What's Bothering You?

[Mimi Cheems]

My ex moved on so quickly from me. It hurts. It stings. We were just talking about wanting to meet in person and everything like 2 months ago. How does that change so fast? I feel so worthless, so unlovable? Like, I feel super insignificant... He told my best friend he missed me a lot and now that we're talking again after a month of not speaking at all, he's treating me so coldly and replying to me so dryly... It's not fair... I feel like my bipolar disorder makes it 50 times worse because I just absolutely refuse to let go. I can't stop thinking about what I could have done differently, what I did wrong, and when he told me he liked someone else... my goodness. I've been manic for the past 4 or 5 days. I just want it to stop... I hate feeling this way. :")

 

[Reginald Fairfield]

What do you all normally do when to see some funny lady having a loud, slurred, heated conversation with themselves?

 

[Chris]

Dreamed I was ill and woke-up feeling similarly rough. Goddamn nerves. Can't wait for today to be over.

Also, being nauseated and craving a mozzarella stuffed crust pizza is a strange combo - especially as I'm lactose intolerant so it certainly wouldn't make me feel any better.

 

[VanitasFan26]

I don't know I am just feeling conflicted. Part of me is regretting coming back on this site after how I messed up badly and messed everything up for myself, but the other part of me is saying how there is nice people on this site who are not bad and that I was overlooking the nice stuff and focused too much on the bad stuff. I know this may seem like I'm overreacting or making a big deal about it, but truth be told its how I've been in real life. Cannot change anyone but myself. That is the most important thing I've learned through this whole experience. Its complicated these days.

 

[Violet Witch]

My ex moved on so quickly from me. It hurts. It stings. We were just talking about wanting to meet in person and everything like 2 months ago. How does that change so fast? I feel so worthless, so unlovable? Like, I feel super insignificant... He told my best friend he missed me a lot and now that we're talking again after a month of not speaking at all, he's treating me so coldly and replying to me so dryly... It's not fair... I feel like my bipolar disorder makes it 50 times worse because I just absolutely refuse to let go. I can't stop thinking about what I could have done differently, what I did wrong, and when he told me he liked someone else... my goodness. I've been manic for the past 4 or 5 days. I just want it to stop... I hate feeling this way. :")

Even though I don't know you I just want to tell you that you've done nothing wrong in this situation. Your ex should've been more honest with you from the get go in regards to the context of telling your friend that he missed you because he could've spared you the emotional turmoil you're in thinking things between the both of you were on track to reunite. All in all he's been a complete idiot and you deserve so much better.

 

[Chris]

I've a big exam (my last ever!) tomorrow and I can't seem to just sit down and concentrate on studying. <snip>

That was absolutely awful and I'm just hoping I scored at least 45% so as not to bring my average down into a lower classification.

EDIT: Scored 65.13%! I'm happy with that! I've passed the module and not messed up my average too badly!

 

[Princess Mipha]

- Wanted to wake up early, stayed in bed until 10 AM once again
- Cat pooped in the bathroom, so it smelled extra bad
- Hurt myself idk how many times while cleaning up the animal room today
- Went to the pharmacy to get my medications and the woman said I still have some and wanted to refuse to give me some..
ended up getting some, but I felt stupid that I must've overlooked some. Nope, I have nothing left besides one week and that's
probably why she didn't want to give it to me. SORRY LADY FOR NOT WANTING TO GO LAST SECOND.
- Went to shop to check for some stuff I could use for the gender reveal later.. turns out the shop has now 99% of the stuff they sell
blocked, thanks to the most useless rule in the world against covid.. so I drove for nothing and ofc they wouldn't warn online about it.
- Big truck almost crashed into me, because he went half onto my line, so I had to hard break while crossing the light, which in this
time turned from green to red, but I was already half over, like wtf am I supposed to do ? Let him crash into me to not cross half red?
Push everyone behind me back because of him being a complete........ ? I just went fully over, because I saw it too late anyways, as I couldn't see the light anymore from where I stood. If I get a punishment for this I will be so freaking mad. Sorry for not wanting to crash my car.

^All that ruined my whole mood. I was in a okayish mood and now I just want to hurt someone.

 

[moo_nieu]

in pain. i wish i knew why. i was happy when all of the tests came back great but now i realize that just means theres no explanation or help. i dont understand why this is happening. ive now almost missed an entire week of work and i dont know what to do. this all came out of nowhere.

Spoiler

if one more person says this was caused by anxiety i might just fall over and die. i had no anxiety whatsoever before any episodes happened. i hate this. im in so much pain and i feel like a burden and that my family is just like oh another problem. part of me hopes i dont recover next time so that theyre like whoops maybe we shouldnt have kept insisting that its anxiety. at least the er doctor was very adamant about not just attributing anything to anxiety bc its dangerous to do when there could be life threatening issues. thanks doc

 

[_Rainy_]

I’m still waiting for an update on my bun. It was confirmed that he was in stasis yesterday, but they said I took him in at a good time and he responded well to the meds and everything started working again. He was eating and moving around, but he hadn’t passed any stools yet. I’m really scared that there’s a blockage and he’ll need surgery. I hope they call me soon. He’s been gone for only a day and I miss him.

Also I’m feeling depressed because it’s May and the month my mom passed away. Her birthday was close to Mother’s Day and she passed the day after her birthday. I learned she died through an email and I never got to say goodbye. It’s been years and I’ve never been able to get over it.

Also the people I care for on Tuesdays and Wednesday’s just got a new vacuum and I damaged the cord on accident I feel really guilty.

edit: I called them and he’s passed some stools today. I’ll be able to take him home later hopefully. Now all I have to worry about is how mad he’s going to be when he sees that he’s been blocked from going under the couch. I also let our baby bunny in his area last night, so I don’t think he’s going to be pleased.

 

[Toska]

my best friend and I have an interesting relationship. To specify, we really just pick on each other to show our friendship. But, I feel he keeps going too far. I hate being sensitive like this, but he called me some really, really rude names because of an outfit I was wearing and I don’t want to make him mad by saying he hurt my feelings. Ugh, I just don’t know what to do.

update: I ending up going to the restroom and crying. I wish I could handle things better.

 

[rianne]

I moved out for the first time a month ago — a fresh start with my partner. Felt so homesick yesterday and today as well.

In my native language, there's a word for that feeling. Mahålang.

 

[Firesquids]

I'm so bored, I feel like it's hard to make real connections with people

 

[oak]

Anyone else have sleep apnea? Mine's been getting worse and my doctor's been bugging me for a couple years to get a CPAP machine but I hate it so much. Sleeping on oxygen every night makes me feel like a dying grandpa at the age of 27. I guess wearing an oxygen mask at night for the rest of my life is better then dying in my sleep. Or is it?

 

[xSuperMario64x]

Anyone else have sleep apnea? Mine's been getting worse and my doctor's been bugging me for a couple years to get a CPAP machine but I hate it so much. Sleeping on oxygen every night makes me feel like a dying grandpa at the age of 27. I guess wearing an oxygen mask at night for the rest of my life is better then dying in my sleep. Or is it?

I knew someone who had sleep apnea and died in their sleep because their machine wasn't working properly. I would recommend getting a CPAP.

 

[oak]

I knew someone who had sleep apnea and died in their sleep because their machine wasn't working properly. I would recommend getting a CPAP.

Yeah you're right which sucks lol. I've been having trouble breathing at night so I guess this is a sign to get the machine.

 

[Kittywulfe]

Anyone else have sleep apnea? Mine's been getting worse and my doctor's been bugging me for a couple years to get a CPAP machine but I hate it so much. Sleeping on oxygen every night makes me feel like a dying grandpa at the age of 27. I guess wearing an oxygen mask at night for the rest of my life is better then dying in my sleep. Or is it?

I have a CPAP but I don't use it because I feel like I'm suffocating with it on

 

[oak]

I have a CPAP but I don't use it because I feel like I'm suffocating with it on

Well I'm glad I'm not the only one. Do you have the full mask or just the nose attachment one? Cause the full face mask is definitely overwhelming. Even the mask that just covers the nose feels like it's forcing air into the back of my throat and drying it out. I hope you can find a way to comfortably use your CPAP machine soon. I don't want either of us to get sick not wearing our oxygen machines.

 

[Dunquixote]

my best friend and I have an interesting relationship. To specify, we really just pick on each other to show our friendship. But, I feel he keeps going too far. I hate being sensitive like this, but he called me some really, really rude names because of an outfit I was wearing and I don’t want to make him mad by saying he hurt my feelings. Ugh, I just don’t know what to do.

update: I ending up going to the restroom and crying. I wish I could handle things better.

I can relate to this. I’m so sorry that you’re experiencing this. Nothing wrong with being sensitive about name calling because friends should know when to draw the line. Teasing is normal but going beyond that to be hurtful rude is different. If you need to vent, my dms are open. Sorry if you didn’t want a response or if this is weird. Just concerned.

I’m still waiting for an update on my bun. It was confirmed that he was in stasis yesterday, but they said I took him in at a good time and he responded well to the meds and everything started working again. He was eating and moving around, but he hadn’t passed any stools yet. I’m really scared that there’s a blockage and he’ll need surgery. I hope they call me soon. He’s been gone for only a day and I miss him.

Also I’m feeling depressed because it’s May and the month my mom passed away. Her birthday was close to Mother’s Day and she passed the day after her birthday. I learned she died through an email and I never got to say goodbye. It’s been years and I’ve never been able to get over it.

Also the people I care for on Tuesdays and Wednesday’s just got a new vacuum and I damaged the cord on accident I feel really guilty.

edit: I called them and he’s passed some stools today. I’ll be able to take him home later hopefully. Now all I have to worry about is how mad he’s going to be when he sees that he’s been blocked from going under the couch. I also let our baby bunny in his area last night, so I don’t think he’s going to be pleased.

-hugs- I’m sorry about your mom . No matter what anyone tells you, take all the time you need and it is okay to continue grieving as long as you don’t let it keep you from enjoying life. Worry about yourself first before worrying about anyone else. You’ve done so much for your friends and worry so much about us, it is time (long overdue) for you to take care of your concerns. I’ll keep my fingers crossed for you and your bun and send you positive thoughts your way.

 

[Kittywulfe]

Well I'm glad I'm not the only one. Do you have the full mask or just the nose attachment one? Cause the full face mask is definitely overwhelming. Even the mask that just covers the nose feels like it's forcing air into the back of my throat and drying it out. I hope you can find a way to comfortably use your CPAP machine soon. I don't want either of us to get sick not wearing our oxygen machines.

They gave me the one that covers just the nose, but I've also tried the one that sits under the nose with two cushions that go up against your nostrils, but it didn't make a difference for me...

And yeah, I agree!

 

[Dunquixote]

in pain. i wish i knew why. i was happy when all of the tests came back great but now i realize that just means theres no explanation or help. i dont understand why this is happening. ive now almost missed an entire week of work and i dont know what to do. this all came out of nowhere.

Spoiler

if one more person says this was caused by anxiety i might just fall over and die. i had no anxiety whatsoever before any episodes happened. i hate this. im in so much pain and i feel like a burden and that my family is just like oh another problem. part of me hopes i dont recover next time so that theyre like whoops maybe we shouldnt have kept insisting that its anxiety. at least the er doctor was very adamant about not just attributing anything to anxiety bc its dangerous to do when there could be life threatening issues. thanks doc

I sent you a message. I’m so sorry. I thought things were okay now. let me know if you need anything