What's Bothering You?

I'm sorry to hear about your accident and I'm glad that you're safe! Is there anyone higher than your foreman that you can make a complaint or file a report to? It sounds like your workplace doesn't take health and safety seriously and that really sucks ://
The superintendent came to the scene and told me the truck absolutely needed to go to the mechanic shop, so that validated me enough to ignore the foreman. Thanks for your concern though. Safety hasn't been a priority at my work but I have to give them credit that the safety had improved over the last year. They brought in an extra safety committee just to address the issue. At least I don't see anyone drunk on the ports property anymore lmao.
 

:( I’m so sorry. Please don’t say life is barely worth living :( that makes me so sad. You’re one of the nicest people I know and you have every right to live and be happy. I wish there was something more I can do for you. Your situation sounds incredibly frustrating and disheartening; I don’t blame you for not wanting to go to the doctor again. Please hang in there and let me know if I can do anything for you
 
:( I’m so sorry. Please don’t say life is barely worth living :( that makes me so sad. You’re one of the nicest people I know and you have every right to live and be happy. I wish there was something more I can do for you. Your situation sounds incredibly frustrating and disheartening; I don’t blame you for not wanting to go to the doctor again. Please hang in there and let me know if I can do anything for you
thanks dun 🖤 sorry for saying that
 
A bit crazy so I'll just put a Spoiler
So after the shooting yesterday I have some new info about what happened. So first no one was killed, though one person was injured. And because of what happened, we're on what my dad calls "cool down" which means no one can leave the house for the day just to make sure we're safe. I don't go outside that much anyway, but the part that bothers me is the shooting part itself. I just hope it doesn't happen again.
 
im ****ed off bc I was looking for quizzes on romantic orientation and some stupid website has the audacity to be like "romantic orientation is just another term for sexual orientation" NO THE **** IT ISN'T. JUST BECAUSE I'M ACE DOES NOT MEAN I'M ARO TOO YOU DUMB ****.

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the audacity, the sheer bs.
 
Firecrackers again. I don’t get why people feel the need to shoot them all year around and pretty much all throughout the day. I’m having a lot of intrusive thoughts. Also, annoyed I left some marks from erasing what I was working on earlier. I should have looked how to draw hands first 😓. I should have started out with something simple.
 
I am grumpy today so I’m back.

If summer wasn’t bad enough the neighbours with a backyard behind my house insist on having fires. Every damn night. Lord knows what they burn but it is so smoky that we have to close all our doors and windows and they wait! They wait until it’s finally starting to cool down to go outside and burn things. It’s not a regular “roasting marshmallows” campfire because that I wouldn’t mind. This is a “we’re burning something other than wood” fire and it’s always so smoky and it smells terrible.

I hate it. I hate summer. I want it to be cold again so my neighbours are stuck inside. 🙄
 
The superintendent came to the scene and told me the truck absolutely needed to go to the mechanic shop, so that validated me enough to ignore the foreman. Thanks for your concern though. Safety hasn't been a priority at my work but I have to give them credit that the safety had improved over the last year. They brought in an extra safety committee just to address the issue. At least I don't see anyone drunk on the ports property anymore lmao.
yeah I just know how crap it can be when your workplace ignores your safety concerns, or even goes as far as covering it up. I've seen it happen to friends and to myself. That's good that your superintendent helped out though. I hope they continue to be safer for your sake and you continue to stick up for yourself :)

still haven't come out to my dad and others and it's really bothering me. also my mom continued to use my old name/pronouns, and when I correct her she just gets all defensive and mad at me for not "being patient." I know she prob needs more time to get used to it but honestly the fact that she keeps getting it wrong 1. makes me feel really uncomfortable and 2. makes me feel like me changing my preferred name/pronouns is a burden and insignificant. and the fact that I'm afraid to tell anyone else (especially my dad) makes me feel invalidated.

I want to go to a pride festival but the one happening nearby won't happen til after I leave to go south. I guess it's not like I could really make friends anyways ://///


also my dad really still tryna force me to do **** even tho I'll literally be 22 in 5 days.
im ****ed off bc I was looking for quizzes on romantic orientation and some stupid website has the audacity to be like "romantic orientation is just another term for sexual orientation" NO THE **** IT ISN'T. JUST BECAUSE I'M ACE DOES NOT MEAN I'M ARO TOO YOU DUMB ****.

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the audacity, the sheer bs.
I can relate to both of these.

I'm not out to anyone irl about being aroace. All my workmates are either married, have partners and/or kids, and then there's me in my own aroace world where I wouldn't be bothered if I stayed single for life. I feel like if I was out to my workmates, and even friends/family, there would be an explanation for why I am the way I am. Perhaps there doesn't need to be an explanation, but I'd feel more at peace if people knew how I truly felt/what I truly am. I'm sorry to hear that you're struggling as well, especially with your mum. I'm sure she is trying to make an effort and it may take some time, but don't let that feel like you're a hassle to people because you deserve to have them call you by the right name and/or pronouns <3

as for the second part, that's so BS lol but I'm not surprised as some people don't know how to differentiate between the two. It's like how I'm in a few ace groups on Facebook and ever since i joined them I've been getting more and more dating app ads?? Fb clearly doesn't understand what aroace truly means LOL
 
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all of my old threads keep getting revived and its SCARY </3

me from before 2019 is the complete opposite of the current me
 
I just got done crying for a bit. I think I was bottling my emotions and needed to let them out. I was feeling like I haven’t been a good enough friend to my friends. So many people look up to me and depend on me and sometimes I feel like I let them down... but they reassured me that’s not the case. The Mavs also lost their series. I’m starting to feel better though.
 
Helped a client with their academics and was I hoping to get paid a bit more since I put a lot more effort and spent a lot more hours into teaching than I had expected. Now the client refuses to give me a raise and I just feel sad. Actually, the client hasn’t even paid me, which sucks a lot more. Wish I had used the time to study for myself instead of worrying about someone else‘s deadlines if I wasn’t getting paid anyway lol.

Also, I can’t care enough for this module at all. At this rate I’m going to fail; I don’t want to, but god I can’t be bothered. I’m tired of the grind and I want a longer break.
 
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I stayed up too late, I’m going to pay for it in the morning. I have a feeling that I’m not going to sleep well tonight anyway.
 
medical bills came in yesterday. would have rather just died than gone into the doctor. life is barely worth living as it is now i have to pay sooo much money and i dont even get anything out of it. i hate this. i hate everything. im never going to a doctor again. they didnt even help me at all. whats the point of insurance anyways
Noo noo, never say that! You are more important to people than you realize! I totally understand how you feel about medical bills, and hating everything, I really do. I'm so sorry you feel this way. Please feel free to PM me, okay? Call your medical facility's billing department - most, if not all of them have a payment plan option. Totally take advantage of those. Insurance is finicky - it always feels as though it's not worth it until you meet your deductible, but the amount needed to meet it is insane.

Last year, I had a surgery that just the surgery alone cost $125,000 but with all the other appointments associated with it, it was probably $200,000. I paid ZERO out of pocket, because I'd met my deductible already. Crazyyy!

Edit: my concept of time has eluded me. It was 2 years ago lol
 
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