What's Bothering You?

EerieCreatures said:
My birthday is tomorrow, and it's, kind of 50/50 situation honestly. On the one hand I'm excited, especially because I'll finally get to see the present my best friend made for me. But also, it's, weird. Might get a little heavy, so I'll put the reasons why in a spoiler.

So, earlier this year, my father passed away very suddenly. I didn't know he was sick until I got an email telling me he was dying and didn't have much time left. That was in the morning, and he died that evening. Overall, I think I've been coping with it pretty well. He was never really around, I mostly knew him from the occasional letter and a few calls, though those were mostly for my sister or my mom. Still, it hit me pretty hard yesterday, and today, that he's gone. That this year I won't get a quick phone call to say happy birthday or his trademark send flowers for every occasion. He's just gone.

And it's not just him, either. This is the first year I'm celebrating my birthday without my older sister. She's still alive but, we haven't spoken in months and the few times we have she, treated me kindly of badly. I don't even think she'll remember it is my birthday, at least that's how her behavior towards me for the last times I knew her, leads me to believe. We used to be, close as anything, for most of my life. And now it's all just gone and, I try to deal with it as best I can, but sometimes it still really hurts just, everything. I'll be honest, I don't have a lot of people in my life, even fewer that I'm actually close with. And now I've lost half of the few people who are most important to me in less than a year and it's. Feels really messed up.
I want to be happy on my birthday but, this is all just breaking my heart. and I don't know what to do.
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Even though I don't know you, I wish I could give you a hug. I can't imagine how much this all hurts. Maybe something small and unexpected will bring you a bit of joy tomorrow. :) I will hope so for you! And my inbox is always open if you ever need to talk to someone.
 
the lady at Walgreens wasn’t lying when she said I might have minor flu like symptoms after my second shot, but I didn’t expect it to be this bad… it hurts to even lift my arm and I have a massive headache. currently running on 2 Tylenol 🙏🏻
 
Foreverfox said:
Even though I don't know you, I wish I could give you a hug. I can't imagine how much this all hurts. Maybe something small and unexpected will bring you a bit of joy tomorrow. :) I will hope so for you! And my inbox is always open if you ever need to talk to someone.
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Thank you, I really appreciate that a lot actually. I've been okay most of the time but, thinking about my birthday just brought up a lot of pain all of a sudden. That would be nice though, a little surprise, I'll hope for it too. ^^ Thank you again though, your kindness really means a lot to me.
 
EerieCreatures said:
My birthday is tomorrow, and it's, kind of 50/50 situation honestly. On the one hand I'm excited, especially because I'll finally get to see the present my best friend made for me. But also, it's, weird. Might get a little heavy, so I'll put the reasons why in a spoiler.

So, earlier this year, my father passed away very suddenly. I didn't know he was sick until I got an email telling me he was dying and didn't have much time left. That was in the morning, and he died that evening. Overall, I think I've been coping with it pretty well. He was never really around, I mostly knew him from the occasional letter and a few calls, though those were mostly for my sister or my mom. Still, it hit me pretty hard yesterday, and today, that he's gone. That this year I won't get a quick phone call to say happy birthday or his trademark send flowers for every occasion. He's just gone.

And it's not just him, either. This is the first year I'm celebrating my birthday without my older sister. She's still alive but, we haven't spoken in months and the few times we have she, treated me kindly of badly. I don't even think she'll remember it is my birthday, at least that's how her behavior towards me for the last times I knew her, leads me to believe. We used to be, close as anything, for most of my life. And now it's all just gone and, I try to deal with it as best I can, but sometimes it still really hurts just, everything. I'll be honest, I don't have a lot of people in my life, even fewer that I'm actually close with. And now I've lost half of the few people who are most important to me in less than a year and it's. Feels really messed up.
I want to be happy on my birthday but, this is all just breaking my heart. and I don't know what to do.
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I’m really sorry to hear that. Don’t feel ashamed if you aren’t in good spirits on your birthday or anytime soon. That is a lot what you’re going through. And when it comes to grief, my mom says there is nothing wrong with taking a long time to move on; it’s human nature to have difficulty and she tells me it’s okay for me to still cry and miss my two kitties who passed away over three years ago.

I’m sure your friend will understand if she’s aware of your situation. If you need to talk, my dms are open too. Hang in there.
 
Dunquixote said:
I’m really sorry to hear that. Don’t feel ashamed if you aren’t in good spirits on your birthday or anytime soon. That is a lot what you’re going through. And when it comes to grief, my mom says there is nothing wrong with taking a long time to move on; it’s human nature to have difficulty and she tells me it’s okay for me to still cry and miss my two kitties who passed away over three years ago.

I’m sure your friend will understand if she’s aware of your situation. If you need to talk, my dms are open too. Hang in there.
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Thank you, this is the second time you've said things I needed to hear, when I needed them, and I'm very grateful for that. ❤ I tend to be a bit hard on myself about getting sad, when I feel I'm supposed to be happy. Which doesn't really helps things much, I guess.
And I'm sorry, about your kitties, I have two of my own so I can imagine how difficult it must have been to lose them too.

My friend does know, and she has been really good to me and trying to help me throughout all of this. But I dislike troubling her with unpleasant things like this, especially with her birthday in a few days as well. I really do appreciate the offer to talk, and I will do my best.
 
I'm tempted to join genshin twt because I love the game but I'm afraid I won't get to enjoy it because I feel anything I do will somehow be problematic to someone and it'll ruin my whole experience with the game. It's the same with what happened to anitwt, I joined and instantly found so many toxic things like shipping wars and stuff, it was so hard for me to enjoy things at peace without finding someone getting mad at something 24/7. :( I get maybe some are warranted but some are just downright rude and disrespectful.

I'll just sit in my little corner and enjoy the game myself hahaha.
 
Psydye said:
My Switch has a faulty backlight and I'm not sure how it happened. Either I'm gonna have to get it repaired by someone(not sure who), repair myself(whom I don't trust) or invest in another Switch. *sigh*
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Ugh I'm sorry :(I need to replace my battery or just buy a new one myself I think, think it's kinda fried cause I never got how to properly turn it off as I should have D:
 
Sometimes I feel like I'm my own worst enemy. I hate making mistakes and I hold myself so accountable to make sure it doesn't happen again.
 
EerieCreatures said:
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Hey, I know you posted this yesterday, but I just wanted to let you know you’re not alone. My mom passed away in December of last year and my sister is in prison, so it has basically just been my dad, stepmom, and myself. I don’t have that many people I’m close with either. Some days I cry, others I don’t. Sometimes I feel like I just want to give up and not try anymore, but I don’t give up. Because I know a time will come when my efforts will pay off and I’ll be in a better situation and be closer with more people. My martial arts is what taught me to never give up. Things might be rough for you right now, but they’ll get better. To be honest, I didn’t really enjoy my birthday this year or last year either, so I know how it feels. Hang in there please and don’t give up, and if you ever need someone to vent to or just want to talk my DMs and profile posts are open. < 3
 
do i really have to wait til july 27th or whatever it is for samurai warriors 5 for switch :C
 
Vrisnem said:
Yes, unfortunately. I'm so impatient for this game. I'm currently playing Dynasty Warriors 8: Empires in the meantime.
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Same, since the D/P Pokémon remakes aren't till later autumn I've been so excited for this... still such a long time left D:

Kinda sucks it only got a Switch release in Japan, shame for such a good game series.
 
skarmoury said:
I'm tempted to join genshin twt because I love the game but I'm afraid I won't get to enjoy it because I feel anything I do will somehow be problematic to someone and it'll ruin my whole experience with the game. It's the same with what happened to anitwt, I joined and instantly found so many toxic things like shipping wars and stuff, it was so hard for me to enjoy things at peace without finding someone getting mad at something 24/7. :( I get maybe some are warranted but some are just downright rude and disrespectful.

I'll just sit in my little corner and enjoy the game myself hahaha.
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I don't know what a twt is, but I think I do that with a few things now. It was nice trading pokemon with a few people elsewhere, then we got a hacker wanting to spread their hacked mon in a small non hacking group. This was years ago, but they're still at it.
 
I really don’t like the sound of firecrackers. I don’t get why people like them so much. Intrusive thoughts again...

My phone is annoying me. stay on charge when I move or type please.
 
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I was feeling so calm and collected this morning and dealing with things so well (like surprisingly well), but now anxiety has just taken over. So much so that I feel really dizzy and can only just function. I hate that I let worrying get the better of me so often lately.
 
Two things that have been bothering me for the last few days...

Why do I attract the weirdos when it comes to men? I've been talking to this guy at the bus stop who genuinely seemed nice (for a change) and then the other day he dropped this weird story about being mistaken for a sex offender by the police for a few weeks. and I honestly had no idea whether or not he was being serious or making a joke but it made me really uncomfortable. Meanwhile in the space of a few months a friend of mine breaks up with her loser boyfriend and another male friend of her's confesses he has a crush on her. Why is it so easy for some people to get decent guys to like them without any effort but for others (like myself) things always turn weird with men?
 
EerieCreatures said:
My birthday is tomorrow, and it's, kind of 50/50 situation honestly. On the one hand I'm excited, especially because I'll finally get to see the present my best friend made for me. But also, it's, weird. Might get a little heavy, so I'll put the reasons why in a spoiler.

So, earlier this year, my father passed away very suddenly. I didn't know he was sick until I got an email telling me he was dying and didn't have much time left. That was in the morning, and he died that evening. Overall, I think I've been coping with it pretty well. He was never really around, I mostly knew him from the occasional letter and a few calls, though those were mostly for my sister or my mom. Still, it hit me pretty hard yesterday, and today, that he's gone. That this year I won't get a quick phone call to say happy birthday or his trademark send flowers for every occasion. He's just gone.

And it's not just him, either. This is the first year I'm celebrating my birthday without my older sister. She's still alive but, we haven't spoken in months and the few times we have she, treated me kindly of badly. I don't even think she'll remember it is my birthday, at least that's how her behavior towards me for the last times I knew her, leads me to believe. We used to be, close as anything, for most of my life. And now it's all just gone and, I try to deal with it as best I can, but sometimes it still really hurts just, everything. I'll be honest, I don't have a lot of people in my life, even fewer that I'm actually close with. And now I've lost half of the few people who are most important to me in less than a year and it's. Feels really messed up.
I want to be happy on my birthday but, this is all just breaking my heart. and I don't know what to do.
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Happy Birthday 💜 I don't have any wisdom I'm afraid, but despite everything you've been going through, I hope you've had/are having a good day. At the very least, I'm glad you have your best friend and their gift for you today. 💜
 
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