I feel this so much. Ever since the pandemic, all my irl friends found new people and kinda moved on, but I haven't met anyone new or moved on at all. It really sucks horribly knowing that there's not many people to turn to that ._.
As someone who has already went through that phase, it's really scary to think about, but honestly it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be tbh. It seems really scary as first, but as long as you take it easy and don't rush yourself despite what your school pressures you to do about college. Honestly if anything, I despised how much pressure school puts on college and how it impacts life in general, because it's very exaggerated. Just enjoy what you have now atm and when the time comes, you'll be ready for it. Good luck! ^-^
Anyways, I just wish I wasn't ignored. I feel silly trying to vent this out but it's small things people do that slowly build up and start to hurt after a while. From people not noticing me until hours later to ignoring my replies on discord chats. I know it's extremely petty and that the world doesn't revolve around me, but sometimes, I kinda just wish I had support sometimes. From my art getting no likes online to group chats immediately becoming silent once I say something. Is it even worth continuing on my ways anymore or should I just keep going?
. sending you my thoughts and best wishes for your uncle to have and speedy and safe recovery 
. Hang in there
