What's Bothering You?

I'm having one of those bad days. I was already in a bad mood, matching the weather, decided it was time to clean up a bit, I had just started when the vacuum cleaner caught on fire, literally. Then I thought I could take some photos for the hunt and I don't know what I did, but I deleted all photos on my SD card, even old photos I didn't save elsewhere .. (stupid me)
Well it's a good thing that it sounds like you handled the situation and put the fire out. Things like that can really take off and cause a lot of damage, loss of home ect.

Sorry to hear about your day being so rotten. Hope things get better for you!
 
I wish they sold this 3DS in the Uk

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Need to sleep but can't due to pain :/
I mean if I can't sleep, I'm good with that, but the pain sucks..
Though I'm uncomfortable, I had a pretty good day but I feel like tomorrow won't be as much..
 
I feel like I’m slowly destroying the relationship with my family. I don’t feel as close or connected with them anymore. I don’t get much enjoyment out of talking to them.

At times it feels very one-sided, like they’re not listening to me. They always say that they’re here for me and to listen…but when I ring them they seem so disinterested. They’ve never been good for emotional support…so there’s that too.

Idk man, sometimes I have to remind myself that I’m 26 and my life doesn’t revolve around them. It’s a weird part of life right now.
 
All of these things happened while I was at a Christmas party at a friend's house.

I ate so much food that I needed to throw up a little, and their bathroom was occupied, so I had to throw up in a trash can instead.

At one point when I participated in a white elephant gift exchange, I got what seems to be the most insulting game I have ever received: it was a card game about MEMES, ugh!
I wanted someone to take my crappy gift so badly, but nobody ever did!

After that, I had a million thoughts of either throwing the game away, or burning it in a fire pit...

It was already bad enough when I participated in another white elephant gift exhange at another friend's house the other night, and someone stole the same gift twice that I really wanted, so I couldn't steal it!

That gift was a pink blanket sweatshirt with strawberries on it, and it's even a Japanese product, too!

Also, there was a little kid who tried to steal a handmade jingle bell necklace made by another friend that I was wearing to yesterday's Christmas event. I said no, he asked me twice before he shut up and left me alone.

Otherwise, I had a good time at the Christmas event, even though I cried when I got home...
 
wish I could buy that flower wand :,,,,,)
but who am I kidding, I don't need it. I'm happy with what I have. I miss having my heart wand and bluebird out though.

not even gonna get into how much of a mess I am right now. feels like it's never ending. I need some relief.
 
I was sitting at a restaurant a few nights ago. I normally don't listen in on people's conversations because it's none of my business, but one lady said something that caught my attention. As soon as she said "I don't mean to be racist, but..." and then she started spewing some very insensitive things. The two other ladies at the table were just shaking their heads, agreeing with every word being said. I found it strange how one person can hold those opinions and speak about it publicly, but also that the other two ladies were just blindly agreeing with her.

As if that wasn't enough, there was another table with two older men sitting at it. They made their whole meal a discussion of how amazing this country would be if Desantis and Trump were in office together. I got a few looks (by them) which I presume was related to my appearance. I'm, like, the picture definition of androgyny and they definitely were not amused by my they/them pronoun pin. They started talking to their waitress about politics. All three of them - yes, including the server - were all saying how great it was that there is a Trump 2024 Christmas ornament. I think it's safe to assume the server's views.

I also used to work at this same restaurant. I know how some people feel about these things. There's definitely a reason I did not come out here.
 
My work is tryna force me to keep my truck driving tag after telling me I could drop it. I have to talk to a head guy tomorrow and tell him why I suck at driving big ass trucks. Do they wanna see me cry
 
I don't know I am just sad. All I can think about how sad the burial of my grandma will be this wednesday. I am glad I have my husband by my side... He helped me a lot when my grandpa died.

I am asking myself and others what they believe happens after death. I wish I could believe in anything... In some sort of afterlife concept but no... It makes things even more difficult.
 
feeling like I'm in desperate need of a vacation 😪


edit: no, I'm in desperate need to get out of this... this godforsaken house. I feel like a defenseless animal trapped in a cage. I can't keep living like this.
 
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I talked to work and they asked why I don't want to drive trucks anymore. Straight up I said "I'm a loser and I cry too often". They accepted it. My work is 90% men so if I even mention feelings or emotions I see them get uncomfortable. Honestly is key, I ain't gonna lie
 
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