Foreverfox
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Foreverfox's Creature:
Even though I don't know you, I wish I could give you a hug. I can't imagine how much this all hurts. Maybe something small and unexpected will bring you a bit of joy tomorrow. I will hope so for you! And my inbox is always open if you ever need to talk to someone.My birthday is tomorrow, and it's, kind of 50/50 situation honestly. On the one hand I'm excited, especially because I'll finally get to see the present my best friend made for me. But also, it's, weird. Might get a little heavy, so I'll put the reasons why in a spoiler.
I want to be happy on my birthday but, this is all just breaking my heart. and I don't know what to do.So, earlier this year, my father passed away very suddenly. I didn't know he was sick until I got an email telling me he was dying and didn't have much time left. That was in the morning, and he died that evening. Overall, I think I've been coping with it pretty well. He was never really around, I mostly knew him from the occasional letter and a few calls, though those were mostly for my sister or my mom. Still, it hit me pretty hard yesterday, and today, that he's gone. That this year I won't get a quick phone call to say happy birthday or his trademark send flowers for every occasion. He's just gone.
And it's not just him, either. This is the first year I'm celebrating my birthday without my older sister. She's still alive but, we haven't spoken in months and the few times we have she, treated me kindly of badly. I don't even think she'll remember it is my birthday, at least that's how her behavior towards me for the last times I knew her, leads me to believe. We used to be, close as anything, for most of my life. And now it's all just gone and, I try to deal with it as best I can, but sometimes it still really hurts just, everything. I'll be honest, I don't have a lot of people in my life, even fewer that I'm actually close with. And now I've lost half of the few people who are most important to me in less than a year and it's. Feels really messed up.