Mental Health

[hallejulia]

Covid actually improved my mental health because it gave me a couple of weeks off from school but then as soon as I started online school my depression and anxiety returned.

I cried over English homework today.
My head's been such a mess these past weeks. I can't get anything done because my anxiety and fear of failure have been getting in the way of everything recently.
This isn't anything new or unusual to me but my mental health improved a lot in 2019 (still had a lot of downs but overall I managed to keep my anxiety at an okay level majority of the time) and I was hoping that it would continue to improve in 2020 but right now it feels like I'm back at square one.

I never thought I would make it to 18, now I'm 11 days away from turning 20 (May 30th) and I really want to turn 20 cause then I can tell myself that I've made it through the awful teen years somehow but right now it doesn't feel like I'll ever get there.

(I also apologize for the lack of commas I never quite know where to put them. That is one of the many things my brain just doesn't understand how to do).

 

[Darcy94x]

Covid has massively affected me in ways I thought it would. I’m a single mum to a 3 year old and 1 year old and even before coronavirus I had them 6 days a week and my mum would have them so I could still go to work 1 day a week to feel like I was providing.. I feel like a lot of my ‘friends’ haven’t even bothered to see how I am and even when I’ve reached out to them they’ve been very ‘half arsed’ with replies etc which is **** for me cause they are my only adult contact.. I’ve since deleted all my social media after nearly overdosing, fast forward 6 weeks and I’ve got instagram & Twitter (for news) back but still not back on anything else. Although I feel very lonely I’ve just completely focused on my children and my other love (animal crossing).

just gotta keep reminding myself this isn’t forever ...

To everyone having a bad day/week/month/year. I’ve been there. I am there currently. We gotta push eachother to better places. Our time will come

 

[Loubelle]

To be honest, my mental health was in a really bad place a few weeks before school closures, and I remember crying almost every day and sometimes several times a day for about a week because of school because the quarter was coming to an end and I had quizzes and tests every single day and each class was just quiz and test being thrown at me and I couldn't take it. At one point, I just broke down and stayed home from school because of how bad it had gotten. I remember having so much homework that I was getting like 3-4 hours of sleep, and I was doing homework and studying during lunch and dinner, so I wasn't eating either (I don't normally eat breakfast). When school closures happened I started feeling so much better, more relaxed, and I had significantly more free time than I had had for a very long time, probably since last summer. Things ere going well until AP exams started. I made a thread last week about how my ap exam didn't submit and how devestated I was, and I cried for so long because of the stress the class put on me, and the stress of the test, and then the stress of my test not submitting and having that stress loom over me until the retake. Not only that, but college board then a few days later allows for an email submission if your test doesn't submit which felt like a huge kick in the teeth, and is frankly so frustrating, as submission failures had been happening for a week, and yet they didn't implement this email submission until testing is almost over-- Anywho, the last of my schoolwork is due today and I have another ap exam tomorrow, and the retake of my failed one is early june, so it's almost over, and I just have to keep on going

 

[Neb]

I was diagnosed with autism spectrum disorder when I was 4 and generalized anxiety disorder at age 10. As I struggled through High School, I also developed auditory hallucinations. Despite all of the mental disorders and illnesses, the only struggle I've had in quarantine is loneliness. I moved away from my IRL friends years ago and most of online friends are busy with other things. Getting back into Animal Crossing after my break from New Leaf has helped a lot. It's given me something to look forward to each morning. When my online friends have been available, going to their islands alleviates some of the social isolation.

 

[Mayor Ng]

Covid actually improved my mental health because it gave me a couple of weeks off from school but then as soon as I started online school my depression and anxiety returned.

I cried over English homework today.
My head's been such a mess these past weeks. I can't get anything done because my anxiety and fear of failure have been getting in the way of everything recently.
This isn't anything new or unusual to me but my mental health improved a lot in 2019 (still had a lot of downs but overall I managed to keep my anxiety at an okay level majority of the time) and I was hoping that it would continue to improve in 2020 but right now it feels like I'm back at square one.

I never thought I would make it to 18, now I'm 11 days away from turning 20 (May 30th) and I really want to turn 20 cause then I can tell myself that I've made it through the awful teen years somehow but right now it doesn't feel like I'll ever get there.

(I also apologize for the lack of commas I never quite know where to put them. That is one of the many things my brain just doesn't understand how to do).

Hi there, what you are going through sounds uneasy.

Teen years can be trying with hormonal changes and stuff and as you grow older, your mental state will only get better.
I grew up in an environment with three languages but speak and learn English most of the time and until today, I still get ridiculed sometimes for my English. Sometimes it's good, sometimes it's questionable Back to topic, language is a lifelong learning process and it's okay to make mistakes, as long as you are learning and improving gradually, you'll eventually get to a level you are satisfied with.

Hang in there, you'll turn 20 soon and you have your whole life to look forward to after this ongoing pandemic

Covid has massively affected me in ways I thought it would. I’m a single mum to a 3 year old and 1 year old and even before coronavirus I had them 6 days a week and my mum would have them so I could still go to work 1 day a week to feel like I was providing.. I feel like a lot of my ‘friends’ haven’t even bothered to see how I am and even when I’ve reached out to them they’ve been very ‘half arsed’ with replies etc which is **** for me cause they are my only adult contact.. I’ve since deleted all my social media after nearly overdosing, fast forward 6 weeks and I’ve got instagram & Twitter (for news) back but still not back on anything else. Although I feel very lonely I’ve just completely focused on my children and my other love (animal crossing).

just gotta keep reminding myself this isn’t forever ... ❤

To everyone having a bad day/week/month/year. I’ve been there. I am there currently. We gotta push eachother to better places. Our time will come

First of all, I must applaud you for being a strong single mum. It's never easy. My mum had me in her teen years and I was born prematurely at just short of 7 months with blood poisoning and other complications. My father is not exactly a good dad and our family dynamic is dysfunctional and questionable at best until recently. Hence, in a way it's like my mum is a single mum. Since my mum had my sister earlier (a year apart), she did not know how to juggle two children and sent me to be taken care of by other people. I'm glad you chose to look after both your children! You don't understand how much it affects their mental state

"'I feel like a lot of my ‘friends’ haven’t even bothered to see how I am and even when I’ve reached out to them they’ve been very ‘half arsed’ with replies etc" - Your friends are probably too occupied with their lives. Try not to look to friends for comfort because they are only there when it's beneficial to them (mostly). Your family especially your children will be the most important people in your life and you can seek comfort from their precious smiles You can bond with your mom for some adult session and learn about how your mom views parenting.

Continue your focus on your children and animal crossing and most importantly to avoid seeking verification from people. You're awesome for being a strong single mum!

To be honest, my mental health was in a really bad place a few weeks before school closures, and I remember crying almost every day and sometimes several times a day for about a week because of school because the quarter was coming to an end and I had quizzes and tests every single day and each class was just quiz and test being thrown at me and I couldn't take it. At one point, I just broke down and stayed home from school because of how bad it had gotten. I remember having so much homework that I was getting like 3-4 hours of sleep, and I was doing homework and studying during lunch and dinner, so I wasn't eating either (I don't normally eat breakfast). When school closures happened I started feeling so much better, more relaxed, and I had significantly more free time than I had had for a very long time, probably since last summer. Things ere going well until AP exams started. I made a thread last week about how my ap exam didn't submit and how devestated I was, and I cried for so long because of the stress the class put on me, and the stress of the test, and then the stress of my test not submitting and having that stress loom over me until the retake. Not only that, but college board then a few days later allows for an email submission if your test doesn't submit which felt like a huge kick in the teeth, and is frankly so frustrating, as submission failures had been happening for a week, and yet they didn't implement this email submission until testing is almost over-- Anywho, the last of my schoolwork is due today and I have another ap exam tomorrow, and the retake of my failed one is early june, so it's almost over, and I just have to keep on going

First of all, good luck in your upcoming AP exam!
Next, I graduated from an American international school so I understand the pressure of the college board but I never applied for American universities despite getting scholarships. Hope you get through it all! I have graduated university with my bachelors with honours and looking back, it seemed miniscule but during the moment, it was overwhelming. You'll eventually get to different stages in your life and when you look back, everything will seem small and ridiculous but you should always applaud yourself for making through those situations

Maybe not being able to submit your AP exams is a blessing in disguise! Just saying, think positively!

I was diagnosed with autism spectrum disorder when I was 4 and generalized anxiety disorder at age 10. As I struggled through High School, I also developed auditory hallucinations. Despite all of the mental disorders and illnesses, the only struggle I've had in quarantine is loneliness. I moved away from my IRL friends years ago and most of online friends are busy with other things. Getting back into Animal Crossing after my break from New Leaf has helped a lot. It's given me something to look forward to each morning. When my online friends have been available, going to their islands alleviates some of the social isolation.

If you need someone to just talk to and hang out with and your online friends are busy. Feel free to come over to my town (if you are still playing New Leaf) to hang out. You can find my friend code below

 

[Darcy94x]

Thankyou for taking the time to listen to everyone’s rants/outpours of emotion. Can’t imagine it’s easy to reply to every single person but you clearly are a very selfless person. Using your time to help others I applaud you for that @Mayor Ng

 

[Mayor Ng]

Thankyou for taking the time to listen to everyone’s rants/outpours of emotion. Can’t imagine it’s easy to reply to every single person but you clearly are a very selfless person. Using your time to help others ❤ I applaud you for that @Mayor Ng

Just doing what I can during this pandemic. Unlike the frontline workers at the hospitals and paramedics, this is sorta the least I can help people while obeying social distancing guidelines. I am also broken mentally in someways so I know it can be tough to reach out to people in real life because it can seem as though people just don't care about you and your problems but we all deserve a little touch of kindness or support to help us get back on our feet and hopefully integrate back into society

 

[Darcy94x]

Just doing what I can during this pandemic. Unlike the frontline workers at the hospitals and paramedics, this is sorta the least I can help people while obeying social distancing guidelines. I am also broken mentally in someways so I know it can be tough to reach out to people in real life because it can seem as though people just don't care about you and your problems but we all deserve a little touch of kindness or support to help us get back on our feet and hopefully integrate back into society

I do the same for my friends. Although I’m struggling myself I’ll always reach out to pretty much anyone and offer help and I think that just shows you’re a good person. If you can help others when you are in a dark place just shows you really are selfless.
If you ever need to vent my PM is always open! I’d like to think I give good advice (just not to myself lol)

keep doing what you’re doing you’re amazing

 

[hallejulia]

Hi there, what you are going through sounds uneasy.

Teen years can be trying with hormonal changes and stuff and as you grow older, your mental state will only get better.
I grew up in an environment with three languages but speak and learn English most of the time and until today, I still get ridiculed sometimes for my English. Sometimes it's good, sometimes it's questionable Back to topic, language is a lifelong learning process and it's okay to make mistakes, as long as you are learning and improving gradually, you'll eventually get to a level you are satisfied with.

Hang in there, you'll turn 20 soon and you have your whole life to look forward to after this ongoing pandemic

I should’ve probably mentioned that I’ve been suffering from anxiety ever since I was little (selective mutism and kindergarten do not go well together). and I’ve also been diagnosed with aspergers.
Depression is also extremely common in my family.
As much as I wish this were teen hormones playing a pratical joke on me I know that it is unfortunately a lot more deep rooted than that.

Again, I should’ve mentioned that I don’t know that I don’t where to place commas in my native language either. (I don’t learn grammar the way it is taught in school which has caused me massive problems time and time again).

Nevertheless, thank you very much for your kind words I really appreciate it.

 

[Mayor Ng]

I should’ve probably mentioned that I’ve been suffering from anxiety ever since I was little (selective mutism and kindergarten do not go well together). and I’ve also been diagnosed with aspergers.
Depression is also extremely common in my family.
As much as I wish this were teen hormones playing a pratical joke on me I know that it is unfortunately a lot more deep rooted than that.

Again, I should’ve mentioned that I don’t know that I don’t where to place commas in my native language either. (I don’t learn grammar the way it is taught in school which has caused me massive problems time and time again).

Nevertheless, thank you very much for your kind words I really appreciate it.

There's always a deep-rooted reason to why someone is the way he/ she is but it is not nice to pry into another person's life. Hence, I did not pry further. Usually when someone is not ready to share, they will not share. I only try to help with what they are sharing.

If depression is extremely common in your family then your environment plays a part in your mental health. You need a more friendly and positive environment. This forum can provide you that, reach out to people and invite them to play. I've only met decent and nice people on this forum and if you ever meet someone that is not so nice, just give that person a bad feedback to warn others. You can also play solo and bond with your villagers, build a home that you are comfortable in and that can escape to when you are having a really bad day.

Grammar is not really an issue, my grammar is not perfect at all. As long as you can communicate, that's all that matters. Grammar's only for education (when you write essays or take exams) and rarely ever important after that. Grammar can be improved on by reading and noticing where commas are placed. Just by reading this reply, you can see how I use my commas.

Teen hormones also plays a part. It might not make up 100% of your problems but it does make up for a percentage of it and when you grow older and hormones stabilizes, you'll be able to control your emotions and thoughts better. As for your deep-lying problems, I am not a psychiatrist or a specialist with mental conditions, so I cannot help you much but know that if you don't treat it as a problem, you will eventually find a way to overcome it or integrate it to your normal life. I still have some mental scarring and PTSD and other weirdness but I have accepted those things as who I am and move on

 

[Darcy94x]

Omg I’m back. Needed somewhere to vent and this atm is my only safe place .... so context. I have 2 kids and was with their father for 3 and a half years before we split last June, we have both had partners since but nothing worked then fast forward to lockdown he asked if he could stay here as his dad was vulnerable and he wouldn’t be able to work if he was staying there so I said yes. Anyways we got close and we started a relationship again but I’ve always been skeptical as he cheated on me 3 times in our past relationship. This morning woke up and our youngest passed me his dads phone (he’s only a baby he picks everything up lol) anyways he had swiped to the left and under Siri App suggestions [google: Siri Suggestions is essentially a screen that shows you the apps you used most recently and the people you've texted or called most recently.] there was TINDER! (Dating site) and I woke him (not even nastily I just wanted an explanation) he said ‘I’ve not used it for months’ so I asked him to open the app which would prove he had not messaged people on there recently.. he refused and to me that just proves guilt so I’ve told him I no longer want to further our relationship. I just can’t believe I gave him another chance after he hurt me so much first time round and he clearly hasn’t changed. URGH

 

[Mayor Ng]

Omg I’m back. Needed somewhere to vent and this atm is my only safe place .... so context. I have 2 kids and was with their father for 3 and a half years before we split last June, we have both had partners since but nothing worked then fast forward to lockdown he asked if he could stay here as his dad was vulnerable and he wouldn’t be able to work if he was staying there so I said yes. Anyways we got close and we started a relationship again but I’ve always been skeptical as he cheated on me 3 times in our past relationship. This morning woke up and our youngest passed me his dads phone (he’s only a baby he picks everything up lol) anyways he had swiped to the left and under Siri App suggestions [google: Siri Suggestions is essentially a screen that shows you the apps you used most recently and the people you've texted or called most recently.] there was TINDER! (Dating site) and I woke him (not even nastily I just wanted an explanation) he said ‘I’ve not used it for months’ so I asked him to open the app which would prove he had not messaged people on there recently.. he refused and to me that just proves guilt so I’ve told him I no longer want to further our relationship. I just can’t believe I gave him another chance after he hurt me so much first time round and he clearly hasn’t changed. URGH

I thought this thread was dead for awhile since no one was posting (or it was not seen). I did not want to bump this thread because a lot of people have posted their (rather private) stories and I didn't want unneccessary attention to it

Back to your predicament at hand. From my experience, I haven't stayed with my parents since childhood and only got closer to them in my teenage years. My father has a tendency to secure sexual services outside the house and my mother has accepted this (disgustedly ofcourse) for the benefit of her children. My sister and I (just the two of us in my family) are grown up now and we are still embarrassed and disgusted by his behaviour. Based on my opinion and experience, I would say there is no benefit to your children in keeping their father around (as long as you explain the circumstances you had to go through when they're old enough, they'll pull through). Keeping your ex-partner around will also hurt you and mess with your mental wellbing as I've seen what my mother goes through.

Just cheating on you once is a red flag!

Spoiler: This is private but I want to share it to people on this thread to give some perspective

I have a partner that I met in high school and I want to propose to after the pandemic is over since she's someone I want to get through life with. We haven't "slept" together or gone all the way in our close to 7 years relationship. Reason is because I respect her wishes and never took advantage of her. Additionally, we spend half the duration of this relationship apart from each other separated in different countries. We are both very straight and have high s*xual drive, before you judge, some girls just want to be ready for the changes that will happen to their bodies and have a geniune fear of unwanted pregnancy!

What I want to say is that, it's hard for men to control their impulses and urges but it's not impossible and if your partner really cared about you, your wishes will take priority over anything else. Find yourself someone better and dispose of him, he clearly does not respect you and you should not cater to him. He will be able to find accomodation with his buddies or friends. At the end of the day, he is your ex-partner and you have to make the decision yourself.

Hope for all the best to you and your children! Let their smiles brighten your mood

 

[Darcy94x]

I thought this thread was dead for awhile since no one was posting (or it was not seen). I did not want to bump this thread because a lot of people have posted their (rather private) stories and I didn't want unneccessary attention to it

Back to your predicament at hand. From my experience, I haven't stayed with my parents since childhood and only got closer to them in my teenage years. My father has a tendency to secure sexual services outside the house and my mother has accepted this (disgustedly ofcourse) for the benefit of her children. My sister and I (just the two of us in my family) are grown up now and we are still embarrassed and disgusted by his behaviour. Based on my opinion and experience, I would say there is no benefit to your children in keeping their father around (as long as you explain the circumstances you had to go through when they're old enough, they'll pull through). Keeping your ex-partner around will also hurt you and mess with your mental wellbing as I've seen what my mother goes through.

Just cheating on you once is a red flag!

Spoiler: This is private but I want to share it to people on this thread to give some perspective

I have a partner that I met in high school and I want to propose to after the pandemic is over since she's someone I want to get through life with. We haven't "slept" together or gone all the way in our close to 7 years relationship. Reason is because I respect her wishes and never took advantage of her. Additionally, we spend half the duration of this relationship apart from each other separated in different countries. We are both very straight and have high s*xual drive, before you judge, some girls just want to be ready for the changes that will happen to their bodies and have a geniune fear of unwanted pregnancy!

What I want to say is that, it's hard for men to control their impulses and urges but it's not impossible and if your partner really cared about you, your wishes will take priority over anything else. Find yourself someone better and dispose of him, he clearly does not respect you and you should not cater to him. He will be able to find accomodation with his buddies or friends. At the end of the day, he is your ex-partner and you have to make the decision yourself.

Hope for all the best to you and your children! Let their smiles brighten your mood

This thread is honestly a safe place for me. Nobody I know in real life has TBT or has even heard of it. My cousin got ACNH yesterday so I told her about it and she said she may join but she’s family so I wouldn’t be bothered about her seeing this!

it really is tough I just feel like I gave him a second chance to be a proper family and he’s made me look silly. He’s still adamant he hasn’t used it and that he ‘forgot’ he had the app which makes no sense to me.

my 2 wonderful children are both happy and healthy and that’s most important to me!

Thankyou for sharing your personal story. It really is lovely that there are some people out there where sex isn’t the main priority in a relationship but love and affection is. I hope you both have a happy life long relationship

 

[Mayor Ng]

This thread is honestly a safe place for me. Nobody I know in real life has TBT or has even heard of it. My cousin got ACNH yesterday so I told her about it and she said she may join but she’s family so I wouldn’t be bothered about her seeing this!

it really is tough I just feel like I gave him a second chance to be a proper family and he’s made me look silly. He’s still adamant he hasn’t used it and that he ‘forgot’ he had the app which makes no sense to me.

my 2 wonderful children are both happy and healthy and that’s most important to me!

Thankyou for sharing your personal story. It really is lovely that there are some people out there where sex isn’t the main priority in a relationship but love and affection is. I hope you both have a happy life long relationship

You're welcome and I'm glad this thread can be a safe place for you.

Just saying, if he is still adamant, I suppose you should be adamant about his place in your life too

Continue your good work with your children! They're indeed precious!

Thank you for the last sentence

 

[Patisserie]

I'm glad this thread's still here. I've been a little afraid to post my issues cause I don't like to be a burden or one of those people that seems like I'm always complaining. Then I kinda realized that's the point of this thread. To vent where people can relate. My roommate left town again over the weekend. So I was on my own again and thought this will be easier. I mean I did it before.... Everything was fine until Sunday I guess. In the evening I just kinda felt the overwhelming stress and anxiety. The kinda panic that creates chest and back pains. Like I needed to go to ER for a heart attack. It was pretty horrible and lasted from like 4pm-9pm. I cried for most of the time and felt so horribly alone and depressed. Waking up Monday morning I just felt exhausted and disconnected. I tried to drown myself in Animal Crossing to forget about the night before. My frustrations increased because my villagers never seem to want to move and I don't time travel. I got upset with myself for not being more selective or not re-starting a Island with Apples or pier on the left side of my Island. Just silly things that I didn't know about. An taking offense to irrational things going on in my life. My medications have a great effect on my anxiety. However, the downside is that they can potentially intensify my depression if I am not mindful. Realizing that I was heading for a depression spiral. I decided to vent here in hopes that I can avoid it. Read posts from others. To see that I am not alone in my struggles with mental health. I'm still depressed atm. But, a little less knowing this thread exists.

 

[0ni]

Being depressed is honestly just exhausting, being up and then down so low. Having to explain to people that you don't know why exactly you are sad right now, you just are. Having to push through the brain fog to do the most basic tasks, and feeling mentally and physically drained by the end of it.

I was diagnosed during my undergrad, at the point where I began to restrict my eating as a form of 'punishment', but I had been suffering from depression and anxiety a lot longer. It was always chalked up to 'teenage hormones' and I'm still regretful that I never got checked out earlier, I believe it would have made high school a lot more bearable.

To everyone who is suffering right now, I'm wishing you the very best - I may not be able to alleviate any of the burden, but I'm fighting alongside you.

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I'm glad this thread's still here. I've been a little afraid to post my issues cause I don't like to be a burden or one of those people that seems like I'm always complaining. Then I kinda realized that's the point of this thread. To vent where people can relate. My roommate left town again over the weekend. So I was on my own again and thought this will be easier. I mean I did it before.... Everything was fine until Sunday I guess. In the evening I just kinda felt the overwhelming stress and anxiety. The kinda panic that creates chest and back pains. Like I needed to go to ER for a heart attack. It was pretty horrible and lasted from like 4pm-9pm. I cried for most of the time and felt so horribly alone and depressed. Waking up Monday morning I just felt exhausted and disconnected. I tried to drown myself in Animal Crossing to forget about the night before. My frustrations increased because my villagers never seem to want to move and I don't time travel. I got upset with myself for not being more selective or not re-starting a Island with Apples or pier on the left side of my Island. Just silly things that I didn't know about. An taking offense to irrational things going on in my life. My medications have a great effect on my anxiety. However, the downside is that they can potentially intensify my depression if I am not mindful. Realizing that I was heading for a depression spiral. I decided to vent here in hopes that I can avoid it. Read posts from others. To see that I am not alone in my struggles with mental health. I'm still depressed atm. But, a little less knowing this thread exists.

I'm so sorry you had to go through all that - panic attacks are horrible experiences, and very hard to come down from alone. I'm just a random internet stranger but I'm proud of you for managing to push through that, you are a very resilient person. I hope you are able to overcome the spiral, but know that you will get out the other side eventually. All my good thoughts and vibes with you, friend.

 

[Mayor Ng]

I'm glad this thread's still here. I've been a little afraid to post my issues cause I don't like to be a burden or one of those people that seems like I'm always complaining. Then I kinda realized that's the point of this thread. To vent where people can relate. My roommate left town again over the weekend. So I was on my own again and thought this will be easier. I mean I did it before.... Everything was fine until Sunday I guess. In the evening I just kinda felt the overwhelming stress and anxiety. The kinda panic that creates chest and back pains. Like I needed to go to ER for a heart attack. It was pretty horrible and lasted from like 4pm-9pm. I cried for most of the time and felt so horribly alone and depressed. Waking up Monday morning I just felt exhausted and disconnected. I tried to drown myself in Animal Crossing to forget about the night before. My frustrations increased because my villagers never seem to want to move and I don't time travel. I got upset with myself for not being more selective or not re-starting a Island with Apples or pier on the left side of my Island. Just silly things that I didn't know about. An taking offense to irrational things going on in my life. My medications have a great effect on my anxiety. However, the downside is that they can potentially intensify my depression if I am not mindful. Realizing that I was heading for a depression spiral. I decided to vent here in hopes that I can avoid it. Read posts from others. To see that I am not alone in my struggles with mental health. I'm still depressed atm. But, a little less knowing this thread exists.

Yes the point of this thread is so that people have a place to vent and to find solace in the responses of other people that share the same problems. The only words of comfort I can give you is that you are not alone in your fight. I feel for you and how terrible the whole ordeal must've been for you but I struggle to find words to comfort you... Depression is something I hope no one has to go through. I do not play ACNH (since you mentioned island, I assume it is NH) and cannot play with you to help alleviate your depression but I hope someone on this thread will be kind enough to offer some of their time to play with you or that you can find an active playmate on NH that can relate to you

Being depressed is honestly just exhausting, being up and then down so low. Having to explain to people that you don't know why exactly you are sad right now, you just are. Having to push through the brain fog to do the most basic tasks, and feeling mentally and physically drained by the end of it.

I was diagnosed during my undergrad, at the point where I began to restrict my eating as a form of 'punishment', but I had been suffering from depression and anxiety a lot longer. It was always chalked up to 'teenage hormones' and I'm still regretful that I never got checked out earlier, I believe it would have made high school a lot more bearable.

To everyone who is suffering right now, I'm wishing you the very best - I may not be able to alleviate any of the burden, but I'm fighting alongside you.

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I'm so sorry you had to go through all that - panic attacks are horrible experiences, and very hard to come down from alone. I'm just a random internet stranger but I'm proud of you for managing to push through that, you are a very resilient person. I hope you are able to overcome the spiral, but know that you will get out the other side eventually. All my good thoughts and vibes with you, friend.

Thank you @Eiji for your kind words and a random kind passerby is always better than no one I hope all the best for you too and stay safe during this trying time!

 

[Bugs]

I've never been diagnosed with anything, but I have been thinking about possibly seeing a psychiatrist.

I have this weird thing that's been happening to me for years and years, since I was a teenager. I'll have these big patches of time that can last months where I just get this horrible feeling that I'm not who I think I am, that I'm not me anymore. It's so weird but I hate it so much, it's so painful to go through whenever it happens.

Usually as well as this feeling I'll not want to do things I usually love, recently I've been feeling weird about liking bugs, like I have this sudden aversion even though deep down inside me I love bugs still so much (it's my username here for that reason!)

It's happened with other hobbies and subjects too, and very scarily it happens with my relationships too.

The only way I've found to get through it is to hold deeply into those things I know make me me, I know deep down inside I love my friends, my boyfriend and my hobbies and I would feel terrible if I ever lost them, eventually I go back to normal and everything is fine again, but I know I'll go back into the weird feeling again in the future.

I hate it so much

 

[Mayor Ng]

I've never been diagnosed with anything, but I have been thinking about possibly seeing a psychiatrist.

I have this weird thing that's been happening to me for years and years, since I was a teenager. I'll have these big patches of time that can last months where I just get this horrible feeling that I'm not who I think I am, that I'm not me anymore. It's so weird but I hate it so much, it's so painful to go through whenever it happens.

Usually as well as this feeling I'll not want to do things I usually love, recently I've been feeling weird about liking bugs, like I have this sudden aversion even though deep down inside me I love bugs still so much (it's my username here for that reason!)

It's happened with other hobbies and subjects too, and very scarily it happens with my relationships too.

The only way I've found to get through it is to hold deeply into those things I know make me me, I know deep down inside I love my friends, my boyfriend and my hobbies and I would feel terrible if I ever lost them, eventually I go back to normal and everything is fine again, but I know I'll go back into the weird feeling again in the future.

I hate it so much

I've never heard of your situation before Maybe someone in this thread can relate? Thread audience or viewers can help discern what it could possibly be?

Sounds terrible to think that you would get a period of time where you question who you are and what you love Maybe you could see multiple psychiatrist to get a more accurate analysis or answer on what could trigger it or how it comes about? I did some searching and maybe it could be Depersonalization/derealization disorder [a mental health condition that can cause a person to experience either a persistent or recurring feeling of being outside of their body (depersonalization) or a sense that what's happening around them isn't real (derealization) or both]. Diagnosable conditions in which there's a fragmented sense of identity, memories, and/or consciousness. The hallmark of these conditions is an involuntary disconnection from reality. You can read more about it below:

Spoiler: Depersonalization/derealization disorder

Depersonalization/Derealization Disorder Causes Feelings of Detachment

Depersonalization/derealization disorder is a dissociative disorder. Learn about the symptoms, causes, and treatment for this condition.

www.verywellmind.com

I still think and totally your choice that it's best you see a few specialists or people with experience to get a better read on your condition.
I hope you get through this and feel free to update this thread when you get better as I'm curious about your recovery and what mental condition it is (you can also pm me or choose to ignore this thread altogether).

Stay safe and stay strong!

 

[Bugs]

I've never heard of your situation before Maybe someone in this thread can relate? Thread audience or viewers can help discern what it could possibly be?

Sounds terrible to think that you would get a period of time where you question who you are and what you love Maybe you could see multiple psychiatrist to get a more accurate analysis or answer on what could trigger it or how it comes about?

Thanks so much for your reply, I'm hopefully coming to the end of this particular patch now, and I hope it doesn't flare up again whatever it is.

Once when I had it particularly bad I did try to Google how I felt, and I found the same sort of thing you did, but yeah nothing I've found is exactly the same as what I experience.

I think it's triggered by different things each time, I think sometimes it's when I'm left to my own devices for too long I tend to overthink stuff and I can sort of spiral into questions upon questions, and the end result is me looking at the world upside down, everything kind of seems off including myself, like I'm not myself anymore. It is pretty scary. Other times it just happens out of the blue like a sudden feeling just comes over me.

If I get to see someone about it, I'll definitely update here if I get some kind of diagnosis, however that probably won't be for a while