What's Bothering You?
- Thread starter Oblivia
- Start date
You know what just gets me with trying to socialise… people who you only get to hang out with if you’re doing THEIR thing. You bring up your thing and you’re lucky to get an hour, they never will on their own. This isn’t my universal experience, but hell man, it’s been too common.
Kinda sucks when everything I like is niche. Never seem good at proselytising (tongue-in-cheek) and hanging out in spaces for those niches… they don’t seem that social. I might suck at socialising, but I’ve accommodated for people often enough that can’t be all of it.
Not about anyone I met through here… just venting. Looking back and dreading the next time I need to deal with this. rarg.
Kinda sucks when everything I like is niche. Never seem good at proselytising (tongue-in-cheek) and hanging out in spaces for those niches… they don’t seem that social. I might suck at socialising, but I’ve accommodated for people often enough that can’t be all of it.
Not about anyone I met through here… just venting. Looking back and dreading the next time I need to deal with this. rarg.
my workmates are so ****ty i absolutely hate it here, theyre so bad at communicating (e.g. they switched my sched to accommodate someone else WITHOUT TELLING ME so all my plans had to be cancelled today), theyre not present during zoom meetings when they have the bigger role than me (note that one guy is at the BEACH and literally did not tell anyone in the room, not even our seniors/boss, so I had to swoop in and do his work for him bc otherwise they would get mad at us interns), and they dont even know parts of their own job?? my workmate tried gaslighting & guilt tripping me today for calling them out on the sched change without my knowledge/permission (note I was very civil with them) so i just muted and hid their chat away bc i couldnt bother talking to them anymore. they are so bad at receiving criticism for their own faults and deflect the blame to literally anything else and try guilt tripping me to make me feel bad about calling them out. for the guy who was away and at the beach, he's responsible for making our schedule for the next two weeks and we have literally received no news from him. work starts tomorrow and we have absolutely no idea what we are doing because he cant bother to give us a heads up on anything at all. lmao ive had enough of my workmates i hate it here
xSuperMario64x
love of my life 💙💜
I usually read through here (and the Happy thread) to see what everyone is up to, but I dunno. I've been dealing with so much personal reflection lately, and learning to help myself, and trying to work through past trauma caused by manipulation. I understand now that I can't give from an empty bucket, and right now my bucket only has about a cm of water in it. and as much as I want everyone here to feel heard and validated... I'm just struggling to read some of this stuff right now. my heart is raw and this stuff hits me so hard, on top of what I'm dealing with.
I just want you guys to know that you are always loved and cared for by someone here, even if it doesn't seem like it. I'm happy to be part of such a welcoming community. I'm struggling to do my part right now, but I genuinely do care a lot about you guys. I'm just overwhelmed and trying to sort our my own life at the moment. I have faith that you guys will get through this and find your peace someday. you'll be in my heart.
I just want you guys to know that you are always loved and cared for by someone here, even if it doesn't seem like it. I'm happy to be part of such a welcoming community. I'm struggling to do my part right now, but I genuinely do care a lot about you guys. I'm just overwhelmed and trying to sort our my own life at the moment. I have faith that you guys will get through this and find your peace someday. you'll be in my heart.
ZeldaCrossing64
Sugary Cynic
.
Last edited:
I was made redundant today....
2 years and ten months
My mind and head feel so squishy, out of mymind, i wanted to leave there myself and they took that away from me.
Had to give the keys back today too
2 years and ten months
My mind and head feel so squishy, out of mymind, i wanted to leave there myself and they took that away from me.
Had to give the keys back today too
First she telling me the shop failed for bankrupttly, the time my sister posted about their shop online, she told my mum they havent paid their rent in over three years, and they also told me today someone bought the shop from them? wtf
I've had the biggest lump in my throat on and off for the past month. I know it's anxiety related but it feels like a dry pill is stuck in my throat. It's the worst. I keep dry heaving out of no where because of it. I've just been doing a lot for others and I'm tired.
Mr_Keroppi
Senior Member
Edit: I feel alot better after typing, I think I'll take a break and try and be positive instead. I hope all of you are doing better and know you are loved! <3
Last edited:
ribbitribbon
Kappore kappore!
someone i was really close to on another site self-deleted abruptly, and i don’t have any way to contact them. i’m still processing it :’)
Dunquixote
No dms and discord messages
I thought I was feeling a little happier when I went back onto twitter, but I think maybe it was too soon. I’m still hurting and seeing tweets about the genocide made me feel overwhelmed and powerless.
I sent a message to my friend on whatsapp asking him again about his opinion on my screenshots; I’m now nervous to hear back from him. idk why i bother. i’m tired of waiting all the time. i’m tired of being sad and lonely. i know it is dumb but i wish the video game characters I like were real and could be my friend.
I used to feel like i belong on this voice actor’s discord, but even when I was still talking to more people, whenever I said anything, I always felt like i got that awkward silence. on twitch other Va discords i’ve tried or on twitter, when I try to interact and be part of the “community. it, no response from other fans since they’re too busy trying to get the VA’s attention if they’re in the chat. makes me wonder what i’m doing wrong.
I sent a message to my friend on whatsapp asking him again about his opinion on my screenshots; I’m now nervous to hear back from him. idk why i bother. i’m tired of waiting all the time. i’m tired of being sad and lonely. i know it is dumb but i wish the video game characters I like were real and could be my friend.
I used to feel like i belong on this voice actor’s discord, but even when I was still talking to more people, whenever I said anything, I always felt like i got that awkward silence. on twitch other Va discords i’ve tried or on twitter, when I try to interact and be part of the “community. it, no response from other fans since they’re too busy trying to get the VA’s attention if they’re in the chat. makes me wonder what i’m doing wrong.
Last edited:
Gonna vent. Most of it will probably sound stupid but it's a big feelings day apparently.
I'm having one of those days where the world seems big and overwhelming and my gut reaction is to cancel everything and just curl up in bed. Upside having a partner to literally kick you out of bed is a godsend on these days.
My partner started a fight last night over literally nothing. She's since admitted she did this, but it was an exhausting 2 hours where I just wanted her to either talk to me about what was wrong or let me go to sleep. She chose neither! Upside she apologised for taking her sudden mood dip out on me and we made up but I'm exhausted both emotionally and physically as a result.
I managed to strain a muscle in my thigh last night. Every couple of minutes on the walk into work this morning it would spasm - twice I almost buckled. Then idiot me thinks it's smart to walk up six flights of stairs instead of taking the lift, haha. I'm not getting out of this chair for a while.
Also need to go to my parents house tonight due to an early morning appointment conveniently near their house tomorrow. I just want to go to my own home instead, but the trains are a mess due to recent bad weather and it's not worth the risk of missing it. The doctors want to inject me with various vials of stuff, one of which has side effects that are making me hate my appearance - which my partner called out an aspect of when she was upset which is not helping at all with my self-esteem ("You're getting fat"... yes, I'm aware I've gained weight, but I'm not even 60kg. "Fat" seems like a bit of a stretch). Yay chronic health conditions and insecurity. Then I thought it was a great idea to book an eye test for after work tomorrow so I'm prolonging going home even further. I just want to go home now! Just, uh, 33-34hrs more of adulting then I can go home crawl under a blanket and forget the world for a bit.
My partner started a fight last night over literally nothing. She's since admitted she did this, but it was an exhausting 2 hours where I just wanted her to either talk to me about what was wrong or let me go to sleep. She chose neither! Upside she apologised for taking her sudden mood dip out on me and we made up but I'm exhausted both emotionally and physically as a result.
I managed to strain a muscle in my thigh last night. Every couple of minutes on the walk into work this morning it would spasm - twice I almost buckled. Then idiot me thinks it's smart to walk up six flights of stairs instead of taking the lift, haha. I'm not getting out of this chair for a while.
Also need to go to my parents house tonight due to an early morning appointment conveniently near their house tomorrow. I just want to go to my own home instead, but the trains are a mess due to recent bad weather and it's not worth the risk of missing it. The doctors want to inject me with various vials of stuff, one of which has side effects that are making me hate my appearance - which my partner called out an aspect of when she was upset which is not helping at all with my self-esteem ("You're getting fat"... yes, I'm aware I've gained weight, but I'm not even 60kg. "Fat" seems like a bit of a stretch). Yay chronic health conditions and insecurity. Then I thought it was a great idea to book an eye test for after work tomorrow so I'm prolonging going home even further. I just want to go home now! Just, uh, 33-34hrs more of adulting then I can go home crawl under a blanket and forget the world for a bit.
The art program I use randomly started experiencing what I assume is some kind of bug yesterday (I'm thinking it's a bug cuz I changed literally zero settings) and I can't seem to fix it no matter I do, including uninstalling/reinstalling which broke all the thumbnails for my files created with the program. 
The bug itself seems to be only visual and doesn't actually affect the art when I save it, but it's still annoying the crap out of me. And it's such a weird and specific problem I can't find anything about it when I Google it.
The bug itself seems to be only visual and doesn't actually affect the art when I save it, but it's still annoying the crap out of me. And it's such a weird and specific problem I can't find anything about it when I Google it.Shellzilla_515
Senior Member
This is dumb but... The eclipse happened while I was on my way home from college and basically missed it. I did witness some dimness, but that's just about it. Oh, and there were clouds for good measure. What a way to let this once in a lifetime opportunity slip away from my hands. The next time it'll happen here will probably be when I'm not alive which is many many years away. 
Dunquixote
No dms and discord messages
This is very minor.
Only 1 dream solvent out of seven trounce domain runs in genshin
.
Mood has picked up a little aside from this, though I still feel my sadness ready to pop up any minute. Also a bit disappointed and relieved too at the same time not to have gotten a reply from my friend yet. I’m trying not to dwell so the sadness stays away and so I can just enjoy my game but, it’s difficult.
I’ve been trying to chat in the hoyolab part of this discord i’m part of and like the other channels there, always cluttered with meme stuff i don’t see how is funny. Like on this one, two people post the same solar eclipse photo but referring to different part of the game; one has to do with Raiden’s plane of eternity and the other something to do with the knave. I don’t get how it is funny. Honestly i think it is annoying when i just want to chat about the game. I’m tempted to make a discord suggestion to ask if we could minimize the amount of memes posted in discussion channels and have a channel just for memes or something but i don’t think a lot of people would appreciate it. I don’t understand a lot of memes. I have seen some funny memes at least in some gacha game specific reddit communities but all the ones I see on this discord I’m like okay… I don’t get it. I know I lack a sense of humor. .
.Only 1 dream solvent out of seven trounce domain runs in genshin
.Mood has picked up a little aside from this, though I still feel my sadness ready to pop up any minute. Also a bit disappointed and relieved too at the same time not to have gotten a reply from my friend yet. I’m trying not to dwell so the sadness stays away and so I can just enjoy my game but, it’s difficult.
Similar threads
