I talked to them and it didn't turn out so great. I basically just told them that what they did was wrong and I could never trust them with supporting me again. They offered me more Valium and I thought about what Patisserie said so as much as I wanted them or thought that I needed them I knew it wouldn't help me in the long run. What baffles me is that they were willing to supply me more despite all of their talk against it and that doesn't sit right with me at all. I don't really know how to describe it other than how untrustworthy they are. I might be discharged from the facility soon which sucks because I really need help on a bunch of issues, my mental health is crumbling so much, I just don't feel comfortable with these people. I don't think it will be possible to talk to a new doctor so I'm not really sure where to go from here. I've been waiting on another call back to post a better update on where things are right now but they haven't gotten back to me even though we scheduled a date, this has happened many times and they don't let me know when they can reschedule until days later.
It’s good to hear that you stood up for yourself. It’s an extremely difficult thing to do for people without anxiety etc. Especially when they offered scripts to you again. I wouldn’t have felt so confident in them either if they had offered them again. Considering how they previously handled it. I’m really sorry to hear about the difficulties in finding new docs etc. I know from experience how depressing/despairing it can be to look for help and feeling like you always come up empty handed. Now more than ever your focus should be on the present day and go from there. It sounds so stupid to say. But, with time it can help. Day by day. Trt not to let the worry of tomorrow, next week, etc overwhelm you. Just do what you can each day. Try not to be so hard on yourself for bad days either. Just come here and vent to us.
I’ve been really busy with the puppy lately. So I haven’t been online much or been able to play much animal crossing. My roommates girlfriend moved in last week so I’ve been adjusting to that. Things seem to be going well and we get along. I still get kinda anxious and nauseous when I spend to much time conversing with new people sadly. The whole adjusting to a new person is something that I really struggle with. I also wanted to share something that I’m kinda proud of. It’s such a small thing... But, for it was huge! I had been farming nook miles and island hopping randomly last week looking for a new Villager. I’m trying to collect all the new ones. Since it’s my first AC game too. I was about to just give up. But, then I thought to check the forums. Somebody was giving away villagers from a island they were restarting. They had Audie and Cyd... I asked if Audie was still available still. She was! I got their dodo code went and invited Audie! That was pretty awesome in itself. But, I’m proud! Because, I asked and I went to a strangers island for the first time! It’s kinda silly. But, I mean this is coming from a person who took a week before getting the courage to even join the forums lol! Tonight I’m also anxious because I have an appointment tomorrow and it’s face to face! Wish I could just do another virtual visit. But, my psych wants to see me in person. The whole medical building and COVID-19 stuff is enough to have my anxiety screaming nope!! I am however excited to tell her about these forums and how I found a place to vent with others who have similar issues. Let her know my progress with the new roommate and the puppy. Lastly Chai has a Vet check up Saturday that I hope goes well. She’s pretty pampered with daily brushing. teeth brushing and ear cleaning. I also learned that it’s getting close to spaying decision time and this one is a doozy for me... I’m really on the fence about it and thinking about it to much gives me a headache. I thought I’d ask if anyone here had opinions or experiences that they might share with me. I just want the best for her. She’s become such an important part of my recovery and life. With that I’m going to try to get some rest rest. I wish you all comfort, peace, and always a brighter day than the previous ones. Much love Patisserie and Chai️
I just started seeing a therapist on Tuesday for the first time in my life. I have a lot of childhood trauma as well as some mental illnesses and, not to cast blame on them and not myself, those things have been the root of a lot of my problems looking back. It feels good to finally start unpacking this stuff for real, even if it's hard.
I talked to them and it didn't turn out so great. I basically just told them that what they did was wrong and I could never trust them with supporting me again. They offered me more Valium and I thought about what Patisserie said so as much as I wanted them or thought that I needed them I knew it wouldn't help me in the long run. What baffles me is that they were willing to supply me more despite all of their talk against it and that doesn't sit right with me at all. I don't really know how to describe it other than how untrustworthy they are. I might be discharged from the facility soon which sucks because I really need help on a bunch of issues, my mental health is crumbling so much, I just don't feel comfortable with these people. I don't think it will be possible to talk to a new doctor so I'm not really sure where to go from here. I've been waiting on another call back to post a better update on where things are right now but they haven't gotten back to me even though we scheduled a date, this has happened many times and they don't let me know when they can reschedule until days later.
I'm sadden to hear about your update. It's also baffling to know that people that we seek for help will be so heartless and inconsiderate to their patients. With everything going on, it might be awhile before you might be able to talk to a new doctor but do not lose hope. Things will get better, you only need time. Like what Patisserie said, focus on the present day and go from there. Wish you all the best and stay safe and feel free to reach out to Patisserie if you need support and guidance
I’ve been really busy with the puppy lately. So I haven’t been online much or been able to play much animal crossing. My roommates girlfriend moved in last week so I’ve been adjusting to that. Things seem to be going well and we get along. I still get kinda anxious and nauseous when I spend to much time conversing with new people sadly. The whole adjusting to a new person is something that I really struggle with. I also wanted to share something that I’m kinda proud of. It’s such a small thing... But, for it was huge! I had been farming nook miles and island hopping randomly last week looking for a new Villager. I’m trying to collect all the new ones. Since it’s my first AC game too. I was about to just give up. But, then I thought to check the forums. Somebody was giving away villagers from a island they were restarting. They had Audie and Cyd... I asked if Audie was still available still. She was! I got their dodo code went and invited Audie! That was pretty awesome in itself. But, I’m proud! Because, I asked and I went to a strangers island for the first time! It’s kinda silly. But, I mean this is coming from a person who took a week before getting the courage to even join the forums lol! Tonight I’m also anxious because I have an appointment tomorrow and it’s face to face! Wish I could just do another virtual visit. But, my psych wants to see me in person. The whole medical building and COVID-19 stuff is enough to have my anxiety screaming nope!! I am however excited to tell her about these forums and how I found a place to vent with others who have similar issues. Let her know my progress with the new roommate and the puppy. Lastly Chai has a Vet check up Saturday that I hope goes well. She’s pretty pampered with daily brushing. teeth brushing and ear cleaning. I also learned that it’s getting close to spaying decision time and this one is a doozy for me... I’m really on the fence about it and thinking about it to much gives me a headache. I thought I’d ask if anyone here had opinions or experiences that they might share with me. I just want the best for her. She’s become such an important part of my recovery and life. With that I’m going to try to get some rest rest. I wish you all comfort, peace, and always a brighter day than the previous ones. Much love Patisserie and Chai❤View attachment 287545
I'm glad to see Chai doing well! Congratulations on taking big steps by interacting with your roommate's girlfriend and trading on NH with strangers! You'll only getting stronger and more confident as you grow About spaying, my 5 dogs and 4 cats are all female and spayed. Partially because my mother did not want them to have offsprings. My pets do not feel the need to mate or go through 'heat' or mating period after they've been spayed. It's best to spay them when they are still young and strong enough because they will recover faster than when you spay them when they are older
I just started seeing a therapist on Tuesday for the first time in my life. I have a lot of childhood trauma as well as some mental illnesses and, not to cast blame on them and not myself, those things have been the root of s lot of my problems looking back. It feels good to finally start unpacking this stuff for real, even if it's hard.
Good luck with this new chapter in your life! Once you learn to let go of your roots, you'll slowly start to transform and be mentally well again. Don't let the past haunt you and stop you from being the best you can be. Stay strong and stay safe! 29 is still young
I had a bad day today, worse than usual. I got my exam results back, and I failed. I wasted all that time being in a college level class only for me to not earn the credit. I had an A for all 4 quarters but I guess I was just lucky. I failed a nationwide exam, for the first time. All previous tests I’ve passed, but not this one. I just didn’t put enough effort because I was slacking off during the quarantine and I just don’t do well being taught online. I had to take that test on my computer that contained 2 questions with 30 minutes to take 11 parts, and 20 minutes to take 8 parts. It was just too much to handle and I ended up blanking out. Many people around the world had to take those exams, sometimes at 2 am or later because we all had to take it at the exact same time. On top of that, so many if those servers crashed and prevented some students from submitting their answers. We had to do all of our work on paper, take a picture through my phone, send it to myself via email, and then submit it to the website. But I know I still had no excuse for failing.
I felt pretty bad about myself and thought I was a failure and how I ruined my chances to study at my dream college and that I was stupider than my classmates who would laugh at me for not passing. I thought I let down my whole family, especially my mother. Thankfully, my mother wasn’t too angry with me at first, but then when my dad came home they became stern with me lol. Now I have a clear idea on what classes I’ll take next year, and I’m not risking my gpa by taking 4+ college-level high school classes. Instead, I’m starting my college gpa by actually taking some classes offered by a community college while keeping my electives in high school.
I know I still have to retake the exam (in my half Chinese household, there’s no question about that lol) so I‘ll retake it next year and put some more effort in studying.
Thank you for making this thread @Mayor Ng as well as your continuous support for other strangers here on the internet!
I had a bad day today, worse than usual. I got my exam results back, and I failed. I wasted all that time being in a college level class only for me to not earn the credit. I had an A for all 4 quarters but I guess I was just lucky. I failed a nationwide exam, for the first time. All previous tests I’ve passed, but not this one. I just didn’t put enough effort because I was slacking off during the quarantine and I just don’t do well being taught online. I had to take that test on my computer that contained 2 questions with 30 minutes to take 11 parts, and 20 minutes to take 8 parts. It was just too much to handle and I ended up blanking out. Many people around the world had to take those exams, sometimes at 2 am or later because we all had to take it at the exact same time. On top of that, so many if those servers crashed and prevented some students from submitting their answers. We had to do all of our work on paper, take a picture through my phone, send it to myself via email, and then submit it to the website.
I felt pretty bad about myself and thought I was a failure and how I ruined my chances to study at my dream college and that I was stupider than my classmates who would laugh at me for not passing. I thought I let down my whole family, especially my mother. Thankfully, my mother wasn’t too angry with me at first, but then when my dad came home they became stern with me lol. Now I have a clear idea on what classes I’ll take next year, and I’m not risking my gpa by taking 4+ college-level high school classes. Instead, I’m starting my college gpa by actually taking some classes offered by a community college while keeping my electives in high school.
I know I still have to retake the exam (in my half Chinese household, there’s no question about that lol) so I‘ll retake it next year and put some more effort in studying.
Don't be too harsh on yourself. Not everyone is good at academia and not everyone is good at focusing during classes, more so online classes. There's always a next time, as long as you continue improving that's all that matters
For higher education, whatever institution you go to, if it's not one of the big names, then there's no difference. Grades are important in academia (higher grades land you in more prestigious institutions) but not as important as people think in the job market. Everyone will graduate with a degree or some form of certification, including the ones that barely meet the requirements to graduated. Many employers don't care about your grades, they care about how you present yourself and whether you have a degree or higher qualifications and whether you have experience outside of academia. Networking and connections are important!
I'm also from a half Chinese household and I have an elder sister that is an examplary student that gets straight As and excel in academia, I do well myself but constantly overshadowed by my sister I chose to focus more on real life skills than solely on academia but parents don't really see or turn a blind eye to those things.
Good luck in your future attempts and all the best wishes! Stay safe as well both mentally and physically during this trying times!
Don't be too harsh on yourself. Not everyone is good at academia and not everyone is good at focusing during classes, more so online classes. There's always a next time, as long as you continue improving that's all that matters
For higher education, whatever institution you go to, if it's not one of the big names, then there's no difference. Grades are important in academia (higher grades land you in more prestigious institutions) but not as important as people think in the job market. Everyone will graduate with a degree or some form of certification, including the ones that barely meet the requirements to graduated. Many employers don't care about your grades, they care about how you present yourself and whether you have a degree or higher qualifications and whether you have experience outside of academia. Networking and connections are important!
I'm also from a half Chinese household and I have an elder sister that is an examplary student that gets straight As and excel in academia, I do well myself but constantly overshadowed by my sister I chose to focus more on real life skills than solely on academia but parents don't really see or turn a blind eye to those things.
Good luck in your future attempts and all the best wishes! Stay safe as well both mentally and physically during this trying times!
Venting a little made me feel a bit better actually! I’m trying to help my parents save money with the college credit so that they don’t have to pay. I want to try to be in the medical field and earn my a doctor’s degree (which is a pretty far reach from now) just like my mom. By taking college classes for free provided by my school, I guess I am saving money somehow! I always found myself better at certain academics than real life skills, but I think both are good to work at! My dad never completed college, but with hard work and being pushed on by my mom, he now makes the same amount, even more, than my pharmacist mom. He’s pretty good at life skills, and my mom is good at academics. What a balance lol. I think I’ll be okay. Thank you again! Stay safe as well!
I had a bad day today, worse than usual. I got my exam results back, and I failed. I wasted all that time being in a college level class only for me to not earn the credit. I had an A for all 4 quarters but I guess I was just lucky. I failed a nationwide exam, for the first time. All previous tests I’ve passed, but not this one. I just didn’t put enough effort because I was slacking off during the quarantine and I just don’t do well being taught online. I had to take that test on my computer that contained 2 questions with 30 minutes to take 11 parts, and 20 minutes to take 8 parts. It was just too much to handle and I ended up blanking out. Many people around the world had to take those exams, sometimes at 2 am or later because we all had to take it at the exact same time. On top of that, so many if those servers crashed and prevented some students from submitting their answers. We had to do all of our work on paper, take a picture through my phone, send it to myself via email, and then submit it to the website. But I know I still had no excuse for failing.
I felt pretty bad about myself and thought I was a failure and how I ruined my chances to study at my dream college and that I was stupider than my classmates who would laugh at me for not passing. I thought I let down my whole family, especially my mother. Thankfully, my mother wasn’t too angry with me at first, but then when my dad came home they became stern with me lol. Now I have a clear idea on what classes I’ll take next year, and I’m not risking my gpa by taking 4+ college-level high school classes. Instead, I’m starting my college gpa by actually taking some classes offered by a community college while keeping my electives in high school.
I know I still have to retake the exam (in my half Chinese household, there’s no question about that lol) so I‘ll retake it next year and put some more effort in studying.
Thank you for making this thread @Mayor Ng as well as your continuous support for other strangers here on the internet!
I’ve had some rather odd situations throughout my schooling. Never really had to study to much and got good grades. Took honors and AP classes. However when I finally reached my High School Completion exams I failed by literally 1 point in history. It really felt like a huge slap in the face. I went through a similar shame spiral. Thinking that I let my parents down and I was stupid. That my friends would look down on me etc. I had to start college later then my friends which really sucked. Once I got into college I struggled to maintain 4 classes... that also made me feel bad. My friends didn’t really seem to struggle much with it. It didn’t help that my courses and degree were decided by my family. Plus college has it’s own kinda randomness with teachers. Some I just couldn’t understand or learn from. While others I completely got and learned lots. I had to take a step back and reduce my classes to 2 at community college. It took me longer. But, I was able to handle it all better. People with mental illness tend to put a lot of pressure on ourselves. Then you add in family, friends, society. It really becomes overwhelming. Especially when we feel that we’re falling short of those standards. It’s hard to keep in mind how different we all are when we are placed into these cookie cutter molds. I’m glad your family wasn’t to harsh and that you are still moving forward with a plan that suits you better. I hope that the psych brings you immense relief and help with your problems. Plus you always have these forums to vent. Remember the wise words of Pooh.
I’ve had some rather odd situations throughout my schooling. Never really had to study to much and got good grades. Took honors and AP classes. However when I finally reached my High School Completion exams I failed by literally 1 point in history. It really felt like a huge slap in the face. I went through a similar shame spiral. Thinking that I let my parents down and I was stupid. That my friends would look down on me etc. I had to start college later then my friends which really sucked. Once I got into college I struggled to maintain 4 classes... that also made me feel bad. My friends didn’t really seem to struggle much with it. It didn’t help that my courses and degree were decided by my family. Plus college has it’s own kinda randomness with teachers. Some I just couldn’t understand or learn from. While others I completely got and learned lots. I had to take a step back and reduce my classes to 2 at community college. It took me longer. But, I was able to handle it all better. People with mental illness tend to put a lot of pressure on ourselves. Then you add in family, friends, society. It really becomes overwhelming. Especially when we feel that we’re falling short of those standards. It’s hard to keep in mind how different we all are when we are placed into these cookie cutter molds. I’m glad your family wasn’t to harsh and that you are still moving forward with a plan that suits you better. I hope that the psych brings you immense relief and help with your problems. Plus you always have these forums to vent. Remember the wise words of Pooh.View attachment 287657
I’m really glad to know that others have been through the same thing as me on here. Yeah, I was taking the AP Chemistry exam. I never did fantastic with the test scores, but I was smart on the extra credit which I took advantage of every time. With more studying effort (now that I’m about to take on 3 real college classes for the first time) I’ll be sure to stay on top of everything else. I should start stopping to smell the roses, which is to appreciate my family not being too harsh on me, helping me with future plans, and having this forum with a lot of amazing people that help each other out with everything. By the way, I do love those Winnie The Pooh quotes, they’re positively adorable. Thank you so much!
I've been diagnosed with a number of issues, the worst of which are: clinical depression, severe generalized anxiety, and ptsd. I don't mind talking about all of it in more detail on a one on one basis in private messages or what not, but that's all I'll put here. Is there a thread for physical issues here? I have a lot of chronic health issues too unfortunately. I also tend to say sorry a lot and feel everything is my fault and anytime I talk to anyone I'm bugging them and taking way from other things they need to be doing. I've never been able to get any proper therapy or treatment for anything due to not having money or no other doctors to see as there are only so many that are covered for me. So yeah, I guess I'll just leave this here. Thanks for reading <3
my thoughts and how my mental health is need to escape onto this thread again, it's the only safe place i know.
I don't know if I officially have any issues since i haven't seen a professional... but.. currently it feels like i'm scared of the world. Currently what i'm most horrified of is heights, the dark, and just being hated and people... speaking, etc.
Since the whole covid thing, i've been crying myself to sleep almost every night. I can't go a week without doing so. It's always for around the same reasons: Being pushed aside in my past, having zero talent unlike everyone else I know, or what someone said to me that day or in the past.
I find that the more and more I hear someone speak to me in person or through a webchat, sometimes text, the more and more I hate people which just makes how I feel worse. And it gets even worse because I can't come out of the closet because of what my family believes in.
I'm just trapped inside that small closet inside my mind.
Telling someone about how I feel horrifies me. Things people have said to me have happened enough times that I can just predict what they're going to say. For example, when I was 4, I was told no by my siblings to hang out so many times that I don't even bother hanging out with them anymore.
My life is a mess. It seems like whenever I just begin to have a grand ol' time, someone barges in and ruins it.
Honestly I would make cuts in myself, i'm just too horrified of chopping myself off. (lol that's weird to explain out loud)
The only thing I have to 'cope' is a squishy I got 2 years ago. I didn't think i'd need it, but lately I've been using it if I feel the need to strangle something when someone is being annoying or i'm just so mad and feel like more garbage than I am. It doesn't really help, though...
But, it just seems like it keeps getting worse. Especially on my birthday, almost 3 weeks ago. None of my friends seemed to respect my special day. They kept calling me 12 years old because of how much of a late bloomer I am. All they could say was 'happy 12th birthday, you're almost a teenager' and that kind of thing. They ruined my birthday. Especially at the fact that they KNOW this bothers me to the point where I will not be their friend anymore.
I've been mistreated my whole life I feel now. Nobody has ever seemed to respect me for who I am and my feelings.
I have really bad anxiety and am always worried about everything which has to be bad for my mental health
I also think I may have depression but I can't tell my parents that, they would freak out so I just, I'm not doing that
And then I always have friends venting to me which I think may be affecting my mental health also but I don't want to tell them that..
I'm just so sad and down all the time and it feels like the weight of the world is on my shoulders
My mental health is such a mess and I don't know what to do
Not to mention the
I've been diagnosed with a number of issues, the worst of which are: clinical depression, severe generalized anxiety, and ptsd. I don't mind talking about all of it in more detail on a one on one basis in private messages or what not, but that's all I'll put here. Is there a thread for physical issues here? I have a lot of chronic health issues too unfortunately. I also tend to say sorry a lot and feel everything is my fault and anytime I talk to anyone I'm bugging them and taking way from other things they need to be doing. I've never been able to get any proper therapy or treatment for anything due to not having money or no other doctors to see as there are only so many that are covered for me. So yeah, I guess I'll just leave this here. Thanks for reading <3
I'm not a psychiatrist but if you need a listening ear, feel free to private message me. I'm not sure if there's a thread for physical issues on TBT but I do hope your health issues get better. IMO you're lacking a little self-worth, it's okay to reach out for help (you don't have to be sorry about it) when you do need help, do not try to suffer alone when you can avoid it A genuinely nice person would lend you some time to help you out no matter how busy he/ she is
my thoughts and how my mental health is need to escape onto this thread again, it's the only safe place i know.
I don't know if I officially have any issues since i haven't seen a professional... but.. currently it feels like i'm scared of the world. Currently what i'm most horrified of is heights, the dark, and just being hated and people... speaking, etc.
Since the whole covid thing, i've been crying myself to sleep almost every night. I can't go a week without doing so. It's always for around the same reasons: Being pushed aside in my past, having zero talent unlike everyone else I know, or what someone said to me that day or in the past.
I find that the more and more I hear someone speak to me in person or through a webchat, sometimes text, the more and more I hate people which just makes how I feel worse. And it gets even worse because I can't come out of the closet because of what my family believes in.
I'm just trapped inside that small closet inside my mind.
Telling someone about how I feel horrifies me. Things people have said to me have happened enough times that I can just predict what they're going to say. For example, when I was 4, I was told no by my siblings to hang out so many times that I don't even bother hanging out with them anymore.
My life is a mess. It seems like whenever I just begin to have a grand ol' time, someone barges in and ruins it.
Honestly I would make cuts in myself, i'm just too horrified of chopping myself off. (lol that's weird to explain out loud)
The only thing I have to 'cope' is a squishy I got 2 years ago. I didn't think i'd need it, but lately I've been using it if I feel the need to strangle something when someone is being annoying or i'm just so mad and feel like more garbage than I am. It doesn't really help, though...
But, it just seems like it keeps getting worse. Especially on my birthday, almost 3 weeks ago. None of my friends seemed to respect my special day. They kept calling me 12 years old because of how much of a late bloomer I am. All they could say was 'happy 12th birthday, you're almost a teenager' and that kind of thing. They ruined my birthday. Especially at the fact that they KNOW this bothers me to the point where I will not be their friend anymore.
I've been mistreated my whole life I feel now. Nobody has ever seemed to respect me for who I am and my feelings.
I'm glad this thread gave you a platform to share and feel safe. Fear of heights, the dark, and other peoples' judgements and opinions are very common and not necessarily a severe mental health issue. Although, if you are not too sure of yourself and would like an expert opinion, it is always best to see a professional with these matters
It seems to me you have a hard time letting go of the past and peoples' expectations There're not necessarily a bad thing, it just shows you are a pleaser and you would like to please and to be pleased. I used to be liked that until I realise that people are inherently selfish and value ourselves more than another. I learnt to love and value me more and other people less. It didn't matter whether I lived up to their expectations or was I talented or not, as long as I was happy with how I lived, I am content I'm sorry that you have been mistreated your whole life, that can be a terrible experience, but if you respect and take care of yourself, everyone else will cease to matter. Not sure if my perspective is getting to you but if it did even just a little, that is wonderful!
Nonetheless, feel free to come back to this thread to express or share or rent, I'll always offer a 'listening ear', technically reading
I have really bad anxiety and am always worried about everything which has to be bad for my mental health
I also think I may have depression but I can't tell my parents that, they would freak out so I just, I'm not doing that
And then I always have friends venting to me which I think may be affecting my mental health also but I don't want to tell them that..
I'm just so sad and down all the time and it feels like the weight of the world is on my shoulders
My mental health is such a mess and I don't know what to do
Not to mention the
Friendly advise, if you think you have a mental issue or depression, please tell your family members. They may or may not freak out but it is better than having them feel guilty and terrible that they couldn't have helped in any way. If you feel like you need a breather, do not be afraid to tell your friends. You are a human being after all and being a friend, they would understand
Having suicidal thoughts is not good for your mental health and I hope you learn to value your life more for the sake of your family members! A suggestion would be to write down in a journal or diary things that make you upset or uncomfortable. Slowly find a remedy for each one and little by little chip away all that anxiety and concern. It's a nigh-impossible task to clear all your issues in one shot and very daunting but doing it little by little will help encourage positivity and productivity which is always a good remedy for anxiety and depression
Stay safe and hope your mental health improves Please try to refrain from having suicidal thoughts...
I'm not a psychiatrist but if you need a listening ear, feel free to private message me. I'm not sure if there's a thread for physical issues on TBT but I do hope your health issues get better. IMO you're lacking a little self-worth, it's okay to reach out for help (you don't have to be sorry about it) when you do need help, do not try to suffer alone when you can avoid it A genuinely nice person would lend you some time to help you out no matter how busy he/ she is
Thank you so much for your reply and thank you so much for being so kind and offering to listen. I really appreciate that. Thanks, I hope they get better too! Unfortunately, my health issues are chronic as in, things that don't go away. There's better days and worse days though, and I'm always very thankful for the better ones!
I know that I lack any self worth. I know I shouldn't, I have a lot of wrong thinking that's just been drilled into my head over the many years by repetition and repeated experience/abuse. I know that my thinking is wrong, I just don't know how to go about changing it (trying on my own hasn't worked). Unfortunately I am literally alone (besides my cats) all the time as I don't have any friends in real life and only see my parents (who are getting up there in age now) for brief periods, as I live by myself. I sort of feel like there is no help for me (for a lot of reasons, not just one). I agree completely that there are a ton of really wonderful kind and sweet people here on the forums, however with my level of trust issues (red zone case, as they say), not to mention my older age, and preferring real life meetings sort of makes me a bit stuck. I know this is my own fault, I just don't know how to go about fixing it. Thanks again for reading/listening, it's always appreciated! <3
P.S. If anyone ever needs a listening ear, feel free to drop me a message. You don't have to know me or have spoken with me, just go for it! I hate to see others in pain and/or all alone with no one they can talk to, so if there is anything I can ever do to help someone, I would love to do so, even if it's just listening. I will not give advice unless it is asked for (even then I'm hesitant) or throw useless platitudes at you, don't be shy! <3
my mental health has been on steady decline since covid, and also being far away from family when the pandemic hits really adds to everything. dealing with stress, rejection, loneliness, and anxiety on top of all of this. there’s only so much a person can take.
sometimes i feel like i’m one bad day away from screaming at the top of my lungs in the car or somewhere in the middle of nowhere. that sounds dramatic but that’s how i feel like when things just pile up.
i was too depressed the last few weeks, even ac couldn’t cheer me up. it’s not an escape anymore as it used to.
To everyone who has posted here in this thread about mental health, my heart sincerely goes out to you in ways you cannot imagine. If there is ever anything I can do to help anyone, I'm here if anyone ever needs an ear. You don't need to stay in silence. You don't need to stay alone. There are people who care and a lot of people are kind and amazingly caring. Don't ever give up and keep fighting, everyone! <3
Thank you so much for your reply and thank you so much for being so kind and offering to listen. I really appreciate that. Thanks, I hope they get better too! Unfortunately, my health issues are chronic as in, things that don't go away. There's better days and worse days though, and I'm always very thankful for the better ones!
I know that I lack any self worth. I know I shouldn't, I have a lot of wrong thinking that's just been drilled into my head over the many years by repetition and repeated experience/abuse. I know that my thinking is wrong, I just don't know how to go about changing it (trying on my own hasn't worked). Unfortunately I am literally alone (besides my cats) all the time as I don't have any friends in real life and only see my parents (who are getting up there in age now) for brief periods, as I live by myself. I sort of feel like there is no help for me (for a lot of reasons, not just one). I agree completely that there are a ton of really wonderful kind and sweet people here on the forums, however with my level of trust issues (red zone case, as they say), not to mention my older age, and preferring real life meetings sort of makes me a bit stuck. I know this is my own fault, I just don't know how to go about fixing it. Thanks again for reading/listening, it's always appreciated! <3
P.S. If anyone ever needs a listening ear, feel free to drop me a message. You don't have to know me or have spoken with me, just go for it! I hate to see others in pain and/or all alone with no one they can talk to, so if there is anything I can ever do to help someone, I would love to do so, even if it's just listening. I will not give advice unless it is asked for (even then I'm hesitant) or throw useless platitudes at you, don't be shy! <3
It's always a pleasure to be able to help in some ways My condolences for your chronic health issues and I hope you have better days than worse.
Here's a suggestion for your dilemma, find a local cafe or comfortable space, and frequent it often. With the pandemic still not receding at the moment, it is not a good idea to go out unless necessary but you could do some research on Google Map of your surroundings and read up reviews if available. It could be a safe place for you that is in a social environment and your frequent visits will be noticed by attentive staff members and slowly you could get to know the staff members and exchange greetings. This will slowly build up your confidence in yourself and there are no expectations set because you are a customer or a guest. Ideally, the staff members will be appreciative of your repeated patronage and be friendlier to you and maybe you'll make a friend or two from them outside of work
my mental health has been on steady decline since covid, and also being far away from family when the pandemic hits really adds to everything. dealing with stress, rejection, loneliness, and anxiety on top of all of this. there’s only so much a person can take.
sometimes i feel like i’m one bad day away from screaming at the top of my lungs in the car or somewhere in the middle of nowhere. that sounds dramatic but that’s how i feel like when things just pile up.
i was too depressed the last few weeks, even ac couldn’t cheer me up. it’s not an escape anymore as it used to.
Screaming and letting your emotions out can help release all the pent-up frustration. I recommend it. Don't worry about other people thinking you are crazy It actually does help! Stay safe out there and I hope you can be reunited with your family soon
I’ve been grieving about my dad’s passing for years now. He died back in 2016 and I still haven’t got over it. My mom recently went to see a friend of hers who is I guess can talk to spirits(it’s fine if you don’t believe in that kind of thing but I do) and she had told my mom that my dad said that I’m still grieving and that I should go visit my sister back in our hometown so we can be together. Mind you I never met this woman nor has she and my mom never told her about me or anything so I’m kinda shook. It gives me great comfort to know that because it shows to me that dad is still here with us and watching over us.
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I chose to focus more on real life skills than solely on academia but parents don't really see or turn a blind eye to those things.
