What's Bothering You?

I keep finding myself in this trap of being mentally and physically exhausted, but still getting up and doing stuff nonstop because I can't sit still and relax without feeling some kind of internalized guilt, or feeling uncomfortable because I feel like I need to be doing something. being on my feet constantly is exhausting, but "relaxing" makes me uncomfortable. I can't win. 🫠

it probably doesn't help that, in my house, living with my parents, I can never, EVER catch a break. They constantly call for me and send me messages, they constantly walk into my room asking me things, they constantly ask me questions and get upset when I don't answer the way they want me to (as if it's rhetorical). that on top of everything else going on with the animals and my friends and my work/hobbies. I literally never catch a break. it's nonstop.

I've been thinking lately about the idea of sitting with discomfort, letting it have its place. and it seems weird to have to apply that to "relaxation" time, but that's the situation I find myself in. I'm used to never having time to relax, my body doesn't know what it means to actually relax. all it knows is times where I'm super busy and bustling, and times when I'm still consistently occupied but moving a little more slowly. there's never true relaxation, and doing anything of the sort feels very uncomfortable to me.

I just don't even know anymore honestly. 🥲
 
Going to a pride party tomorrow with my husband, his boss and his husband and a bunch of his coworkers and their wives and husbands, got my nails done yesterday for it, hair done today for it andddd of course, I started my period tonight. But why.
 
Going to a pride party tomorrow with my husband, his boss and his husband and a bunch of his coworkers and their wives and husbands, got my nails done yesterday for it, hair done today for it andddd of course, I started my period tonight. But why.
I can relate. I had to deal with that BS during my vacation last year.
 
Going to a pride party tomorrow with my husband, his boss and his husband and a bunch of his coworkers and their wives and husbands, got my nails done yesterday for it, hair done today for it andddd of course, I started my period tonight. But why.
Sod's Law.

Please share photos of the nails (also hair if you're comfortable)!
 
sometimes I don't really know what to do with myself, I think that thing I talked about yesterday is carrying over into today. I probably need to just let myself rest.

I said I can never catch a break. well, I never let myself catch a break either, not without some feeling of internalized guilt.

I feel like I need more rest and I am going back to sleep.
 
Sod's Law.

Please share photos of the nails (also hair if you're comfortable)!
Yep, sure is! That’s funny, here we more often hear Murphy’s Law, and I always say that Murphy and I go way back as friends. I totally planned on sharing photos is the “What Do You Look Like” thread when I’m all dressed up! I do love how my hair and nails came out.
 
It sucks having a dead father on Father's Day. Especially because you can't go out in public without it being shoved down your throat.

Ugh I can't wait until it's over.

June has not been my month. Hopefully today can be a silver lining. I'm finally getting to do something that I really wanted for a while.
 
A while ago, I woke up from this dream where pretty much all that happened was me being bullied and people being mean to me. That was horrible. That was probably one of the worst dreams I’ve had recently. This has happened before in real life when I was in middle school, and that dream made me remember all of it. I’m not sure if this is better or worse than waking up at 7 and not being able to fall back asleep.

I wish I wasn’t so nice to people back then and actually stood up for myself. Maybe then this wouldn’t have ever happened.
 
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