What's Bothering You?

I've been spiralling lately. I have so much work on my plate on top of my brother being fatally ill and in need of a lot of care meaning that I am constantly travelling to help nurse him. My stress levels have gotten so high that I have started having flashbacks and night terrors again. I keep waking up in a state of complete panic and confusion, not a nice way to start a day. My dog has been helping me a lot, keeping a close eye on me, and keeping me company. Just hoping I can snap out of it.
 
Oh, man... I am so not ready for the fourth of July. Don't get me wrong, it's a nice holiday, but the fireworks are already bad here, and fourth of July fireworks are usually 10000000x worse
I wish I lived in a quiet neighborhood where nobody threw fireworks 😡🙉

Same! Growing up, there used to be a horse stable where the neighborhood now is. I miss that stable. I love horses and so much quieter. Also no dogs constantly barking at night. I honestly don’t care about the holiday anymore partially because of my hate for the fireworks and crackers and also for other reasons that I won’t go into detail.
 
I wish regular people couldn’t buy fireworks. I’m sure I sound like a Scrooge but I wish only proper companies could buy them and only for specific celebrations. It’s Canada day and my neighbours have been setting off fireworks and firecrackers since 8pm! It wasn’t even dark out yet! And I’m sure they’ll go for a while yet even though it’s almost 11:30. I hate them.
 
I know I don't smoke and I honestly really don't want to, but when everyone else is smoking and gettin cozy and chill I can't help but feel really left out 🙃
 
I was driving back from a work site today and following this person who went so slow around every corner, then went 20 kph over the limit on every straight bit. I'd catch up to them on the corners, try to overtake, but then they'd speed up again. Be consistent ffs!! You either drive fast all the time or go slow, don't slow down all the time because it's so annoying!

I finished work half an hour earlier today and I feel bad knowing others were probably still working. I know I've well in truly done my hours this week but I still feel bad.
 
My hands are dry to the point I can feel them stinging even right now. They look like old man hands… I really need to find the good hand lotion we have and put some on. It hurts to even type right now. :(

If you’ve noticed some of my recent pictures in the WDYLL thread, my hands are red. Yes. THAT is how dry they are. I’ve tried just about everything from drinking more water to washing them more. I just hope using this stuff will actually work and help heal them.

Also can’t wait for my sleep schedule to go back to normal.
 
Oh, man... I am so not ready for the fourth of July. Don't get me wrong, it's a nice holiday, but the fireworks are already bad here, and fourth of July fireworks are usually 10000000x worse
I wish I lived in a quiet neighborhood where nobody threw fireworks 😡🙉
My neighbor is currently using them, and I'm trying to calm down my kitten. When I was kid, I always got nervous

But it's like two houses down, and loud. We were just sleeping -3-
 
Want to preface that I have a therapist and am not a danger to myself. I am struggling tonight and just need a bit of an outlet. But I will be okay. Put it behind a spoiler just in case. Anyway:
I think I like myself. Or at least I feel I have embraced myself and what I am. I like being alone with my thoughts. I like thinking about how my mind works, and how I feel, and having strong opinions, and expressing my opinions (in situations that do not make me too anxious). I am kind of a know it all.

but I also feel just these moments of such deep deep self loathing sometimes, and more than usual this past we. Usually after interacting with others ‘too much’ (what is too much changes). It is such a terrible dark feeling, like a heavy sinking weight inside.

And I don’t know what to do about it.
 
My hands are dry to the point I can feel them stinging even right now. They look like old man hands… I really need to find the good hand lotion we have and put some on. It hurts to even type right now. :(

If you’ve noticed some of my recent pictures in the WDYLL thread, my hands are red. Yes. THAT is how dry they are. I’ve tried just about everything from drinking more water to washing them more. I just hope using this stuff will actually work and help heal them.

Also can’t wait for my sleep schedule to go back to normal.

Hey Midoriya! I haven't seen your hands but my dad had really dry hands this past winter. They felt like sandpaper - it was bad. I just wanted to throw a few things out there!

A.) Washing your hands more will actually dry them out more. That's why my dads were so bad - between the sanitizer and constant washing with covid and his just generally dry skin it was rough.

B.) His favourite hand creams and the ones that helped most were Working Hands hand cream, La Roche Posay Lipikar Cream and the La Roche Posay Cicaplast creams. I don't know if the La Roche Posay will be easily accessible to you or not as I get them in a Canadian drug store but those are the few my dad could tolerate as he doesn't like his hands to feel greasy nor does he like strong scents.

C.) Do you have any gloves? It helps to put on a decent amount of hand cream and then wear some gloves (we have some of those disposable kinds but not the kind with power in them!) for I think 15 minutes a minimum? Just to help the cream soak in better.

Hopefully your hands start feeling better soon!
 
If you’ve noticed some of my recent pictures in the WDYLL thread, my hands are red. Yes. THAT is how dry they are. I’ve tried just about everything from drinking more water to washing them more. I just hope using this stuff will actually work and help heal them.
Wash your hands less and avoid soap and hand sanitizers. I realise how backwards that sounds in the current climate but these things will dry your skin out further - so use only when necessary. Purchase a quality hand cream. If you don't see improvement see a doctor - it could be a skin infection or new allergy.
 
My neighbor is currently using them, and I'm trying to calm down my kitten. When I was kid, I always got nervous

But it's like two houses down, and loud. We were just sleeping -3-
Mine are too and it's 1:40am here! (That's why I'm awake because I'm someone who simply can't sleep with loud noises) it's like thy are preparing for the fourth of July! I know it's a tradition to throw fireworks on the fourth of July, but it's July 2nd ☹
 

Thank you guys for responding. I will definitely wash my hands only when absolutely necessary. Didn’t realize that that would dry them out faster, although I guess that makes sense.

I’m using this… Molton Brown London? Hand lotion. Not even sure how I have this, but apparently it’s working as I just put some on ten minutes ago and my hands are already starting to feel better. I will reapply it periodically and update you guys on the results. If it stops being effective, I will find a better hand lotion. Thank you. :)
 
@Vrisnem Hey, are you feeling better from the shot than yesterday?
Yes, I am, thank you! I eventually regained sensation in my face. 😂

Although over the next couple of weeks I need to have injections every 48hrs and blood tests done so I'm unfortunately nowhere near done with needles. 😓
 
I got my wisdom teeth taken out and I’m so hungry for proper food but I’m stuck eating mush. It was my dad birthday and I tried to hard to eat his birthday cake but I just couldn’t. I’m so hungry :(
 
Okay yeah 12 will definitely bee too large for me if it's large around the bust cause I don't have that big lol. Might just get one of those puffy arms 'dancer' dresses instead.
 
Was gonna try changing my income/work place on the union web page so I can get correct unemployment money and stuff whenever that time comes, turns out I can't even do that properly. Big facepalm.
 
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