Okay, this is super depressing. August rent has been delayed week after week for reasons beyond my control. First it was for unfair reasons that my student loans withdrew $500 out of my account without my consent and the cheque would ave bounced. Next, my boyfriend didn't get paid a full work week unfairly so he didn't get a full paycheque for all the hours he worked. Then he lost his overdraft protection when his credit card payments fell through so we lost that coverage for a short time, but long enough to delay rent again to this week where MY credit card withdrew $32 (fine) then $398 today putting me into overdraft meanwhile yesterday I told my landlord he could finally cash the August rent cheque after this painstaikingly long wait, only to be $395 short.
My boyfriend's birthday is tomorrow. We had plans to go out for diner somewhere nice either tonight or this weekend but we are stuck eating macaroni and cheese (he is 25 too, so its a milestone year) and its depressing as hell because we are going to have to get a payday loan advance to get $300 and figure out the other $95 somehow before the cheque bounces and pisses off our landlord. SO MANY TIMES HAVE WE BEEN SO CLOSE to paying it on time and for unfair reason been unable to this month. Worse yet, his family sent him birthday cards with no money in it, when he explicitly asked for money for his birthday and so he feels forgotten about (for reasons other than that, but still, we could REALLY use the cash right now) and my Dad refuses to help even though he is well off himself and in town at the moment spending all his money on his girlfriend. Pay day loan advances screw you over, so we will owe interest on the $300 loan, even if its just a week it will be like $368, so now September rent will be late too by a week because we were hoping to use his next paycheque for that too. My boyfriend deserves a special treat out and he gets nothing for his birthday, that's TOTALLY UNFAIR. All because of a stupid automatic credit card payment.
Its things like this that make me contemplate suicide...... If you're concerned about this, I get help and support already, but seriously. FML. In all seriousness. FML.