What's Bothering You?

CW: We have vomit in the story today, friends :( Blurred out for yalls well being.

I ate the spiciest dinner today... Like my throat was on fire kinda spicy and I was going *sssss hha ssss ha* between bites. It was Indian food. I order mild at this place but their mild is definitely like a hot. My roommate can handle heat extremely well (she eats so, so spicy I sometimes worry for her health lol) and even she admits this place's mild is pretty spicy. Even the restaurant admits their mild is spicy LOL. I can handle just enough heat but this is no joke the spiciest "mild" I have ever witnessed. I had lassi and raita between every bite... like... I was getting called out big time here. Ended dinner with a scoop of gelato and a cup of chai just to try to cool things down.

And I guess I ate too much because I had to beeline it to the toilet to vom. It was the projectile kind and it came up through my nose and OH did it burn. I've never felt a burn that painful before. I could feel the curries burning through my nasal passage... like I had to do the *sss ha sssss ha* between each vom session... I had tears in my eyes because it was so spicy. I had to hit my head because the heat was sending shivers of pain through the heat.

So now my nose is burnt and every time I breathe from it it feels like I've spent an entire day at the pool and my nose is broken from chlorine.
 
Today (well, yesterday) I learned that AMBER alerts and weather warnings have the same alarm sound. :,> (Maybe just in Canada? A friend of mine from Ontario told me they got an alert the same time I did.) I heard one earlier in the day and got really scared because I'm terrified of EAS alarms. I think it was just a tornado/thunderstorm warning, but I was still freaked out regardless.

Also, just Canada having crap weather (especially Eastern, AKA where I live). Forest fires, thunderstorms, tornadoes... I'm glad to have only gotten moderately severe thunderstorms, but I'm bracing for a natural disaster.
 
Today (well, yesterday) I learned that AMBER alerts and weather warnings have the same alarm sound. :,> (Maybe just in Canada? A friend of mine from Ontario told me they got an alert the same time I did.) I heard one earlier in the day and got really scared because I'm terrified of EAS alarms. I think it was just a tornado/thunderstorm warning, but I was still freaked out regardless.

Also, just Canada having crap weather (especially Eastern, AKA where I live). Forest fires, thunderstorms, tornadoes... I'm glad to have only gotten moderately severe thunderstorms, but I'm bracing for a natural disaster.
I turned off AMBER alerts so I don’t have to hear those sounds. But when I do hear those sounds (which I still do), it means we’re under a tornado warning or some flood warning.
 
idk what my problem is but I haven't felt this awful in a while, it's like I'm anxious and also physically ill. doesn't help that I had to get up for a bit to do something like an hour ago and now I can't go back to sleep, so I'm just wide awake at 6am now 🥲

edit: I'm still feeling kinda anxious but it's much better now than it was last night and this morning. I will say though, today will probably be exhausting again because I didn't sleep well at all last night. I'm just grateful the crippling anxiety is basically gone, for now at least.
 
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I've felt awful all week and I'm supposed to go celebrate my nephew's birthday today...(He's turning 16?? I can't believe it. I feel old.) I wanted to say tomorrow but it's already 5 AM.
I really hope I can ask to stay home. I just can't imagine going. I don't even like eating right now. Everything makes me feel worse. Oh yeah, I also have a migraine.
 
I do not like it when some certain puppy of ours touches me. I don’t like being touched by animals anyway, but the way the puppy touches me is very uncomfortable and invasive.
 
I’m getting bad again, but I feel like I have no reason to? Like I should just accept that people change and things happen, but this sort of thing always hits me hard. Add on trying to navigate a school twice as big as my old one and having absolutely no school spirit because all I think of is “isolation” when I walk in the building. (Who knew that going from a chill summer to a hard “week before school starts” without any warning whatsoever was going to be bad for someone with already bad mental health?)

I know I should be optimistic but I’m just... not. I don’t know what to do.
 
just, really tired and some personal responsibilities looming over my head makes the tired worse.
 
the dark backdrops for camp tbt make it really hard to see people’s usernames/titles :[
although, i’ve also had to start wearing my glasses while drawing, so i think my eyes are just getting worse… maybe i should wear my glasses more often
 
boy oh boy I love spending my mornings being practically stuck in the bathroom hafkshfk


also hoping one of my entries for this event will be accepted, I'm having a difficult time putting it together oops
 
I’m genuinely exhausted. Like physically and mentally. I had sleep paralysis last night and tbh with my lack of sleep these last 6/7 weeks I felt like I was waiting for it. I’m overwhelmed and burnt out. Trying my hardest to be positive🥺
 
I can’t decide a theme for my island, and sometimes I feel like I’m not good enough, and that I’m lazy and don’t work hard.
 
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