Mental Health

"..one of them would say "at least its not as bad as MY anxiety" or they would tell me how much worse their mental state was."
- That's not a good comparison to make on their part nor a very effective comforting method :unsure:

"..I had developed a eating disorder and terrible insomnia."
- Do you still suffer with them?

"Now I know this isn't as bad as other peoples and way more people have worse trauma"
- Everyone has their own problems and everyone's way of dealing and couping is different but it doesn't mean yours is insignificant or not as 'bad'.

I am guilty sometimes of trying to console someone by making them look at people that are less unfortunate and it is not a good way of consoling people. Everyone deserve to be recognized for their own problems and worries. I hope you find better friends and get over your eating disorder and insomnia. Glad that you have seen a therapist to help with your condition! My condolences about the loss of your grandparents... Hope you continue on your journey of healing and recovery. Stay safe and you're always welcomed to rant or express yourself on this thread :)
I have gotten over my eating disorder and I'm still trying to get at a healthy weight, the therapist said that a little bit of essential oils on my bed and it may help with insomnia, and it sorta is. And thank you for being to kind, during lockdown I felt that my issues were getting worse, so ranting helped me think after I've typed it all out! Also this thread is amazing! :)
 
Gotta keep a positive attitude even though I’m feeling pretty upset... this past week and weekend was a bad one for me. I had several attacks that felt like heart attacks that wouldn’t go away. Was pretty miserable feeling the days after. On Saturday I went to check into puppies for a emotional support pet. I’m not sure that I’m even ready for the responsibility of my own pet. But, I can’t say the thoughts of have one by my side and being forced to take care of it could help with my recovery. However, the stores had nothing of interest... Mostly large breeds and so expensive! Last time I saw puppies they were like 500-1000$. Looked into various Breeder near me and the price was like 4000-7000$ depending on breed. Checked local adds etc and keep reading stuff about scams and such. Checked into adoption and all they have around seems to be pitbull mixes. So that was a bummer. I’ve gained weight that I’ve never had. Which people keep saying that I look much healthier. I agree that I do. But, I’m still not used to that feeling of the extra weight and my clothes fitting properly lol. I’ve been struggling to get back into my routine because my medications have taken my anxious energy away. Honestly never thought that would be something that I would have to adjust to or miss. Minus the extra side effects of anxiety. Today I finally felt like I was ready to start my yoga routine again. 😔 I couldn’t complete the whole routine and I can feel all the progression that I’ve lost... That’s extremely depressing to me. Trying to stay positive that at least I’m able to do it at all. Even if it’s just a little. I thought I’d come here to vent some. If you’re also feeling like your recovery is 1 step forward 2-3 steps back. Know that you’re not alone in this feeling and try to push on to the next day. Try pushing the negative aside and make a list of some of the good things. As hard as that may be or how little they seem. Those little accomplishments will lead you to bigger ones. Thanks for hearing me out. I wish you all much love even if I don’t know you and a better rest of the day if yours is starting off not so great like mine. ❤️
 
Gotta keep a positive attitude even though I’m feeling pretty upset... this past week and weekend was a bad one for me. I had several attacks that felt like heart attacks that wouldn’t go away. Was pretty miserable feeling the days after. On Saturday I went to check into puppies for a emotional support pet. I’m not sure that I’m even ready for the responsibility of my own pet. But, I can’t say the thoughts of have one by my side and being forced to take care of it could help with my recovery. However, the stores had nothing of interest... Mostly large breeds and so expensive! Last time I saw puppies they were like 500-1000$. Looked into various Breeder near me and the price was like 4000-7000$ depending on breed. Checked local adds etc and keep reading stuff about scams and such. Checked into adoption and all they have around seems to be pitbull mixes. So that was a bummer. I’ve gained weight that I’ve never had. Which people keep saying that I look much healthier. I agree that I do. But, I’m still not used to that feeling of the extra weight and my clothes fitting properly lol. I’ve been struggling to get back into my routine because my medications have taken my anxious energy away. Honestly never thought that would be something that I would have to adjust to or miss. Minus the extra side effects of anxiety. Today I finally felt like I was ready to start my yoga routine again. 😔 I couldn’t complete the whole routine and I can feel all the progression that I’ve lost... That’s extremely depressing to me. Trying to stay positive that at least I’m able to do it at all. Even if it’s just a little. I thought I’d come here to vent some. If you’re also feeling like your recovery is 1 step forward 2-3 steps back. Know that you’re not alone in this feeling and try to push on to the next day. Try pushing the negative aside and make a list of some of the good things. As hard as that may be or how little they seem. Those little accomplishments will lead you to bigger ones. Thanks for hearing me out. I wish you all much love even if I don’t know you and a better rest of the day if yours is starting off not so great like mine. ❤

Keep up the positive attitude! For emotional support pet, have you considered red-eared slider turtle as an option? They are relatively low-maintenance and they eat leafy greens and pellets so you don't have to go out of the way. They swim around and play with other turtle if you keep more than one and spend majority of their time basking.

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The good thing is you are getting back to yoga. So take it slow and work on your recovery process :) You're always welcome to vent here.
 
I think im going crazy I’ve started having weird intrusive thoughts and weird ass ideas :/

Maybe you're just bored :unsure: I sometimes have weird ideas and random thoughts but it only happens when I'm bored out of my mind, could be related, I'm not too sure 😅
 
So today I found myself an emotional support puppy. I get to pick her up this Thursday. Kinda sucked cause I wasn’t even allowed to hold her. I’m extremely excited. But, of course I’m terrified... Because of my mental health. Hopefully the new responsibility will help me out with my recover. I haven’t picked out a name for her yet. So feel free to recommend some.
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So today I found myself an emotional support puppy. I get to pick her up this Thursday. Kinda sucked cause I wasn’t even allowed to hold her. I’m extremely excited. But, of course I’m terrified... Because of my mental health. Hopefully the new responsibility will help me out with my recover. I haven’t picked out a name for her yet. So feel free to recommend some. View attachment 275297

She's adorable! How about Cocoa? It's pretty common and she has that brown and white mix like hot chocolate with milk :)
 
So far I’ve got 2 names in mind. Dulce as in Sweet and Canela as in Cinnamon. Canela is also Isabelle Español name.😊

They're both very fitting names! Which ever you choose will be fine. I'm sure the dog will be well-loved. Enjoy many lovely moments together and create many wonderful memories. Continue on with your recovery and all the best wishes! :)
 
I think im going crazy I’ve started having weird intrusive thoughts and weird ass ideas :/
Please don't feel like you're going crazy, I also had this issue start when I was a teenager. It is hard to explain to someone who has never experienced this but finding a therapist was the best decision I ever made. It helped bring my thoughts some peace, if that makes sense.

I hope things start feeling better soon :)
 
I’ve been busy with the puppy. But, I thought I’d give an update. I’m already starting to see ways she improves my life. She forces me to be more active and not let my temper get ahold of me. I took her to the Vet interacted with people at the store. I asked lots of questions without freaking or getting sick! An she’s definitely mischievous lol!! She makes me laugh more often and I feel less lonely. Also today I was able to get through my entire Yoga routine today! Surprisingly she doesn’t go crazy trying to play or bite during my routine. She sleeps in the bed with me and just chews her toys till I wake up. She does this cute squeaking bark whenever she feels like I’m to far away. It feels nice being needed. I’ve only had her for a weekend and I love her so much. Looking back now of how scared I was at first and my fears of not being ready for such responsibility. I’m proud that I took the step forward. I made this decision. Without my mental health getting the better of me. I really hope you are all having a good day.
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Going to talk about what has happened with me recently as I don't really have anywhere else and it's better to get it off my chest.

Anxiety is one of my main struggles and a couple of weeks ago I was in a very bad state (suicidal thoughts, self-harm relapse after a few months without) and my therapist said that I needed benzos. Anyone who knows what benzos can do understands that it should not be a simple idea and instead something that you talk thoroughly with your psychiatrist with so that they make sure that it's the right treatment plan for you, at least in a setting that isn't for recreational use. I was like okay sure, I didn't really think about it too much. They came the exact same day they were suggested without any further discussion. I was given Valium and they told me my prescription would be renewed after a few days. I should have never been given them in the first place. I was pretty anxious about it at first, I was aware this wasn't well thought out but I was willing to take the risk as after 6-7 years of extensive therapy there weren't really any meds that have worked for me. After taking them I had never felt better in my life and it gave me so much hope that things would get better, the effect was overwhelmingly positive which ended up making things so much worse. After the one prescription I got that was it. They changed their mind because of it's addictive nature. So why would they give me them to start with? It was for nothing. It should've never been an option for me and I'm already feeling the effects they tried to avoid. My mum was scolded over it since I took 2 tablets a day instead of 1, even though they previously stated that this was completely fine if I really needed that, I felt like I did, and the packet said that as well (which they felt like denying too) they panicked and lied to save face. Needless to say I got very desperate after this, I felt like everything was coming together only for it to be smashed into pieces. I still feel this way, so not only has my mood crashed even further than before, it has given me a craving for something that I would have never been interested in if it wasn't for the mess that they put me through. The fact that this isn't an offence to them is beyond me. It must be commonplace to mistreat patients like this.


I hope all of you are well and if you are receiving therapy, I hope you have a decent human being you can comfortably trust and talk to. I don't know if I want advice or not but feel free to share any that you might have. Even if you don't thanks for reading regardless.
 
Going to talk about what has happened with me recently as I don't really have anywhere else and it's better to get it off my chest.

Anxiety is one of my main struggles and a couple of weeks ago I was in a very bad state (suicidal thoughts, self-harm relapse after a few months without) and my therapist said that I needed benzos. Anyone who knows what benzos can do understands that it should not be a simple idea and instead something that you talk thoroughly with your psychiatrist with so that they make sure that it's the right treatment plan for you, at least in a setting that isn't for recreational use. I was like okay sure, I didn't really think about it too much. They came the exact same day they were suggested without any further discussion. I was given Valium and they told me my prescription would be renewed after a few days. I should have never been given them in the first place. I was pretty anxious about it at first, I was aware this wasn't well thought out but I was willing to take the risk as after 6-7 years of extensive therapy there weren't really any meds that have worked for me. After taking them I had never felt better in my life and it gave me so much hope that things would get better, the effect was overwhelmingly positive which ended up making things so much worse. After the one prescription I got that was it. They changed their mind because of it's addictive nature. So why would they give me them to start with? It was for nothing. It should've never been an option for me and I'm already feeling the effects they tried to avoid. My mum was scolded over it since I took 2 tablets a day instead of 1, even though they previously stated that this was completely fine if I really needed that, I felt like I did, and the packet said that as well (which they felt like denying too) they panicked and lied to save face. Needless to say I got very desperate after this, I felt like everything was coming together only for it to be smashed into pieces. I still feel this way, so not only has my mood crashed even further than before, it has given me a craving for something that I would have never been interested in if it wasn't for the mess that they put me through. The fact that this isn't an offence to them is beyond me. It must be commonplace to mistreat patients like this.


I hope all of you are well and if you are receiving therapy, I hope you have a decent human being you can comfortably trust and talk to. I don't know if I want advice or not but feel free to share any that you might have. Even if you don't thanks for reading regardless.

I've read your account of the events that transpired. I'm terribly sorry that you had to go through that experience. No decent human being should have the heart to do something like that to someone else! I hope you find another alternative that does not require any medication! Feel free to use this thread as a means to get something off your chest :)
 
just wanted to let out my thoughts at the moment here since i've been feeling disconnected with my friends irl

honestly it's like im just playing acnh to distract myself, but i havent really been enjoying it or any other video game as much as i used to, and it really sucks. i've really lost interest in things i love. im just drifting by, day to day, until the day i finally decide to.. end it. i've made so much mistakes in my life and i can't see any other option besides that tbh.
 
Going to talk about what has happened with me recently as I don't really have anywhere else and it's better to get it off my chest.

Anxiety is one of my main struggles and a couple of weeks ago I was in a very bad state (suicidal thoughts, self-harm relapse after a few months without) and my therapist said that I needed benzos. Anyone who knows what benzos can do understands that it should not be a simple idea and instead something that you talk thoroughly with your psychiatrist with so that they make sure that it's the right treatment plan for you, at least in a setting that isn't for recreational use. I was like okay sure, I didn't really think about it too much. They came the exact same day they were suggested without any further discussion. I was given Valium and they told me my prescription would be renewed after a few days. I should have never been given them in the first place. I was pretty anxious about it at first, I was aware this wasn't well thought out but I was willing to take the risk as after 6-7 years of extensive therapy there weren't really any meds that have worked for me. After taking them I had never felt better in my life and it gave me so much hope that things would get better, the effect was overwhelmingly positive which ended up making things so much worse. After the one prescription I got that was it. They changed their mind because of it's addictive nature. So why would they give me them to start with? It was for nothing. It should've never been an option for me and I'm already feeling the effects they tried to avoid. My mum was scolded over it since I took 2 tablets a day instead of 1, even though they previously stated that this was completely fine if I really needed that, I felt like I did, and the packet said that as well (which they felt like denying too) they panicked and lied to save face. Needless to say I got very desperate after this, I felt like everything was coming together only for it to be smashed into pieces. I still feel this way, so not only has my mood crashed even further than before, it has given me a craving for something that I would have never been interested in if it wasn't for the mess that they put me through. The fact that this isn't an offence to them is beyond me. It must be commonplace to mistreat patients like this.


I hope all of you are well and if you are receiving therapy, I hope you have a decent human being you can comfortably trust and talk to. I don't know if I want advice or not but feel free to share any that you might have. Even if you don't thanks for reading regardless.
A long time ago I was put on Valium for my anxiety. Nothing else seem to work for me at the time. I actually stopped taking them and stopped seeking help because my family gave me no support. A cousin that I never even interact with told my father that I was a addict or would become one. Since then I’ve had it as a prescription for my treatment several times. It really hurts being labeled a a addict. Benzodiazepines are a pretty scary thing. I used to think they were the only solution to my anxieties. I’ve been on all different strengths and versions of them. The best way I can describe them is a temporary solution or bandaids. This is my experience.... But they lose effectiveness the longer you take them. Which requires you to increase the dose till you can’t anymore. Your body begins to rely on them and my anxiety would occasionally hit me still. Only those days were worse because the benzos were just damming up an ocean of anxiety. I’m extremely sorry that you had to experience that temporary freedom from anxiety only to have it ripped away from you. It’s a horrible pain to feel hopeful and then hopeless. I’d suggest that you talk to them again about the Valium if you really feel like it would be a necessary step towards your recovery. Cause for all the scary things associated with benzodiazepines they can truly help. They’re definitely not the solution. Trust from experience don’t view them as your solution. They’re best when combined with other long term treatments that are not addictive. They’re best reserved as a sorta last resort on the days when your other meds and other anxiety exercises aren’t helping. But, I can tell you something. Look how far you’ve made it before the benzos. I’m sure that it’s taking every bit of your strength to make it through a day, week, year. But, you’re strong because you’re still fighting. If you keep trying and keep picking yourself and working to find people who can help you. You can find freedom from this. Mine was a very long road to get to a place that I feel comfortable most of my days. It’s hard to see anything positive when anxiety makes everything so negative. But, never lose hope! Never give in! Pick yourself up! It’s time to mend! ❤️
 
honestly it's like im just playing acnh to distract myself, but i havent really been enjoying it or any other video game as much as i used to, and it really sucks. i've really lost interest in things i love. im just drifting by, day to day, until the day i finally decide to.. end it. i've made so much mistakes in my life and i can't see any other option besides that tbh.

Hey! Your thoughts are distorted, they don't reflect reality at all. I don't know you, but I can relate in some way. For me, I just had nothing going on in my life and jumping from game to game made it seem like I had some purpose in life, but it didn't even feel like it. I pretty much ignored life because I thought I wouldn't be alive in 2020 anyway. But I am, and so are you. And that's great.

I checked out your profile to find your age, and I just want to say you're still so young. You're younger than me, you have all the possibilities in the world. Most mental health professionals tell me that I'm still so young and that while my path will continue to be more difficult than others, it's still very doable with the help I'm asking for now.

Many people don't find their purpose in life until they're 40, and then they can still enjoy that for 20 more years if it's in the work force. Life is so long, don't worry about this year or the next 5 years. You have so much life ahead of you, please don't think you deserve anything less than a good future.

You should really get professional help because your thinking can be rewired, it's seems very banal but it'll help you so much. Find more active hobbies, get a good sleeping schedule and don't worry about having to do everything at once. You don't. Habits are created gradually, and you need better habits as a foundation for your mental health.

I hope I didn't overstep, but your story sounds exactly like mine and it does get better. All your teenage mistakes won't matter down the road, there are people your age who are working on their GED right now and they'll be fine too. Your efforts won't be compared to a neurotypical person, at least not from professionals.
 
Mental health is important for your overall wellbeing and knowing that many people are suffering from various predicaments (abuse, neglect, social anxiety, etc) use online platforms as a means to escape, let this thread be a place of sharing, advice and counselling.

Especially with Covid-19 madness going on, quarantine and lockdown can create a lot of victims, do not be afraid to share and for the listeners (readers), be considerate and kind when giving advice or comforts.

Gaming together is also a great way to alleviate loneliness and relaxes the mind (the slow pace of AC), encourage sharing of friend codes with other people on this thread to eliminate loneliness :)

Please note that sharing can be sensitive, please respect other people's lives and stories (strictly private and confidential outside of this thread).
I hear a lot of people saying COVID-19 has made their mental health worse, but for me I’ve been getting better. I started taking medicine for my anxiety and depression and it’s helped tremendously with my depression. I found my new passion of baking which makes me super happy when I get to make things. I have really bad social anxiety so being home or inviting one friend over at a time per week has given me enough time to socialize with my friends so I’m not lonely but also not be around people 24/7. I’m 16 so I live with my parents still and we have a big farm with a huge pond/lake and forest behind our house which is really beautiful and I feel like I’ve started to see the beauty in everything again. When I struggled With depression summers were always the worst for me, but now I really enjoy it. I feel like my life is finally starting to get better and my mental health is good besides my anxiety but I’ve found ways to manage for now.
 
I hear a lot of people saying COVID-19 has made their mental health worse, but for me I’ve been getting better. I started taking medicine for my anxiety and depression and it’s helped tremendously with my depression. I found my new passion of baking which makes me super happy when I get to make things. I have really bad social anxiety so being home or inviting one friend over at a time per week has given me enough time to socialize with my friends so I’m not lonely but also not be around people 24/7. I’m 16 so I live with my parents still and we have a big farm with a huge pond/lake and forest behind our house which is really beautiful and I feel like I’ve started to see the beauty in everything again. When I struggled With depression summers were always the worst for me, but now I really enjoy it. I feel like my life is finally starting to get better and my mental health is good besides my anxiety but I’ve found ways to manage for now.

There's always both sides to a situation and I'm glad you are on the good mental wellbeing side! Hope you stay safe and your mental health remain in the highs! :giggle:
 
I talked to them and it didn't turn out so great. I basically just told them that what they did was wrong and I could never trust them with supporting me again. They offered me more Valium and I thought about what Patisserie said so as much as I wanted them or thought that I needed them I knew it wouldn't help me in the long run. What baffles me is that they were willing to supply me more despite all of their talk against it and that doesn't sit right with me at all. I don't really know how to describe it other than how untrustworthy they are. I might be discharged from the facility soon which sucks because I really need help on a bunch of issues, my mental health is crumbling so much, I just don't feel comfortable with these people. I don't think it will be possible to talk to a new doctor so I'm not really sure where to go from here. I've been waiting on another call back to post a better update on where things are right now but they haven't gotten back to me even though we scheduled a date, this has happened many times and they don't let me know when they can reschedule until days later.
 
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