bruh my dog won't shut up, i've literally done everything i can to keep her quiet like fed her, gave her treats, played with her etc
i'm pretty sure she's just waiting for my mum to come home so i got to put up with her whining for another 3 hours my labrador was so much more well behaved, i wish i could have her back here
last night I could feel my lips starting to chap and split but I didn't know where my lip ointment was so I couldn't use it. finally found it today in my backpack pocket but it's too late, my lips are all crusty and gross now :,,,,,,)
also starting at 2:10 I have 20 min to walk from my dorm all the way across campus to my german class. I have an online class that ends right at 2:10 so ig I'm gonna go run on ice lol rippp
(I could drive my car but I'm really trying to watch my weight so I think I'd rather walk)
no offence but i’m gonna fight your mom. her saying that she’s ashamed to be your mother is just,, disgusting :/. i’m sorry you have to deal with that.
Thank you xara, I really appreciate it. My mom has been super stressed lately and has been kind of bringing it out on us. I’m trying my best to not cause trouble but then again...
my god... this is truly my villain origin story, isn't it? like, being thrown aside by the last person who was dearest to my heart, dude?
i am always temporary. that's the thing with me. like, i'm always a replaceable thing in people's lives. i was learning to grow alongside this person. things looked so bright and happy. now, i'm just full of agony and grief... i'm so hurt. but i'm so sick of being hurt. i feel just physically nauseous at the fact that i'm never going to be loved in the way that i want and i'll never have someone who loves me as much as i love them.
I don't know but I just wanted to say feel you on every level about feeling temporary to people you thought you could count on and how they treat you in their lives. I've had so many friends drop me for other people and never look back or don't realise the hurt they cause to those of us who just want someone to be loyal to.
ugh i hate applying for jobs. It just makes me incredibly...nervous? And when i get nervous, i tend to procrastinate and overthink, which makes the process much longer than it should be.
I know I said I wouldn’t be posting here again, but I can’t help it. Feeling really sad because of my friends who are hurting and the people I see hurting every day. I’m crying pretty badly right now. It’s just one of those nights I guess.
i started crying last night because of a discord im in. my gf just kept playing her game and not trying to ask what was wrong but thats okay
there is a user on the discord who was in vent talking about how they think everyone hates them because they deleted important things without anyones consent and got backlash for it (rightfully so) and people were there for them when theyve hurt me really bad in the past but nobody but my gf ever seems to care that theyve hurt me, like i dont matter
basically what they did was i was venting about not getting any attention for my art but everyone else who posted art got tons of attention and they flat out told me "it isnt fair for everyone to get attention" "if everyone gets attention it feels fake" easy for you to say since youre a mod, how do you think it feels for someone who keeps trying to talk to others and gets ignored and everyone just knows me as my gfs gf
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i stopped posting my art everywhere but toyhouse after that because its just not worth it if im really the one that needs to be shafted for everyone else to get attention
it really is. thing is this discord isnt for artists, they just like having some artists so they look more varied. they dont really care about your art unless youre a professional or if youve cried a lot about how you want attention (and then said persons art looks traced but the same mod said "oh i dont care about that" and started slamming me with misinformation about how i must watch them like a hawk so i can cancel them...when they just post their art in the group chat for all to see and i haven't mentioned it in the year since this person started posting)
ive wanted to leave a lot but it makes my gf happy that im in there so i stay
i started crying last night because of a discord im in. my gf just kept playing her game and not trying to ask what was wrong but thats okay
there is a user on the discord who was in vent talking about how they think everyone hates them because they deleted important things without anyones consent and got backlash for it (rightfully so) and people were there for them when theyve hurt me really bad in the past but nobody but my gf ever seems to care that theyve hurt me, like i dont matter
basically what they did was i was venting about not getting any attention for my art but everyone else who posted art got tons of attention and they flat out told me "it isnt fair for everyone to get attention" "if everyone gets attention it feels fake" easy for you to say since youre a mod, how do you think it feels for someone who keeps trying to talk to others and gets ignored and everyone just knows me as my gfs gf
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i stopped posting my art everywhere but toyhouse after that because its just not worth it if im really the one that needs to be shafted for everyone else to get attention
:/ i will literally fight everyone in that discord. “it isn’t fair for everyone to get attention” ??????? huh. of course you deserve for your art to get attention - you’re a kind, talented human being and deserve to be treated as such. and for the record, i care that they’ve hurt you and you deserve much, much better than that.