What's Bothering You?
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When I was a kid I had a dog called Ruskie. Everyone was scared of her and quite rude to her and my mum saying āshe shouldnāt be near kids, she looks violent!ā but I loved her. She died when she was still a puppy, I think of her all the time. She was just a baby.
i have to meet my friend's friend today (for the 2nd time ever and i barely even said hi the first time as it was a large party) without my friend being there as a buffer and i'm feeling very socially anxious, i'm sure it will be fine but i've been nervous for her arriving for the last hour or sooooo
My brother just texted that our dad is in the hospital and has been there since Friday . I know me and my dad havenāt always gotten along but I do care and worry and always feel so out of the loop when it comes to him. I am just worried about him .
I slept in and missed all the sessions this morning :/ I'm so annoyed at myself, I had so much I needed to do this morning, and I have to leave earlier because of something irl, so I've had to cancel/move something else. I know I've probably been driving myself too hard, I've been getting like 3-5 hours of sleep, but I'm just so annoyed and exhausted 
xSuperMario64x
love of my life šš
prob gonna have to tell my friend tomorrow that I don't feel well enough to hang out, I just need some personal time. but I feel bad bc she and I don't get to hang out much, and this is one of the few times when she doesn't have to worry about her two kids.
but this evening she asked me to go somewhere with her, and just like yesterday when I had to make a nearly three hour trip to rescue my dad after the SUV's transmission pooped out, I had no idea how long this would take. we ended up being gone for like an hour and a half this evening, and I was half asleep for most of it bc my bedtime is usually 10pm. I'm so exhausted, so tired of going places. I just want to sit at home in peace and solitude.
I guess I'll see how I feel tomorrow.
but this evening she asked me to go somewhere with her, and just like yesterday when I had to make a nearly three hour trip to rescue my dad after the SUV's transmission pooped out, I had no idea how long this would take. we ended up being gone for like an hour and a half this evening, and I was half asleep for most of it bc my bedtime is usually 10pm. I'm so exhausted, so tired of going places. I just want to sit at home in peace and solitude.
I guess I'll see how I feel tomorrow.
idk I just feel tired and annoyed now honestly, feel like I might cry and I kinda hate that.
This year has been really awful and I rarely get a break from it. Definitely not getting one tonight because there's a tornado watch to raise my anxiety. Last night was very emotional (too complicated to explain) and now I'm dealing with this.
Update: Had to go hide in the basement because it turned into a tornado warning.
Update: Had to go hide in the basement because it turned into a tornado warning.
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Just work
work, work, work, how I dispise it. Dunno what I am even doing anymore.
I'm sorry I came from one coffee shop that was so gawd awful, that I don't understand how to actually work properly. And now I am at another coffee shop and I don't want to work there anymore.
Never did.
I'm only here, so I can get money to live.
Feel like I'm gonna have emotional/mental breakdown.
Maybe if I had a contract here, it would#ve been better? Boss spoke to me today about not doing certain things, but she wouldn't let me get a note and pen because that's easier for me to remember what she says. But nope. So, as I am trying to sit straight, communicate well, all her words go outta my head.
I cant hear her well, and Im awful at confrontation.
Thought I was doing enough? What is even enough anymore?
My mum says I should just leave if its too much, but then what? Wait till Universal credit decide to put me back on their books, but then I dunno whats gonna happen about the debt my older shop got me into with Universal credit, wuld they remove that from the monthly money they give me?
And then, they just want me to apply for anything, even though I sure as HECK i am not doing coffee and food anymore. I-I just cant handle that stuff anymore.
I don't want to have a breakdown at work but im so so close
And there's not really anyone I can talk to.
I have my mum, but no one really else? Can't tell my sister, I rarely hear from my friend anymore, I dunno if its because hes busy but I feel guilty if there was anything that i have done/havent done?
I don't know my bext move. Feel like I've been skipped and ignored for so long.
Im trying to breathe, im trying to calm
i think writing here helps a lil bit.
work, work, work, how I dispise it. Dunno what I am even doing anymore.
I'm sorry I came from one coffee shop that was so gawd awful, that I don't understand how to actually work properly. And now I am at another coffee shop and I don't want to work there anymore.
Never did.
I'm only here, so I can get money to live.
Feel like I'm gonna have emotional/mental breakdown.
Maybe if I had a contract here, it would#ve been better? Boss spoke to me today about not doing certain things, but she wouldn't let me get a note and pen because that's easier for me to remember what she says. But nope. So, as I am trying to sit straight, communicate well, all her words go outta my head.
I cant hear her well, and Im awful at confrontation.
Thought I was doing enough? What is even enough anymore?
My mum says I should just leave if its too much, but then what? Wait till Universal credit decide to put me back on their books, but then I dunno whats gonna happen about the debt my older shop got me into with Universal credit, wuld they remove that from the monthly money they give me?
And then, they just want me to apply for anything, even though I sure as HECK i am not doing coffee and food anymore. I-I just cant handle that stuff anymore.
I don't want to have a breakdown at work but im so so close
And there's not really anyone I can talk to.
I have my mum, but no one really else? Can't tell my sister, I rarely hear from my friend anymore, I dunno if its because hes busy but I feel guilty if there was anything that i have done/havent done?
I don't know my bext move. Feel like I've been skipped and ignored for so long.
Im trying to breathe, im trying to calm
i think writing here helps a lil bit.
Why is it that you don't have a contract?
She said at first she was going to give me a contract, but I asked recently beforehand and she said once she has time to do one. There's only one person who has a contract working there, and he only works for two days?
TotodileStars
Nah
I've been really creatively motivated... only to end up too sick to do anything. 
xSuperMario64x
love of my life šš
I'm not gonna lie, every time I think about the TBTWC it makes me feel so stressed and overwhelmed. thinking about even doing cheers causes me stress. I think it's the competitive nature of the event, I'm not trying to be competitive but I'm extra sensitive rn (bc mania yay) and just being in the atmosphere of competitiveness almost kinda ruins the fun for me. ofc that's no one's problem but my own, but it still sucks. another TBTWC goes by without much participation from me, I guess it's just not the right kind of event for me. 
Dunquixote
No dms and discord messages
This is very minor:
Iām feeling stressed still even though Iām just doing the event.
Iām still butt hurt about something and with my best friend.
Iām a bit bummed I didnāt get any slots for Mario Party. Iām getting more worried Iām not going to get enough points by the end of the event. My fault though for getting so excited about the collectibles and thinking itād be easy since I had more than one game. I feel dumb for not realizing that the sessions need to balance the team participants; I did realize about scheduling to make sure everyone gets a chance to play though. Iām not great at the mini games though, so at the same time, I donāt want to drag my team down; everyone on my team that watched my session and other things I participated in has been really great and kind. Still, I canāt help but feel bad since everyone is so good like at Splatoon. Iām having a blast, but I canāt help worrying about hurting my team and disappointing them.
With that being said, Iām really grateful for everyoneās patience with me and the cheers/support
.
Sorry for being a broken record again. I do this all the time, get overexcited about things >.<.
Iām feeling overwhelmed and frustrated with the shiny hunting; no idea how to shiny hunt in arceus now that it got patched up. :/ Not far enough in Pokemon Violet and donāt want to rush. Havenāt had time too look for my old Pokemongame cartridges in my totes because Iām focused on tbtwc. I got too much stuff to go through when I can finally do that.
Honestly feeling overwhelmed when I open Pokemon Violet (which is why I usually hate open world games; I get easily overwhelmed). i havenāt had time to play that either.
Iām still butt hurt about something and with my best friend.
Iām a bit bummed I didnāt get any slots for Mario Party. Iām getting more worried Iām not going to get enough points by the end of the event. My fault though for getting so excited about the collectibles and thinking itād be easy since I had more than one game. I feel dumb for not realizing that the sessions need to balance the team participants; I did realize about scheduling to make sure everyone gets a chance to play though. Iām not great at the mini games though, so at the same time, I donāt want to drag my team down; everyone on my team that watched my session and other things I participated in has been really great and kind. Still, I canāt help but feel bad since everyone is so good like at Splatoon. Iām having a blast, but I canāt help worrying about hurting my team and disappointing them.
With that being said, Iām really grateful for everyoneās patience with me and the cheers/support
. Sorry for being a broken record again. I do this all the time, get overexcited about things >.<.
Iām feeling overwhelmed and frustrated with the shiny hunting; no idea how to shiny hunt in arceus now that it got patched up. :/ Not far enough in Pokemon Violet and donāt want to rush. Havenāt had time too look for my old Pokemongame cartridges in my totes because Iām focused on tbtwc. I got too much stuff to go through when I can finally do that.
Honestly feeling overwhelmed when I open Pokemon Violet (which is why I usually hate open world games; I get easily overwhelmed). i havenāt had time to play that either.
I don't see anything wrong with you or your posts; in fact, I enjoy reading them. You're already likeable as you are!
ZeldaCrossing64
Sugary Cynic
My thesis defense is literally tomorrow and my Internet decides to crap out. It hasn't gone out completely, but it's making pages load reaaal slowly. Not ideal. I think it's the weather, and to that, I say... Crappy luck. Sorry that I'm not shutting up about my thesis paper. It's all I can think about besides anything else that would make me feel emotional. This thing is supposed to be 6 pages (not including table of contents, citations, etc)... I only have about 1-2 pages of written work and I already feel burnt out. Why am I struggling so much with this ****ing assignment? Why did I even procrastinate on something so big and important? Most of everyone else finished theirs already, and I'm just here sitting in the dust with a blank laptop screen. I never thought I'd feel so stuck and frustrated with an assignment before, and it sucks!
I did one of my French exams today, and I feel like I didn't do very good on it... Back in December during my midterms, I busted my ass trying to get the questions right, and I ended up with a 55%. I tried my hardest, and that was 5 marks off a pass. So I don't have faith I passed this exam either, and I'm struggling enough in school. Why can't I be competent in the things that matter? :/
I did one of my French exams today, and I feel like I didn't do very good on it... Back in December during my midterms, I busted my ass trying to get the questions right, and I ended up with a 55%. I tried my hardest, and that was 5 marks off a pass. So I don't have faith I passed this exam either, and I'm struggling enough in school. Why can't I be competent in the things that matter? :/
