What's Bothering You?

[VernalLapin]

Still so ****ing upset that of all things a ****ing pinterest comment when I was looking for outfits for my ocs just destroyed me and filled me with so much self loathing and anger.

I liked the outfit. I still have it pinned on my private experimental oc board. But it hurts sm to even open that app, to even think about looking at that image, idk what to do except delete it and save it

 

[Dunquixote]

I just got an email about my order and I can only order two of my items because of restrictions set by the store and if I want the rest of the items, I have to place another order. I’m glad they contacted me though since I got scammed from one website before and even though this is from the official site, I still was nervous. I think my mom will be okay placing a new order in for the rest of the items, though she’ll probably be annoyed as I am.

 

[Giddy]

I woke up to my boss calling me on a Sunday, a day I do not come in. And she calls to say she can't unlock the door and if I could bring the keys. (What I am guessing is that she only has one key and the last people in locked both locks like sensible workers).I say sure since I am closer and get ready.
I tell my mum, and she says she can deliver it since she has a bike to get there. She gets ready and is gone.
I go check my phone for a minute and see my boss say, don't worry she got in somehow........are you bloody serious.

I messaged her telling her my mum already left, didn't bring her phone which would be useless anyways since I have no credit. And even if that was me going instead, I wouldn't hve seen that message till I got to the bloody shop.
She hasn't responded.

I just know my mum will be severely pissed off with her, and honestly, I don't care if she does say things to her because I'm done with that place. Either way both me and my mum would be mad no matter who went.

So I plan to clean the place while she is gone, already did the cat trays. Boy she really messed up our Sunday.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

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[spawnpoint]

ive been so deep in escapism from my irl problems that ive been forgetting to do important things irl.. ughh

 

[Mimi Cheems]

Oh boy! I love migraines first thing in the morning
I took a decongestant, thinking it was just sinus pressure at first-- then my left eye started THROBBING and had this constant stabby feeling of pain. So then I took one of my prescription pills, took a nap. Woke up thinking it worked. Nope. It's still there but very dull and it's not one of those 'this doesn't bother me' dull, it's a 'this is so annoying' dull. So, I took two Excedrin and I'm hoping THAT helps :^

 

[ZeldaCrossing64]

My job sucks enough as it is, but my coworkers make it even more miserable. Most of them are impatient with me, constantly tell me what to do, question me every time I do a task, and it feels like they're always judging/scrutinizing me. This one coworker in particular who works on weekends does all of this, and I hate working with her. She made me finish our closing shift while she stood out to talk with her boyfriend. :\

It feels like my coworkers take advantage of my quietness. I just do what's asked without question because I don't want to confront them, even if I'm already busy with something else. The language barrier makes it even more difficult, so I don't say anything. I notice it, and I'm not a ****ing idiot. I know I have to be assertive, and I tell myself that on a daily basis... But I can't.

I'm honestly thinking of quitting, because I can't take that hellhole anymore. I'm stressed, tired, and miserable because of it.

 

[Holla]

Well it’s now the third time tonight I’ve been woken by intestinal cramps. Why you gotta be so painful and why is it always when I should be sleeping!?

 

[LadyDestani]

Spoiler: Just feeling down

I called my mom today to confirm plans for Thanksgiving and it turns out she's sick. She sounded awful but kept trying to tell me she should be better in a few days. However, when I probed for more info, she admitted it might be Covid. The first person in my family to come down with it took an old expired home Covid test and it was positive.

Whether it's Covid or something else, I'm concerned because I'm still recovering from surgery and have to go back to work the first week of December. I made it clear to everyone ahead of time that I could not get sick right now because coughing, sneezing, or anything that tenses my core muscles still hurts pretty bad. I'm worried that even if my mom and everyone else that's been sick feels better, they could still be carriers.

My mom is trying to downplay it because she really wants to see me, which makes me feel guilty about possibly cancelling the whole thing. She's on her own now since my dad died several years ago and I know it's rough on her. But just this one time, I'm trying to prioritize myself. I've always been the one to sacrifice and support everyone else, but this whole surgery thing has been a huge deal for me. I hate feeling like I'm a terrible daughter for wanting to look after my own health.

Edit: My mom isn't guilting me on purpose. It's just my default mode. So it's really a me problem.

 

[Dunquixote]

Very minor. I’m doing okay today, but I’m so drained more than usual. I wanted to get more of my drawing done but I could barely work on it. Can’t play any games right now either. I probably should just go to sleep but I don’t want to sleep yet either. I’m not looking forward to going grocery shopping tomorrow though I’ll be able to grab more drinks and maybe some goodies for myself.

I also still feel guilty for not getting my girls anything for their gotcha day. :/ I know they don’t know but I really wanted to celebrate their special day every year. This is the first that I didn’t :/. I did give them treats but still…

I still need to start christmas shopping. I’ve been kind of avoiding thinking of it because some stuff I’m still struggling to cope with, not to mention Christmas shopping for my nieces are hard since a lot of what they want are from companies that I do not support. I might see if there are any squishables that they’d like.

No comments or replies please.

 

[Giddy]

I still want time to stop for just a but so I can handle my thoughts, plans, and feelings but it never seems to happen.

I'm not looking forward to seeing if UC have contacted me as I have been avoiding them (plus having to use old phone to get verify code and its never charged), not looking forward to that interview thing from that training I took. Was able to make them let me take it this week but the awful communication from them just ain't helping and makes me look bad when I don't get an email.

I found three jobs but not overaly confident in them, plus wanna do a portfolio but feels so long sometimes.

Also won't have any money till end of rh month and still haven't gotten everything for my mum.
My sister asked me for ideas she could get us via amazon but no links as it doesn't work or she can't see what we see here. Which just makes it harder because my mum doesn't really know or want alot from her this year. Because of paying etc
And just means more for me because I saw things she would like but I have to get them instead.
Have no idea what to ask either. Since her view is different from mine I have no idea what to ask for.

Also boss is late today so having to wait for her. This is why I give her mu hours after I know I'm not dealing with her after Wednesday because everyone else is early.
And if I give it too early and try ab change it because I thought she ve on time, she have a malfunction
Get me outta here.

 

[oddbear]

Spoiler

my friend keeps sending me text messages over and over and it’s gotten to the point where i don’t know if i can be friends with her.
she loves role playing on discord and asks me to role play all the time, and i don’t have a problem with that. role playing is fun for me sometimes, but she asks me to rp constantly. when i wake up in the morning, the second text i get is “continue rp?”. there have been times where traumatic things have happened in my life or i have bad mental health days and if i say i don’t want to rp bc of that then i get “let’s rp to get your mind off of it” or “i wanted to rp, not be your therapist.” if i step away from my phone for 5 minutes, i get 10 text messages, and if i step away from my phone for 2 hours, i get 40-70 text messages from her. and if i say i don’t want to bc something happened or i just don’t feel up to it, she says “ok, you GET a 30 minute break.” not “we can stop here until you feel up to it again.” no, i get as much time as she feels like giving me.
she blames this on separation anxiety, and if she does have separation anxiety, i truly feel bad for her. i would never want to intentionally give someone anxiety. it just doesn’t feel true though. we’ve only known each other for 2 years, and we don’t see each other in person very often. can you get separation anxiety from a friend you’ve known for 2 years and barely see in person?? idk
it genuinely feels like she doesn’t care about me as a person and my needs and wants. it doesn’t matter what happens to me in my life as long as we can roleplay.

edit: for context, i had 545 notifications last monday. 417 of them were from imessage and i only text my mom and my sister who don’t send me that many messages. 48 of them were from discord. she sent me nearly if not 500 messages.

kind of a vent

 

[lasagne_of_death]

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[Chronos314_XD]

Spoiler

my friend keeps sending me text messages over and over and it’s gotten to the point where i don’t know if i can be friends with her.
she loves role playing on discord and asks me to role play all the time, and i don’t have a problem with that. role playing is fun for me sometimes, but she asks me to rp constantly. when i wake up in the morning, the second text i get is “continue rp?”. there have been times where traumatic things have happened in my life or i have bad mental health days and if i say i don’t want to rp bc of that then i get “let’s rp to get your mind off of it” or “i wanted to rp, not be your therapist.” if i step away from my phone for 5 minutes, i get 10 text messages, and if i step away from my phone for 2 hours, i get 40-70 text messages from her. and if i say i don’t want to bc something happened or i just don’t feel up to it, she says “ok, you GET a 30 minute break.” not “we can stop here until you feel up to it again.” no, i get as much time as she feels like giving me.
she blames this on separation anxiety, and if she does have separation anxiety, i truly feel bad for her. i would never want to intentionally give someone anxiety. it just doesn’t feel true though. we’ve only known each other for 2 years, and we don’t see each other in person very often. can you get separation anxiety from a friend you’ve known for 2 years and barely see in person?? idk
it genuinely feels like she doesn’t care about me as a person and my needs and wants. it doesn’t matter what happens to me in my life as long as we can roleplay.

edit: for context, i had 545 notifications last monday. 417 of them were from imessage and i only text my mom and my sister who don’t send me that many messages. 48 of them were from discord. she sent me nearly if not 500 messages.

kind of a vent

Sorry if you don't want replies at the moment but yeah she shouldn't be treating you like that at all, I'm not trying to make assumptions but it definitely seems like a big red flag. Not telling you to jump to cutting her out of your life cause I obviously don't know the full context about your friendship and I don't want to meddle in personal business that I barely know anything about but that behavior from her is definitely concerning and she needs to quit it immediately if it's negatively affecting your friendship. Also considering what you've said about the separation anxiety stuff, even if she does have it (which if she does I truly do feel awful for her) she shouldn't be using it as a get out of jail free card for her behavior and not learning anything from it.

 

[VernalLapin]

I am straight up not having a good time. Doing so much worse than i thought i was. I can barely do anything. So ****ing stressed. I’m a mess. I think I started hyperfixating on something. But I decided now is a bad time, think I’ve managed to tamp it down before it gets completely out of control. I knew it’d be detrimental to my health in that it will distract me too much. It comforts me to know that I can just put it on the shelf for later and get it back out when it’s not so risky.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

deleted (ty all for the hugs )

 

[Dunquixote]

I just finished grocery shopping with my mom and I’m miserable. I wasn’t having the greatest thoughts; was super depressed. I didn’t sleep very well either since I didn’t know we’d be going this early and my dad’s voice kept waking me up since my walls aren’t insulated. I took my medicine before coming but it is more for my anxiety. My anxiety wasn’t too bad because of it. I’m glad we’re going home now. I can’t stand the crowds and Christmas music. Cramps are bothering me a little too.

My dad is so rude! He always has been but he has gotten worse over the years. We were putting groceries away and my mom asked me to open the side door, but my door opens it when i got there and mumbled something like what’s f’ing wrong with you. Door knob fell off closet door and since everyone was in a different room i called out to them. i was relaxed bit my dad said in a rude voice “relax”. this is part of the reason why i come out of my room less. my dad always is rude to everyone but treats me differently and the worse many times.

 

[daringred_]

Spoiler

discovered the clinic i wanted to go to for adhd might not be a good fit because apparently you have to have shared care, and they don't do annual reviews. i found another clinic that might be possible, but i'm getting mixed results on whether they offer in-person assessments. the adhd right to choose website says yes, if remote ones aren't suitable, but i couldn't find anything on the clinic's website about in-person ones. i did shoot them an email first thing this morning but haven't heard anything back today. i'm kind of stressing over it because my appointment is wednesday morning, and idk if i can escalate the issue and my complaint if i don't even know which clinic i want to be referred to through right to choose lol. i might ask my GP if she can call them on my behalf and find out, since she is really nice, but idk if she will. i just wish more providers offered in-person assessments. i get that remote ones are convenient for a lot of people, but not everyone, so it really sucks that the vast majority of them are online only. it's starting to feel like i might have to go private, and i can technically afford it (though, again, idk if i can get shared care) but the thought of spending two grand at once makes me queasy lol. what if i spend all that and they tell me i don't have it?

 

[CylieDanny]

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[JellyLu]

My cousin's ex just left her cats behind in the old house when she moved. Now they went to the realtor who hopefully keeps them together as they're bonded literal siblings. Who the hell does that?! They literally grew up with you and the children and you LEAVE them behind like trash???! If this is how you treat animals I'd hate to be a patient at the hospital where you nurse. Disgusting.