What's Bothering You?

[Chris]

My partner came back from a class we usually go to together with a neck injury. Apparently the person she paired up with was a bit rough with her.

Made her a cup of tea, a heatpack, and provided cream cake and painkillers. She's gone off to bed now still feeling sore. Hope it'll be a quick recovery.

Also checked in with the other person to see how she was doing. She's feeling bad about what happened and thanked me for taking care of her.

 

[-Blue-]

There’s a discourse I keep seeing which is basically just trying to champion and normalize rude behavior and it’s so grating. For example any time I see a post where someone is upset because they gave their friend/child/significant other/etc a gift and this person reacted ungratefully and made it extremely obvious they didn’t like the gift there is ALWAYS at least a few people who poke their heads out of the bushes to say something like “stop being so entitled, gift-giving isn’t about you, they don’t have to like it just because it was a gift”. No, they don’t, but they don’t have to rub it in the gift-giver’s face that they hated it either? There’s a lot of things I actually think people shouldn’t have to suck it up and be polite about, but - call me old fashioned I guess - receiving a gift isn’t one of them. I suppose I’m just annoyed by the idea that having a reasonable expectation of basic manners = being entitled.

This is just narcissism. Most places online are just an echo chamber for horrible people to tell other horrible people that they're in the right. It's what they're good at. Personally I always make it a rule of thumb to not give gifts to anyone who either don't acknowledge or act ungrateful/rude. While people are allowed to not like or care for a gift they receive from another, they should still be cordial. And if someone has the right to act like that everyone has the right to never give them gifts. But you know that would never fly with them lol.

The amount of people I give gifts to has diminished greatly because of this. But hey if this is the new era of how people should act then I'll use my money or time (because I often make things for others) on myself.

 

[Dunquixote]

Not doing very good today. My mood will probably pick up, but I’m feeling mentally tired. I woke up to a small panic attack a few hours ago. As much as I’ve been trying to push thoughts about my best friend, still hurting badly about everything with him and the small reminders. Also having some bad intrusive thoughts again because I’m feeling pretty lost and hopeless about so much.

 

[-Lumi-]

I broke my ankle

 

[Reginald Fairfield]

Taxes are not going toward where they should be.

 

[Dim]

Really wanna call out tomorrow, especially with how hot it's getting, but I think I've used up my day-offs for a while. Plus I need the money...

 

[Croconaw]

I'm hoping I get this job tomorrow. I have an interview. I applied for over ten jobs at this point and I haven't gotten a call back for a single one. I know the job market right now is pretty terrible, plus kids are out of school and they're probably looking for jobs, so this is bad timing all in all.

I just wish I could find a job because I need a paycheck and I'm feeling pretty worthless having not worked in over two weeks. It's also making me feel like I should've just sucked it up like an adult at my old job. If I don't get this job tomorrow, I don't know how long it will take to even land another interview, let alone get hired afterwards! This particular interview was automatically scheduled because I met requirements. It doesn't mean anything because nobody actually reached out to me.

 

[ali.di.magix]

Spoiler: cw: ablelism

talking to a coworker that has a son with suspected autism made me cringe today. Maybe it's the way I perceived her comments or a bit of broken English, but it comes off like they want their son to fit the norms. I've also heard a bit of ablelism from the father as well. Like no, you can't and don't have to change your son, he is fine like the way he is

 

[Suguri]

-snip-

I'm so sorry to hear that. I hope their son will be able to accept himself as he is.

I'm autistic like him and sometimes I feel like I'm dealing with this ableism and fitting in to the norms and all that too, but I can barely tell because they say "it's for your own good." So then I feel like an inferior person because of my differences and stuff.

It happens pretty often; I know because I've brought this up a few times here before.

 

[Shawna]

Imagine being wide awake at 4AM.

Couldn’t be me.

 

[Giddy]

literally no jobs anywhere I tried so much.
I was gonna go to one area, and despite already telling my mum a day before which area I was planning to go, I told her again today and she said theres literally nothing there.
Literally don't know what else I can do. I do plan on trevlling to a specific book publishing company, but was hoping to find more elsewhere as I travelled ;_:

Like the only things Ive seen is people looking for teachers, and managers. (And cafe staff but again, I can't mentally deal with it anymore.)

 

[xSuperMario64x]

just not feeling very mentally sound this morning, I'm not sure why


also suspecting that drinking coffee is affecting my ability to sleep, no matter what time of day I drink it, so I might have to give it up for a little while. dunno why I thought it was a good idea anyway, it's really only bc I like iced mocha.

 

[jiny]

i’ve been having this weird feeling in my head, it doesn’t hurt but it just feels like pressure?? constantly?? and i feel dizzy as well, idk what it is and i get really bad medical anxiety so im scared lol

 

[VernalLapin]

I’m all yearny right now.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

nice time to have no AC in my car don't worry though, it's in the shop today and I'm tempted to tell them I'm not taking it home til the AC works. just hoping they don't charge me an arm and a leg.

update on this, they did in fact want to charge me an arm and a leg, both arms actually. thankfully I know what the issue is now, but the cost of having it fixed in the shop is horrifying for someone like me, working part-time. I just said screw it, I'll buy a new compressor myself and have my dad put it in. but that basically means that I'll be without AC for probably another week at least.

it coincides perfectly with this heat wave. the heat is making me feel sleepy and really exhausted and the harsh sun is messing with my psoriasis. thank goodness I have the day off tomorrow, ugh. I am a tired buggy.

 

[Zane]

god i miss my air conditioner T_____T

 

[Xara]

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[oak]

I spilled my coffee all down myself for a third time this week. Not once, not twice but 3 different times. I also barfed all down myself again while driving. Idk what is wrong with me but hopefully it's just stress. I'm on the list for a family doctor so hopefully they will contact me soon. My dad gets so enraged when I spill my drink too. Why ya gotta be like that father, just chill out. He was like "there's something wrong with your brain, just like mine". Oh great pep talk.

 

[-Raven-]

It bothers me how exclusive I am now and I feel like I just need this for my sanity.

I wish I could give you guys the same energy I want to. I wish I could do friendships right.

I forgot to tell my psychologist about my anxiety over my online presence.

I wish I could really like myself again.

Also, I dunno, I watched a certain online cartoon because I hadn’t seen that new episode in the last couple weeks and that line about how he looked up and didn’t realise how low the other guy thought of him, wow that hit close to home.

Edit: also I miss how I used to feel for art and I wish the boy had much more

 

[SkyKnight03]

My cousin is autistic and loves birthdays. He's always reminding me of my birthday coming up.

...I kinda feel terrible because I'm not going to be home for a few days. It means I won't see him on my birthday.

So I want to give him a gift. I realize the backwards nature in that. (searching a gift for someone else on my own birthday) but I think it would be soothing. Maybe I'll get him a new video game. Or I'll take him to lunch before I leave.

He's actually been on my mind more than I would like to admit. I think I've grown a soft spot for him and the sudden guilt is starting to hit me.

I guess I can update this now. Took him out for some ice cream today. It was quite nice. There's a gas station/fast food stop 10 minutes from us.

We sat inside and I got myself some cheese curds and fries for only $6.00. They also sell 99 cent ice creams.

We had fun. Will definitely have to do it more often.