What's Bothering You?

OK, so this one's pretty silly... There's a "Battle of the Bands" competition in the Basement where you can submit a random song and see how it fares among TBTers. In each of the competitions I submitted a song (I won't say which), and both times it didn't get up to at least the semi-finals. While I like how the BOTB introduced me to new music, sometimes I feel like my listening tastes stink because of this. T_T
 
OK, so this one's pretty silly... There's a "Battle of the Bands" competition in the Basement where you can submit a random song and see how it fares among TBTers. In each of the competitions I submitted a song (I won't say which), and both times it didn't get up to at least the semi-finals. While I like how the BOTB introduced me to new music, sometimes I feel like my listening tastes stink because of this. T_T
For what it’s worth, I’ve enjoyed your submissions.
 
I keep finding myself in this trap of being mentally and physically exhausted, but still getting up and doing stuff nonstop because I can't sit still and relax without feeling some kind of internalized guilt, or feeling uncomfortable because I feel like I need to be doing something. being on my feet constantly is exhausting, but "relaxing" makes me uncomfortable. I can't win. 🫠

it probably doesn't help that, in my house, living with my parents, I can never, EVER catch a break. They constantly call for me and send me messages, they constantly walk into my room asking me things, they constantly ask me questions and get upset when I don't answer the way they want me to (as if it's rhetorical). that on top of everything else going on with the animals and my friends and my work/hobbies. I literally never catch a break. it's nonstop.

I've been thinking lately about the idea of sitting with discomfort, letting it have its place. and it seems weird to have to apply that to "relaxation" time, but that's the situation I find myself in. I'm used to never having time to relax, my body doesn't know what it means to actually relax. all it knows is times where I'm super busy and bustling, and times when I'm still consistently occupied but moving a little more slowly. there's never true relaxation, and doing anything of the sort feels very uncomfortable to me.

I just don't even know anymore honestly. 🥲
 
Going to a pride party tomorrow with my husband, his boss and his husband and a bunch of his coworkers and their wives and husbands, got my nails done yesterday for it, hair done today for it andddd of course, I started my period tonight. But why.
 
Going to a pride party tomorrow with my husband, his boss and his husband and a bunch of his coworkers and their wives and husbands, got my nails done yesterday for it, hair done today for it andddd of course, I started my period tonight. But why.
I can relate. I had to deal with that BS during my vacation last year.
 
Going to a pride party tomorrow with my husband, his boss and his husband and a bunch of his coworkers and their wives and husbands, got my nails done yesterday for it, hair done today for it andddd of course, I started my period tonight. But why.
Sod's Law.

Please share photos of the nails (also hair if you're comfortable)!
 
sometimes I don't really know what to do with myself, I think that thing I talked about yesterday is carrying over into today. I probably need to just let myself rest.

I said I can never catch a break. well, I never let myself catch a break either, not without some feeling of internalized guilt.

I feel like I need more rest and I am going back to sleep.
 
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