What's Bothering You?

[trashpedia]

I don't think I'll ever be where I wish to be in life, but I'll keep dreaming about it, even when I'm invisible to the rest of the world.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

I haven't really heard from my friend at all today and I'm pretty sad about that

it's pretty wild just how much of my joy and happiness comes from talking w him.

 

[Dunquixote]

Spoiler: stuff

Frustrated. I hate how I can’t forget things I want to forget. Also, a bit depressed. I’m convinced that even once my mom finds help for me that I still will have trouble getting any kind of job — part time or full time and won’t be able to live on my own and be able to handle responsibilities or live normally. The longer this pandemic goes on, the more I dwell on stuff that has been hurting me for awhile like interactions with my personal (offline friends). Like I wasn’t initially upset about one of my friends not siding with me when his cousin was an absolute clueless jerk during one extremely hard time of my life (my favorite aunt - was murdered). But now, it has been starting to bug me and something else he did. I seriously hate how I can’t let things go; taking about it to my counselor does not help a lot. I wish there was a way to fully treat anxiety and reduce it to normal levels as well as the other stuff wrong with me. If my dad didn’t go ballistic whenever i showed symptoms and didn’t lash out or blame me or my mom when he experiences anxiety (he doesn’t get it treated since he believes he doesn’t have it and that it is my fault and my mom’s), maybe I’d like myself more, and if only my friends understood as well.

last night i thought about my best guy friend and am really upset about the moving since I don’t want to move before he returns to the country. He is from a country that is in really bad shape, though now he is in Europe with some relatives. he got caught working without having a green card (the company he worked for didn’t get in trouble though ) and now with or without the pandemic, idk if i will ever see him again. so again, I am beginning to dread every day; not even excited for my own birthday. thank goodness for the tournament which has been distracting me for the most part from most of this crap.

Looks like I won’t have my stuff out of my boxes or my room back for at least a day or two more. These isn’t that big of a complaint; I just wish I knew where my colored pencils were so I can draw (or try to since my drawings are bad ).

 

[Lightspring]

Not being able to make friends during the lockdown and pandemic has made me feel down. During the few instances when I’m outside and talking to people, I try to make friends but they never quite seem to reciprocate. Looking at pictures of my old friends having fun with new friends on social media makes me feel like I’m missing out on something. Being in a ldr doesn’t help a whole lot either. We live in different cities around 30 minutes away and planning the next time we’ll meet has been a hassle. They have a busy schedule that revolves around school, religion, and friends and sometimes I feel like I’m always waiting for the next time they’re available to contact me or hang out. Then again, I wish to meet new people and find new hobbies to keep myself busy but it’s just so hard. I wish things could just be more simple.

 

[duckvely]

i've been super stressed about school lately. the amount of things i'll have to do in these next two weeks makes me feel extremely anxious and i just can't wait for it to be over with x.x

 

[Alienfish]

i really need to cut my hair, that dumb beaver/ponytail in the back it's look like a bad mullet

 

[Nefarious]

I'm getting the second dose tomorrow morning and the panic is just now hitting me. Why do I have to be such a baby when it comes to needles. The process goes by so quick, I know this, yet my brain just wants to go into hysteria at the mere mention of them.

 

[skarmoury]

I feel sick, I hope it’s not anything bad. I have a tough week ahead and I’m scared.

 

[-Lumi-]

Love when my period cramps are bad enough to wake me up. My period is a week early the least it can do is not be so painful this time

 

[Sheep Villager]

Check list:​

• Spend 4+ months prepping for a thing
• Make sure you've gathered all the supplies needed over and over again.
• Promptly make an irreversible mistake the second you start actually doing the thing.

Feeling all kinds of frustrated right now. ​

 

[Soigne]

work, lack of sleep, lack of direction in life

 

[Neb]

Normally venting helps me cope, but sometimes I feel like it doesn’t do anything. My brain just continues to ruminate on negative experiences regardless of what I do.

Toxic people like my high school bullies or ex seem to stick the longest. If I feel attacked by those kinds of people it takes years for me to move on. All I know how to respond is by venting or distracting myself. Nothing else works, and even then it’s a temporary solution.

 

[Princess Mipha]

It's like everything I was supposed to feel the first 3 month of pregnancy I start to get now in the 5th month. Currently I have quite some headpain and the medicine makes me want to throw up >->

 

[xSuperMario64x]

today's been pretty crappy so far, prob cause I didn't sleep well last night. woke up for no reason at like 1am and I shot up out of bed to get dressed for work... only to realize it was 1am. then as I was going back to sleep I (by some odd chance) heard a fire alarm go off in another dorm and bc I'm still terrified from last week when the fire alarm went off twice I jumped out of bed again, fully prepared for the alarm to go off here so my dog and I could hurriedly leave the building. that really sucked.

also just generally very moody bc I hit my breaking point with schoolwork a while ago and I'm literally just dragging myself now. every time someone else has something nice happening in their life it makes me want to cry cause I hate where my life is rn, I feel pretty helpless and I have an overwhelming sense of guilt.

on top of this stuff I encountered quite a few cases of sever transphobia on facebook yesterday. if I ever needed an excuse to leave the platform that was it. as if I didn't already feel singled out fro society bc of aspergers, now I've got this too. I know it's not a choice but still idk why I do this to myself :>>>

 

[Millysaurusrexjr]

tried to make sushi rice and it didn't turn out very well. undercooked and too much vinegar. don't like wasting food

 

[Midoriya]

Here’s my daily complaint about my job taking up all my time and not having time for much else. I need a new, better job asap. Feeling very pathetic lately.

 

[ali.di.magix]

just feeling insecure. I miss the days of having a job that I was confident in and would teach people with ease. I miss the feeling of knowing. I miss the days where I knew that people around me liked me. Nowadays I don't know any more. I don't know if I'm performing well. I don't know if I'm straight up annoying to everyone around me. I just feel so out of place.

 

[VanitasFan26]

I don't know how to feel anymore. I just feel empty. Like I am becoming emotionally numb to everything lately.

 

[SpaceTokki77]

tfw u realize all ur friends forgot about u and found new friends

 

[Dawnpiplup]

UGH. I keep running around in circles.