that he has separation anxiety, so i feel really REALLY bad for ignoring him now.

today i told him that i needed to focus on schoolwork, and he said to me "you should have stopped school when you left (old school name)" (context: i met him at in-person school but switched to online because my mental health was getting really bad).
he is trying to say that he meant it like "if the school you're at is transphobic/homophobic, you should leave that school", but i never said that my school was offensive to him once. honestly, i don't know how you would take it as anything other than "you should have quit school so we can roleplay 24-7." i should quit school, never get the job i want, never be able to live by myself, and ruin my future... just so i can be available to roleplay whenever you want? i've already been struggling, but that makes it so much worse.

 

[azurill]

Not feeling well today and so tired. The panic attack this morning only made things worse. At least I’m no longer feeling lightheaded. Only 4 more hours of work until I can go home.

 

[pottercrossing]

So there's a pretty high chance that I have strep throat... great. And it's that time of the month as well, so that just makes things worse.



I'm fine...

 

[themysterybidder]

Before I go on, I have to say I have been on a few forums in my life, but never felt comfortable enough to share on any of them apart from here.

Spoiler: Feeling sad, might delete later.

Today, (September 30) is a year since my beautiful Mum suffered a stroke and left the house by ambulance never to return. Never did I imagine when she left she wouldn't have came back. I thought there would be a lot of recovery time, but I would have never predicted that. It still feels like yesterday and I keep thinking about those moments sitting with her for countless hours in the hospital for 6 days until she passed. I hate to think of her like that and I know she would hate to be remembered like that. I still think of that late night sitting talking to her and her suffering a fit.

Over the past year I've really learnt who are true friends and family after knowing them for years. I don't expect the world to stop for anyone, but most people, who have known me for years - I must stress nobody on here, everyone has been and still is amazing, especially @S.J. and @-Blue- , you have helped me in so many ways (I will never know, how you put up with me!) - after a few weeks dismissed my grief and basically said: 'It's a way of life, it's worse when it's when your husband or wife.' or 'You're lucky you had a Mum, many don't or have passed younger.' I know I was extremely lucky to have her, but it doesn't make it any easier, and what gives anyone the right to dismiss someone else's grief as not being just as important? Whether it's a pet, child, spouse, sibling, friend, parent, all grief matters and every loss is just as important as another. If someone is better at coping with grief than someone else, I wouldn't think 'Oh well, they couldn't have been bothered by their loss.' Of course not, as everyone copes differently. I still tell her I love her everyday and kiss her photo.

I know it probably sounds crazy, but I still send text messages to her on special occasions and sometimes talk about her in present tense, only to my Dad and some members on here, as he feels the same that she is still here. Most others think I am mad, 'Oh she's gone and that's that.' I can't help it, I'm still heartbroken and if I'm honest, it isn't any easier. It's just trying to live life in a different way.

I still think her own brother feels guilty as he had an argument with her on Christmas Day 2019, and then on her birthday 2020. He had fallen out with her before and he always phoned/texted to apologise as he does know he can over react and he knew how much it stressed he out. He never even phoned or texted after that argument and my Mum had, had enough and basically said even though she was upset, that she couldn't put herself through anymore stress with him. It wasn't even anything to do with her, it was my own brother told her to tell her brother not to text or email things on certain subjects. Not even during Covid, did he ask once if she was ok, knowing that she had a weakened immune system.

I would definitely say I'm in a better place than last year, but nothing feels quite the same, even as much as I love Blossie, how much she makes me smile and helps me each day, there still feels like a part of my heart has been ripped out and will never be repaired. I know it will happen one day, but I am dreading the day anything happens to my Dad, as he is the only family member I have left that I truly care about and can talk to about anything. Maybe this is selfish, but I keep thinking of all the cruel people in the world who have done terrible things and they continue to live, but my Mum who never harmed a fly had to be taken so suddenly. I keep asking myself, did I miss any signs days before? If the ambulance had arrived quicker? Everyday there are still tears in my eyes and special occasions are even more difficult. This is her favourite time of year with Strictly Come Dancing starting in the UK and it would always be Christmas talk and looking at the gifts online. I could go on and on, I probably write more here in the coming days. I hope Blossom is in a cuddling mood today, as I don't think anything will distract me today. Going to play some ACNH later and see Kidd, as she loved ACNH and Kidd was her favourite.

 

[S.J.]

-snip-

DM incoming

 

[jiny]

annoyed bc i ordered some bracelets from a tiktok small business idk, in july and i still haven’t received them.. it is so annoying because she makes tiktok’s of packing orders that have only recently been placed instead of focusing on getting out the orders that have been months (im not the only one who’s experiencing delays in their order), i wish i had seen the tiktok’s of people talking about their similar experiences sooner, because then i never would’ve ordered but me i am such an impulse buyer (bad habit)!

i’ve commented on multiple of her tiktok’s where she replies to almost everyone except me , i’ve emailed her, dmed her on instagram, idk what else to do, she just ignores me and mostly other people who’ve had their order since months ago and have yet to receive theirs. idk it’s so frustrating and conveniently she has a no refund policy!!!

 

[Zerous]

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